if only we could stop time.
il b in your arms forever.
if only there was no one else.
il b yours forever.

i had a great time.

c u soon.

// baby prawns n sotong eggs.

had indoor full swing trng in d mrng. found out tt i over back swing, n my finishing is not controlled. apparently my swing is very similar like one of d senior teachers. im not sure if tts a compliment.

trng was ok. tiring ah. d turning point was d half squats. aftr tt, damn! pain laaaaaaaaa. but can tahan la. monkey was fun. been some time we did tt kinda monkey. 2 side was ok ah. d other plyrs were helping me alot by talking. yeahhhhhhh.

so! its another day of balls tmr. im gona practice my swings wen i reach wrk. n im gona kick somemore balls in d evening! yeay.

n! i won! 2-1! haha. hey, its not like everyday i win rite? but seriously, i cant hv done it without u! :-*

k im aching all over! ALL OVER! i hv to get my rest now. nitey nite ppl. pull those blankie up ok. its gona b a cold nite. pleasant nitemares.

// thnk u

had indoor full swing trng in d mrng. found out tt i over back swing, n my finishing is not controlled. apparently my swing is very similar like one of d senior teachers. im not sure if tts a compliment.

trng was ok. tiring ah. d turning point was d half squats. aftr tt, damn! pain laaaaaaaaa. but can tahan la. monkey was fun. been some time we did tt kinda monkey. 2 side was ok ah. d other plyrs were helping me alot by talking. yeahhhhhhh.

so! its another day of balls tmr. im gona practice my swings wen i reach wrk. n im gona kick somemore balls in d evening! yeay.

n! i won! 2-1! haha. hey, its not like everyday i win rite? but seriously, i cant hv done it without u! :-*

k im aching all over! ALL OVER! i hv to get my rest now. nitey nite ppl. pull those blankie up ok. its gona b a cold nite. pleasant nitemares.

// thnk u

k. dis wil b a random post. i got so many things to say n im lazy to sort dem out. so il jus type watever tt im tinkin of at d moment. here goes.

dis wk has been tiring n wil continue to b tiring. it started out wif sunday nite wher i went to kbox. found out d reason y n all was quite overwhelming too. worked on monday was crap cos it was boring. headed for trng at cca. abt 50 mins of 11 aside. i practically ran home to catch desperate housewives!
woke up today did abit of chores. cycled here n dere. paid bills. $600 gone in 3mins! bought toiletries. watched a lil of tv. by 3 i exhausted. had a lil nap. den left for trng at 4+. damn. so trng was fun. i like trng at farrer park cos im so comfortable dere. im so used to everyone. i like having d guys ard cos dey always help us, being supportive n dey can b great opponents. we learn frm dem. CAN B ah.
btw, i rather train under d hot sun n get very very sweaty instead of training wen its alrdi dark n den deres a breeze n den il shiver.
so tmr! wake up early to send oj downstairs cos ayah is sick. make my way to laguna at 8+. do full swing. spend d aftrnoon somewhere n den go trng again.
thurs i wil wrk half day n den go trng again.
fri i wil b heading to d range at laguna. im excited but, damn im so lazy. wrk aftr tt. sat n sun wil b d st soccer.
n den next wk! i shud b getting news frm NTU. yes.

so y do ppl cry? prob d most obvious reason is, deir sad. but im sure dere r other causes too. happy, frustrated, smoke in d eye. yeah.

oh n i hvnt applied leave for dis wkend! dammit. dere'l b new kids. n d parents r expecting me to b dere n i wun b dere. n deres dis girl whos comfortable wif me. im scared she wudnt wana come to class if im not ard. argh.

i was watching excerpts of matches of d 1966's world cup on tv. deir shorts r like short shorts! tight fitting long sleeved top. altho their hairstyle sucked. i tink short shorts made it easier for dem to run? n i jus cant help noticing d bulges la. ahakz!

soooooooooooooo.. im exhausted n i want to eat riceeeeeeeeeee! i feel like eating nasi goreng or nasi sambal goreng or nasi with whatever la. i feel like having wholemeal bread wif watever. i need to load up on d carbos!

my hair is irritating me btw. its at d stage wher its too long to b let down n its too short to tie it up. i feel like shaving it!

i want my watch back! i noe its somewhere in dis rooom of ours but im so very lazy to go thru d rubble!

i want to watch xmen 3 on 25th may 2006! i want to watch hugh jackman. i want to watch half naked mutants.

i miss gracie! i miss her on d field. i miss seeing her scratching herself. i miss screaming at her. i miss giggling wif her. ish. i miss her la.

n prob i duno wats love. prob i dun hv to noe wat it means to love. but all i noe. i want you. i dont care abt anyone else. tts all tt matters.

nnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnn

tts all folks.

