wats dis thing inside of me? y is it doing things i dun want to b doin?
is it my mind? my heart? my brain? my soul?
which one is it? i dun get it.
y do i always end up like dis? wat is wrong wif me?
m i on a rebound? hang on.. a rebound on wat? who?
i hate feeling like dis. i hate skippin a beat for no apparent reason.
n it cant b pms. im done for d month.

im juz so glad sch's opening next week. im not exactly lookin forward to d assignments n stress n all. but i juz need things to occupy myself wif everyday. i need to get busy. i cant stay idle. il tink too much n den il juz break down. no. dun tell me to talk abt it. i dun like talkin abt it. ive bothered enuf ppl. il smile n pretend d whole world's mine. pretend.

n since sch's openin, i cant go to work. n dats kinda gd. i gotta not go dere too often.
its bad for d health. heh! in some ways dat only affects me.
plus i juz dun understand y things hv to break down all d time at dat outlet.
technology sucks.
but il stil drop by some times though. yeah.

// life's a bitch.
- the pretender