things have taken a turn. no wait, things have been taking a few turns now. i hate this feeling of uncertainty. not knowing what is going to happen.

everyone thinks im going to get it. i applied for a degree course in SIT. frankly, i dont have faith. by typing that out, am i jinxing it? my GPA, is low. so low, that i do not bother remembering it.

people had a hard time believing that i dont remember my GPA. when i was in poly, i did not even know i had to know what a GPA was. i aimed to not fail. dammit. i was 17, 18 and 19 years old. what did i know?

now, knowing that i needed to know what a GPA, does not change the past.

NOTHING, changes the past.

i am worried about the different possibilities. what will happen in june 2012? i have never been so worried about the future. i told myself and my mum that, whatever happens i will be ready. i dont believe myself now.

he always says things happen for a reason. newsflash! no one knows that reason until it does happen. so till that time comes, we will sit around and wait. right now, there is nothing i can do to make things better. and they also say, why worry about things that you cant do?

there is no point to this post.