// ur all i ever wanted

(i seriously wonder who wud wana read tt horribly long, crappy, meaningless post. )

kak rin asked me out while i was wrkin yesterday. said il skip cos i was gona b tired. n den ltr in d evening, she called me up again but abg is was on d line. he said dey wana ask me out for dinner. so yeah. i was famished anw. hah.
met dem at cine, had pasta. n den aftr tt i said i wana go home. but dey said i hv to follow dem to somewhere. kampong kembong. hah. tt was lame ah. but yeah.. it was gd to walk aftr d tummies were filled.
reached suntec. seriously thought dey were gonna get sumtin frm sumwher. but dey led me to KBOX! wth. i was nervous. i duno y. hah. it seemed wrong at first. wat if........ so anw. kak rin was looking so excited n i cant possibly let her dwn by sayin i gotta leave.
we were being led to our room. (it kinda reminds me of some sleazy hotel. hehe.) kak rin chose a britney song for me. i was so malu to start la. but yeah... me being me..... sang like nobody's business throughout d nite. dere were certain times wher i felt so annoyed by my voice. its so irritating. haha. but yeah. it was funny how i thought of u wen i chose d songs. songs i heard u sang... so anw, i tink my bestest song was sebak by ukays. hahah. shocking tak.. n i also liked iklim's seribu kali sayang. muahahhahahha.
n i drank bitter lemon honey tea. hah.
we left n d lights were switched off at suntec city shopping mall! it was so cool. we had to look for d atm machine n we were like d only 3 people in d place walking ard. it was kinda creepy. but way coool!

so i got home, changed n went to slp.

i got news so early in d mrng tt dere was a reason to last nite's outing. i didnt expect it actually. but im sure tt everything will b alright. defintely.

so yeah. me n cam planned not to come early today. shes inside studying while im having some form of entertainment. d dbs atm infront of d centre is kinda spoilt. deres always problems wif it almost everyday. d funny thing is! it states on d monitor tt its temporarily out of service/out of cash. but! these ppl! dey stil wana withdraw their money. its so funny to c dem getting panicky! hah. im mean. bluek.
dis also means i cant tke out cash. n i only got less den $2. bluek.

shidahS r meetin me at jelita n we'r gona tke 75 to cca. yeah. its gona b nerve wrecking. im nervous abt it.
it wil b so much better if i noe ul b dere. watching me.

i miss u. so much.

// incomplete

gloomy sunday. came early today. perkins girls were chatty today. made dem do different stuff today. dey asked y, said i was happy. dey concluded i was nvr happy b4. haha. cuteness.
chatted wif ryan too. papa wants dem not to play golf anymore. weird. gona miss him.

so many chances to tke, so many decisions to tink abt.
wat if i took d chance n lost. but, wat if it was d other way round?
so is it ok to lose?
if u c me without my glasses staring into space with my face stuck in a frown,
probably im jus tinkin.
oh yeah, i only wear my lenses wen i hv to. n d glasses feel so very heavy on my face.
jus fyi.

i suck. i always always hv to spoil things.
is it jus me? or, can i change tt?

my mum says we hv to change for d better.
hv to.
but.
wat if we choose not to?

damn. dis post is crap. i duno wats d objective of it.
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im tagged by both ayi n zal. so here goes.

1. the tagged victim has to come up with 8 different points of their perfect lover
2. need to mention the sex of the target
3. tag 8 victims to join this game and leave a comment on their comments. this is supposed to be a game. once you are tagged, you are supposed to answer these questions in your own blog.


