this lingering feeling.

i do not believe that there is not a medical term for this.

this elevated heart rate, this discomfort in the head, the cold in the feet, the lack of appetite, the satiation for nothing else but you are definitely symptoms of something more than a mere heartbreak or rather an impending one.

i believe doctors and pharmacists have already come up with a drug to relieve the above mentioned indications. doctors in the polyclinic are smart, only in generalised illnesses and i bet they will not be able to identify this.

i cant facebook it, it will be too obvious.

i cant really tumblr it because you might get it wrong.

i cant cry because there is always people around.

i want to burst. (more like explode)

this uncertainty is like a parasite in my body,

growing bigger, eating me from the inside.

it is only growing stronger because of the too many possibilities that may happen.

i need surgery to remove that parasite once and for all.

they say, the host might sometimes die along when they need to remove the parasite.

if that's what it takes.. let it be.

this is not fair. you made me fall. and now i have to undo it?

this is not a microsoft document. you dont just click the undo button.

how am i going to cope?

i am not getting younger. we are not.

that's what you said.