this is going to be tough to type. i am going to brave this headache and heartache to remind me of that fateful night.

i had a memorable time yesterday. no, i did not have fun. it was tiring, scary and traumatising. yeah i was dancing. i forgot all of that after i had to deal with two of my drunk friends.

so aziana won a 1 night stay at the raffles marina. hannah decided that it will be a cool idea that we try clubbing. when i first heard the plan a week earlier, i was really sceptical. i was suggesting just hanging out in the room and chat.

i was scared. i wanted to discuss with him about wednesday. how was i to talk when he refused to meet me? i decided i wanted to go anyway because i had permission from my mum.

so we checked in. from our room, we could see the sea, jaybee (johore bahru) and the second link. hannah started on our nails. after the rain stopped, we changed and headed to the pool. the pool was beside the all those parked yatches. too cool.

we got hungry and ordered food. the servings were huge! hannah started doing my hair and while watching embun di tengah hari on suria. we made our way out of tuas around 2320hrs.

got to attica. or was it attica too? i dont even know. hannah said we should go in there. oh! not before parking at central mall and then going round and round to look for the exit to get to clarke quay.

so we went to the space which was supposedly the dance floor. i was just moving to the beat. we danced in a triangle. me and hannah. aziana was standing there, being awkward and just observing. there were guys around. i realised there were alot of foreign guys. but they were old and scary looking and i did not dare to make eye contact.

we got tired and wanted somemore drinks. we went all the way back to the front. my friends wanted to drink more alcohol. they ordered this weird concoction called the flaming lambo. i remembered the name so well because i will never forget how the drink looked like.. in my head, 'they can drink all they want, as long as i will be driving.' I DID NOT REALISE THE REPERCUSSIONS OF DRINKING. it did not cross my mind that people do CRAZY THINGS when they get drunk.

after a shot of tequila, all hell broke loose. i dont think i m going to describe what happened in detail . lets just say they put on a show. and while they were doing that, i was busy trying to separate them. how was i supposed to grind an ang moh guy when my friends dont know what they were doing? even if i wanted to! hah. T_T

one was dancing so closely with an indian dude, the other disappeared. i was scared! i did not know what to do. i kept calling their names but they ignored me. with all that adrenaline, trying to figure out what to do, thank god i didnt cry.

i managed to finally drag them out. i never used so much strength before. one wanted to go back in and the bouncer told her off that she was not allowed back in till she was fine. got her to sit and she smoked. they kept asking for more dancing and more vodkas. i had to freaking coax them. talked to them like they were fuckin babies.

after about 15minutes, we were still outside the club. this angel of a man, who saw everything inside went to us and asked y we were still there. i said that they couldnt walk. he offered to walk us to the car. in the midst of everything, we found out that his name was chris, he's married with 3 kids, has been in singapore for a year and a half and his wife was at another club because its ladies night! i asked chris if he thought my friends needed food. he looked at me strange. i exclaimed, "its my first time!" and he went, "you've never went drinking with friends before?"
"NO!"

then, to my horror, hannah offered him to kiss me because i didnt get some! being possibly the only gentleman in the freaking world, he declined. he stayed with them while i went up to get the car down. my heart was beating so fast as i drove the car down the spiral carpark. i had to reverse the car to them. i was so scared i didnt know how to unlock the doors! epic fail. chris helped them in finally. and i waved him goodbye.

i was real quiet in the car. so many things were going through my head. images of what just happened kept playing in my head. i should not have let them drink too much. but how was i to know?! one wanted the radio played real loud. one kept saying she wanted vodka and had to pee. not that it was my car. hah.

stopped at caltex somewhere at benoi road to get water. i figured we wont be going out for breakfast in the morning so i bought cup noodles.

when we got to the entrance of raffles marina, it was blocked by the stop sign. we sounded the horn and out came the security guard, STAGGERING! he was freaking drunk! i cant believe i was surrounded by DRUNKS. showed his the pass to our room and he let us in. parked the car and dragged hannah in. i swear i wanted to leave her in the car.

and when we finally got into the room, the first thing i saw was a cicak on the floor! my gosh. i had to remove their shoes and made sure they were in bed before i could wash up and sleep in my sleeping bag.

yes. that was my first every clubbing experience.

and now, my boyfriend has just broken up with me because he said that i went clubbing to have fun. to grind with ang mohs. he didnt believe that i wanted to dance the pain he gave me, away. the pain that was described in the previous posts.

like i said to him, if i really had fun. grind some white hard dicks, had a tongue battle with some drunk guy.. got a number and a date. it will be a the perfect reason for a break up.

but sadly, nothing of that sort happened. and now i am left with just memories, a sore arm and throat.

being angry helps. i know i did not do anything wrong. i know i will not go to a club every week. he, who said he loved me, thinks otherwise. i shall let him be. as much as it is hurting me.

second link

outside our room

yatchs

dinner

i am typing all this down just because i do not want to forget. this painful experience. this lesson. its for grace to read. :) im glad i can share this with her eventhough she's so far away. and also, for my boyfriend. oh wait. he said it clearly that he's not.

il summarise my whirlwind romance in another post. T_T