1) he must not be thin, preferbably has bigger calves muscles than me!
2) loves me for me
3) noes wen to do wat. (hmm.. n tt comes with experience n age. HAH!)
4) doesnt drink
5) is ok wif me not talking on d fon too often wif him (my bro n sis hogs d fon alrdi. n my arms get tired easily holding d fon. yeah.)
6) is ok wif my weird antics, sumtimes
7) he muz want to share his food wif me. he doesnt hv to b neat tho =p
8) likes my friends n loves wat i do too. soccer.


my target: guy/boy/man/male (duh)


The 8 victims I'm tagging:
1) runni
2) grace
3) kak yam
4) kak rin
5) yan
6) shidah
7) who
8) ever
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BTW! I PASSED MY PPT (physical proficiency test) [rmb d test wher i took at ntu? d one wher i was so scared of doing the cartwheel.] WITH 11 POINTS! YYEAAAYY!! now il jus wait n pray NTU will call me up. =)


// somebody save me

i cant connect to the internet at home. im updating dis frm wrk. apparently my bro was using it n den suddenly it jus disconnects by itself. so yeah..

friday aftr wrk i met runn. we had dinner n den jus chilled.. til very late. it was nice n all. but runn always drains me out. haha.

saturday.. nothing. jus wrk n went home. ate waffles. with ice cream n caramel n strawberry syrup. sweetness.

today. wrk. half day. n den wil b proceeding to jurong std to watch the challenge cup's semi finals......

yaaaaaaaaaaah. im hungry. shared abt 3 tablespoons of nasi lemak with oj jus now. shes d sweetest.

i got plans for april!

// pump it

here are the pix! enjoy!


without shidah


for her blood test


getting wet


d food was taking too long


me n d bro shared dis


yeah. shoot him alrdi! hah.


the one on the right, is not my brother


photographer: me


yes. its her


lost? depressed? loss of blood? heat stroke?


grp of China ppl posed like tt. we jus copied dem.


walking into the sunset


i duno wat to say


rooftop


cookie dough in tt blue bowl!


i shoot u


u shoot me


tired


eyes


tts all folks.

had a long long day yesterday..
woke up so early in d mrng to go to jelita. it was my off day, but my colleague left her set of keys in d centre, locking herself out. so i had to go dere jus to open d centre for her. well... i did my chipping n putting... chatted wif Cam. n den left at ard noon.
so i took a bus to bugis.. took d shuttle bus to kk. ibu, abg n oj was alrdi dere. waited for shidah n ayah. oj was registered n all. so we waited.
as usual, she wanted her blood taken out frm d front of her hand, not on her arm.. d nurse was definitely from China. she speaks with a heavy Chinese accent. oj was crying cos dis time it took quite some time for d blood to come out. shidah sat beside her n took pictures. haha.. aftr it was done, she got a candy n stickers frm d nurse.

proceeded to bugis. me n oj played near d fountain for awhile. n we were almost drenched. haha. made our way to Swensens! we got dis voucher wen ayah bought his hp a few mths bck. so yeah.. we ate. n ate. n ate. abg n me shared sizziling pan apple crumble! n its nice la.. but nxt time i wana try d banana crumble!
yummmmmmulicious.

aft lunch, shidah suggested we go to d esplanade. jus to hv a stroll. my mum agreed cos she has nvr been dere.. d last time she was dere.. d durian wasnt even dere.. it was jus a big plot of land facing d sea she said. so we walked in d blinding heat... it was so hot laaa! we walked n walked. n took pictures. n laughed. we went up to the rooftop. my first time la. hahah. it was jus 5 stories high? yeah.. d view was nice. n dere was somone making cookies. as in seriously, she had a bowl n a wooden spoon n she had tt betty crocker's thingy were u jus add some ingredients before baking d batter. yes! weird kan. on d esplanade rooftop she was beating the batter in a bowl! shidah secretly took a pic of her.

made our way down. ayah wanted to take d river ride. but oj was adamant on not taking it. she was jus scared la. my mum was against it too cos scared oj wud make a scene. boring! so we jus chilled by d bay. oj was alrdi tired.. n she lied dwn on d ground.
took d bus home n napped all d way. alighted at khatib cos ibu wanted to do some grocery shopping. she was inspired by the Chef's salad she had at Swensen's... ltr tonight, we'r gona hv ibu's rendition of d salad! she's easily inspired like tt! hahah..
oj wanted pizza. so we had dinner at New York pizza. apparently ibu, ayah n shidah dun like d pizza. dey say d crust is too thin. dey ahd d cheese fries. me n oj had 2 huge slices of pizza.

so tt was d 15th March.

so im at wrk now. only 2pm class. claire. 5pm kids not coming. only 1 class! argh. sian. luckily dis wk no trng.. if not my heart pain.... so.. i will.. do.. nothing.......
oh yeah! its Farhana Hassan's 21st bday!
i noe she dun read my blog. but.. wth.

