this has probably been the craziest 2 months ever. he brought me up sky high and now he has dropped me rock bottom. just like that. and why?

magic.

we were talking real plans. they were real, right? he said he spoke to his parents about us. he met my mum. what the hell was that?
i believed him. and now this.

i skipped personal physio in the morning today. i felt that i was not up for it after our whatsapp conversation itn the morning.

speaking of whatsapp, i read our conversation, eversince september. i really cant tell what went wrong. im just devastated.

eversince i have been hanging out with aziana, her other friends are feeling neglected. and that makes me feel guilty. and its just another sucky feeling after another.

:(

on top of the aching in my head and hurt, i am probably having delayed onset muscle soreness. i am aching on my left side. after yesterday's match. i shall pop 2 panadols and go to sleep.

tomorrow is our girls' day and night out. i am not excited that we have exciting plans. i am happy that my day and night has already been planned. i want to be distracted.

no more crying. i hope. i will be strong. he always says, 'everything happens for a reason.'

ok.