PS: thnx to those who tagged me.. thnx alot. i appreciate it. =)

// parents' blessings

this elevated heartbeat is irritating the shit out of me.
thnk God its not all the time, but wen it does happen.. i wish it stops altogether.

i noticed, im in this very vicious cycle. it keeps happening.i dun tink its stopping anytime soon. i guess i do hv d power to break it... but i definitely noe i do not hv d courage.
untill when?

Date Movie was as expected, stupidly funny. it was fun la guessing which movies those scences were spoofed from. altho there were moments i dun get d joke. haha. n tt theatre is my fav theatre la.. deres like less den 10 of us. i rili shud try goin bck dere n ask dem to let me in for d R21 show. il b 21 dis yr, so deres no sense in not letting me watch it rite?! hmmm..
n ofcos, im not gona tell u which theatre i went. =)

so yeah.... im stil wooooozy. tmr we r having a family outing. yeay. oj's goin for a blood test! n terry's comin along!

// funnnnnnnnnnny funnnnnnnny

had lunch at ghim moh coffee shop. the fried rice was nice somehow. nothing special, but it was nice. i tink its bcos of the company. =]

only class for today was james n ashleigh. james is beginning to b really chatty. gave him an ultimatum n den he was listenin to me. for awhile. haha. hes so cute. told me his mummy n daddy r very faraway, celebrating their annivessary. romantic huh. ashleigh is improving really well. she listens now n is independent.

my head's been feeling woozy. lightheaded. im not sure y. my eyes doesnt hurt anymore, therefore im like not using the eyedrops tt much. but doctor's orders were, 1 week of eyedrops. bluek. i tink d eyedrops will like run dwn my throat aftr hitting d eyes. is tt possible? im not sure. cos like aftr 10 mins.. or lesser. my throat will suddenly taste bitter. weird. but.. its true.

i could leave anytime now. cos d boss has alrdi came n left. but, no rush.. yeah.

i rili need to study on how to become a gd last man. especially with me lacking in the speed department. like coach mentioned, i shudnt play d trap wen i was alrdi tired. but.. seriously, i had no other idea wat to do. i was scared to b sitting far too back. i was lost during 2nd half since we were at d other end, i felt lost wen coach wasnt guiding me. hmmmmmmmm.... i wonder how dey train in negeri sembilan.. i dun dun tink dey were tt skillfull but dey sure were speedy. its so terrfyin wen dey counter. n i dun tink d rest of d team came dwn as fast as dey shud. i was depending too much on the other defenders last nite. n tts not gd. plus, d fact tt gracie was alrdi not feeling too well. damn. argh.
anw, titi played well last nite. i liked her like tt. n i liked her balls. jus too bad our strikers didnt turn d chances to goals. i wonder how its like up dere? well, hard luck girls. try harder next time.

// all for one

im glad cos reena gave me a nice hug. 2 times. i like hugs. but hers too tight tho hah.

anw, i totally suck. my eyes goin bust, my hearings going dwn, probably its related. my ankle hurts. im so slow. i got no confidence. i was so scared being d last player. my head has been throbbing since i duno wen. my temperature's fluctuating. i can feel d headache coming again. like wat is wrong wif me?

i break ppl's heart, n den in turn breakin mine. im so crappy. im such a loser. if i get d results dis wk n i fail, i seriously do not know wat to say. n if by april i dun any letter frm any U, il b so down it hurts. y is everything going wrong?

AAAAHHHHHHH!

// i hate me

new skin.. yup. sumtin dark again.

anw,

i am not at work! woohooo!
i got 2 days mc. guess y?
yes, once again, eye infection.

oj accompanied me to d polyclinic. she kept me company.. talkin to me. crapping n stuff. aftr leaving d doc, we were goin dwn to d pharmacy on d 1st level. she slowed dwn n i wanted to rush.. i told her il b inside n left without her tinkin she wil follow me. aftr getting the mc verified. i turned bck, n she wasnt dere!
i searched for her ard d 1st level, n den up d 2nd level. goin in n out of the polyclinic. d attendants were gettin ready to close d shutters cos it was goin to b lunch time. i panicked. n suddenly i thot of tt little girl who was murdered, Nonoi. she was nowhere to b found. i was abt to ask ard for help, i decided to call home to tell tt i lost my lil sis. shid picked up d fon. here was the conversation.

me: dah.. bad news.
shid: wat?
me: i lost aqilah.
shid: huh? she's here.
me: WHAT THE?!what you mean shes dere?
shid: she jus reached home.

i was relieved but mad at d same time. how did she manage to reach home so fast? n how did she cross d roads? anw im jus glad she was safe.

so il b goin to get a refund on my lenses. i bought like 7 to 8 months supply of the lenses. tink il b opting for Dailies n wear more of my glasses. haiz.

// is dis retribution of my defiance?

asked my bro to show me how to a cartwheel. we practiced in my tiny room. n i looked pathetic. my bro laughed so hard he fell and rolled on d floor of my room all the way out to the living room. it was tt bad.

so i made my way to NIE. alighted at carpak 7. dere were alot of dem who were holding the same memorandum i had. i got lost. finally aftr many many turns i saw a sign tt lead me to the sports hall. queued up to pay n made my way to the changing room. hung ard til 3 pm before they called us in. there were over 200 of us taking the test. split in more than 20 groups of 10. while we were sitting dwn in the line, tts wher i saw some familiar faces! there was the infamous nola, azfidah frm nyp, joyce my coursemate, a neighbour n someone who i shud pretend not to c! hahah.

first stn was possession game. netball style. 4 v 4. tink i did good. just aftr 5 mins? i was taken out. next grp's turn. yup. next stn!

gymnastics. the dreaded station. i was freakin out. my heart was beating. luckily dere was dis girl who was as scared as me. her name was melach. cool kan?
we got to d gymnasium n were told to practiced. i was so nervous, i sprained my ankle while walking! can u believe it? so i was practicing my rolls, n d dreaded cartwheel. asked some pointers. n yeah. i gave up. waited for my turn. the english invigilator called out my name, motioned me to go to the front. forward roll was ok. backward roll was so so. arabaesque was crappy. i was so nervous i tink my whole body shook! aftr tt, i did my cartwheel. i heard claps n i didnt see anyone rolling on the floor, laughing. so yeah. i tink i at least got ONE point for tt stn. so proceed to all the other stns. n we completed everything in under 2 hrs only.

il get the results next week. the leader told us tt d points will b moderated to accomodate the number of applicants. but then again, even if i pass, doesnt mean il get into NIE. i tink there will b an interview.

headed to jp. waited for shidah lam for her break den had dinner together at banquet. by dis time, my eyes were killing me. dey were super red! n i had this pair of lenses for jus 2 freakin days! im so goin bck to tt shop tmr to get a refund. prob i shud get Dailies instead.

i cud barely c for the last 1 hr plus. n now it stil hurts. alot.

iced my ankle. gotta drink water. n den go to slp. AH! a tear jus rolled dwn my cheek! my eye hurtsssssss!

// like a stone

a non productive day.

went to wrk late. did the class schedule again. didnt read my book. jus sat n stared.

claire had chocolate flavoured instant noodles. hah.

shao qi didnt know how to do his chinese homework.

junxian had to feed the green dungeon with white balls.

passed kath her money n updated her on happenings at wrk. she looked great. didnt look as sickly as she used to. glad for her. =)

dinner with d bro n parents. its been awhile wher we actually sat together n ate. had hilarious conversations. haaha.

emailed alot of schools about the street soccer tournament. will update it on friendster.. more of you will noe abt it. by tmr aftrnoon latest.

// rest well please

didnt do an xray. d doc estimated tt i hv between 25-30 degree curve. its in between the thoracic n lumbar region. not up dere, not dwn dere. its in between. she went thru wif me wat i mite hv to go thru. it sounded all dandy til i asked.. how much?
wham! i cant afford it. she called her fellow dr. calculate it out n all. i decided tt il come bck wen im older, wen im financially stable. he said tt wil b great, dey wun run away. dey wil stil b dere he said. thanked them, shook their hands n left.
i was holding bck my tears. i needed a freakin hug la.

n yeah, kak rin. i rmb. i went to a talk to dis place. like i mentioned, scoliosis. dis place i went, dey do natural chiropractic treatments. its interesting. i wil tel u more abt it k.

so i was walkin so slowly. reached to this booth sellin lenses. nice sales ppl. i was in need of new pairs. gues i was deir first customer. dey went thru all d different promos. checked my eye n all. went up to their store, had a manual check up. bad news: i wasnt a 550degree all this while. damn. i was a 475 on the right n a 525 on d left. oh, d right has 50% astig. woohooo.. best kan gitu. gotta change my glasses lenses. waited so long at the optician. n i was reading d mags like so close to my face cos i had to tke out my lenses.

n den yeah.

met up wif oj. n d bro. went to semb. did her ezlink. she signed her own forms la. power kan she. otw bck bumped into hashnul n d bro. told me he's leaving for new york in a mths time or 2. he looked gd, somehow. n hes so short la. n he has dis rili interesting way of kissing my hand. (he's my younger cousin btw.) updated him wif my new no n he left.
ate at np. bought stuff n head home.

i wana watch arsenal vs real madrid ltr. wrk tmr, first class at 2. so yeah.. i can chill i gues. hah. will start reading brokeback mountain tmr. woohoooo..

m gona shower now n wil hv oriental chix salad for dinner!

// this sucks. i suck.

blogger is so slow today. irritating.

so shidah was gettin ready to sch. i asked her, 'how does it feel to go out so early in d mrng? i forgot.' she said its gd cos she doesnt hv to rush n all. (most of d times she'l b late.) n she said shes meetin her fren at yishun mrt to walk to sch together. suddenly i was tinking of my ex, din. (haha.) he used to wait for me every single day at d void deck of d nearby blk n we'l walk together to sch. i somehow can recall vividly on he would b sitting, waiting for me. funny how i can rmb d way he sits, d way he carries his bag n all..
as i was lying dwn on my bed, i realised he never complained at all. i rmb i did offer to go over to his place to walk to sch frm dere. but i tink out of a yr plus, i did it like less den 10 times?.. i tink he nvr expects tt i do it at all. hah.

i dun tink ive thanked him for d memories. n d fact tt he nvr complains tt he has to come all d way here, d fact tt i cud b real late n all. probably i shud giv him a call to say hi. hMmm..

so i went bck to slp aftr shidah left for sch. i dreamt of my late grandpa. in d dream he was a spirit n i cud c him. im not sure wat exactly happened but he was dere n den not. n i was crying.. its like i needed to tell him sumtin. n he kept disappearingg.. n den re-appearing again. it was frustrating.

n den i was late for d talk. i was d last to come. d talk was abt scoliosis. it was rili stressing for me to hear abt d complications.. to c d pic. i felt so restless. dere was even a point wher i wanted to cry! wth. certain things i felt tt she shudnt hv said n jus cut straight to d point. so im scheduled to hv a screening tmr mrng. kinda nervous abt d outcome. wat if mine is severe? how wil it affect me?
anw, thnx to coach j for tellin me abt d talk in d first place. i wudnt hv even noe abt it if he didnt tell me..

met gracie, shidah lam n runn. gracie is painfully shy laaaaaaaaaa. irritating la u tau. she wore a striped shirt. looked real nice n all. she filled up d form n den dey said dey will call her bck. runn said we looked like d guys in brokeback mountain cos we wore shirts n jeans. ruuuunnnnnnnnnnnnnn! merepek! tt kid sure can talk non stop! made me laugh so much.

during trng i was half dead. no joke. i felt like puking. my head hurt. i barely ran during possesion. sprinting. half way, my right ankle gave way. i didnt sprain it. i felt it jus giving way. i duno how to describe it. it jus hurts. dammit. aftr trng, kika said i was dehydrated. she asked me wat i drank, i said tea. i had iced peach tea n chrysanthemum tea. a few days bck, i was drinkin teh o, coke, mango tea n den raspberry tea. she said d caffeine made me dehydrated. i cudnt help buying d teas! dey were d cheapest bottled drink in cold storage! bluek.

MUS DRINK WATER! H2O!

i want to watch chelsea vs barcelona. but im tired.

this is sucha long post. omg.

oh yeah. cam told me carl is withdrawing. bitter sweet. i like him. but im glad he will b gone cos i cudnt stand his mummy.

// until when?

yooohoooooooooooo....

wrked half day. game against negeri sembilam postponed to nxt wk.

so anw! met up wif kak rin n abg is. haha.. hes tall n he looks like a cross between my uncle n bro. somehow. n hes so soft. as.. in he's not loud. me n kak rin were mostly crapping. n den finally we talked abt d chalet! i so like d idea of goin to pulau ubin ahhhhhh.. cant wait seh. hope everythin wil go as planned. abg is deres so many things to think abt. woohoooo....

den we walked frm boat quay to bugis la. cos i want to drink bubble tea. hah. den d auntie like not happy wif me cos i sounded dumb. i wanted mint red milk tea. n she only understood peppermint. n deres no such thing as red milk tea, she claimed. i mean.. there was la! i rmb dere was green milk tea n red milk tea.. so yeah. she said dere was only MILK TEA. n it was damn expensive la. $2.50.. at yishun or any heartland areas, can get as low as $1.50!
but it was thirts quenching. can do la.

went home. wanted to go to optician to chk my eyes. BUT all of dem were closed at 2045hrs! so i jus walked.. n den i saw stickers! yeah! finally d kids can hv their long awaited stickers. 8 pieces for jus a buck! i got 2 bucks worth of stickers!

went home, ate steamboat.. while watching a p ramlee movie. my mum said d title was 'si bongkok' but turned out it was 'orang minyak'. strange.. but interesting.

ayah.. we had steamboat dinner last nite. i had d leftovers jus now.

//bagai ikan tinggal di darat

bryan's not here. haha. i rushed for nothing. thot he wud b here early. gona miss lukey. dun tink he'l b comin for lessons in march. bluek.

came bck home last nite. had dinner n den pool with shidah L n gracie. madness la those kids. duno wats tired. haaaaha.

cant swap my leave today cos of other stuff to do in d centre. boss kinda gave a warning to me abt leaving early n all. bluek.

cam brought breakfast. her mummy baked sumtin. cant wait to try it.

i miss u. n im not faking.

dont ask why.
lets just feel what we feel
cos sometimes
its the secret that keeps us alive

every little thing you do - westlife

// :-*

im listening to buble again. d first cd. yes. i missed it.

n it sucks. ur so close yet so far. i can cry jus tinkin abt it.

soccer trng was ok. i was tired. n tt sucks too. n guy jus had to mke it more irritating. 2 side was ok. i like doin sprinting. but i dun like d tiredness aftr sprinting. can we like do stuff, n den dun feel tired? can? no?
tt was a dumb question? yes?
hah.

wrk tmr. wif Cam i tink. got a feelin d boss is dropping by. bluek.

// cos i love you, just the way you look tonight

i spent my worst ever excruciating 1 and half hr this mrng. it hurt so bad wen i went to d toilet. n i had to go every 5mins. i cried every time i had to do it. i was so worried. even managed to look it up at yahoo! hah. i was kinda exhausted ard noon so i was lying dwn on d bed. n i felt slightly better.
was tinkin abt sumtin else.. n slowly d pain went away.

met up wif kak rin for lunch.. n she filled me up wif her life. im so excited for her! she got so many plans! i seriously wish her all d best! =)

met up wif gracie n lia aftr tt. i bought burnt buah berangan. gracie peeled dem for us. shah, mak, uncle was dere at st wilfrid too. i was den left to collect money frm d coaches aftr their game aftr shah left.
on d way bck we went round n round chestnut area to see the big big nice nice houses. wonder how these ppl afford those houses.. they r costing over a million buckaroos! muz work hard!

tmr trng. coach m told me i hv to wrk on my left foot. bluek. i use it wen i hv to waaaaaaaat. watevr la. il try. PLAY BALL!!

// how now brown cow