scary isnt it.
time flies by so fast.
by d end of nxt yr d tsunamis incident wil b in dvds in hmv.
im not jokin.
in a few months il b 20.
note: few.
in due time we'l b 2 yrs.
n den il b done wif my 3 yrs in tp.
n i stil duno wat to do.
it'l b d challenge cup, n den its d league.
wil i b wrkin? or?
wil i gain weight? hah!
its scary. im scared.
no, not d same way im scared of clowns n cicaks.
but yeah, stil scared in a different scary way.
scared of d future.

// like siamese twins connected by their brains

ive been sick for officially a week now.
didnt go to trng yestday.
dere was blood in my cough, my voice was bad, my toe hurts n it was my first day.
so i met C. at town. no movie to watch.
so we splurged on food.
at pastamania n den spinelli's.
dat got my throat worst.

hira came bck frm kl n she wants to go dere again.
wif us. durin term brk.
i want!!
yeah rite.. if only my parents let.

goin to CS to repair my stooopid fon.
my hands r frozen. the aircon here is stupidly on full blast.
sooo alone. tink im gona eat at macs ltr. alone.
im famished.

// frozen

its so normal in singapore. wen its chaos at d neighbourin countries.
i gues im lucky but no, i feel so...
i duno.
its like, dey say s'pore's safe.
geographically.
C said its crap.
cos if god wanted d tsunamis to go to east coast on sunday, he could..
n id b gone.
but god created geography.. i meant he created d plates like dat.
n s'pore jus happened to b on d equator.
n i juz happen to b livin here..
i duno.
C said dat if i said i duno, means i dun care.
i do care.. but i rili duno..
but.. yeah, it did got me tinkin.

// ......

been a long time.

summary:
1) saturday -
xmas day.
sentosa wif d family.
packed! saw zu.. more den once.
qila was cranky.
sunburnt.

2) sunday -
east coast.
trng.
got a deeeeep cut down my toe.
waves were hiiiiigh.
swam n swam n laughed n drank dirty salty seawater.
stepped on rocks. carried dem up n gave dem to coach as presents.
cuts on fingers.
dinner at kenji's. cool 3 storey semi d.
yummy food.
lost my voice.

3) today -
no lect.
coffebeaners unite.
met wan n frens.
went to audi.
saw d rehearsal.
here i m.
goin off soon.

crappiness.

// sunburnt

hey dere. in cyber now. had fpr quiz. it sucked.
no hang on. i sucked.
cos i didnt study.
cos i dun hv d notes.
act i do.. but i was lazy to look for it.

still not feelin too good.

went to marina square last nite.
crappiness.
whole place was under renovations.
had to walk at least 15 mins to get to d other side to gv.
in d end we didnt watch anytin cos dere was nothin nice to watch.
bluek!
ate n ate. me alone ah.
chocomint pretzels. seafood sandwich wif cheese. sushi. respberry esprit. wat else?
C wondered if i was rili sick. im wonderin too.
den went to carrefour. i jus loved the food section. d whole of level 1!
bought more granola bars n julie's biscuits.
k. n den went bck. took 857 all d way home.
C said i looked bad wen i slept.

today, long day at sch. til 6.
tmr, no sch i tink.

i hate it wen my nose is blocked.

// im a dodo clown

mc ritchie yestday. was early. took 93. coolness.
it actually goes to braddell westlake sec n den to queensway.
i juz love singapore!
its so small! n so very accessible.
muahahha.
anw i sucked ah. ran too fast.
kirakan power ah. belah la aishah.
den last last got stiches.
den do sit ups den thigh cramp.
wah kau! stoopid. coach said i nvr stetch properly.
wat only. i not rubber band u noe.. stretch until how seh?
n den my back pain.
man.. time to retire ah..

got news dat my uncle got into an accident.
he was cycling happily den a van hit him n his fren.
but he's ok. he always is.
he's strong. he's my uncle.
gona visit him on friday..
no sch i tink. xmas eve wat..

oh. im sick. but like half sick only.
like fever but not. flu come n go.
den my throat sore, but not.
haiyoh... irritating!

meeting my dearie for movie ltr. yessah..

// chicken thai fillet

hey..
in mdss lab.
sleepy.
my eyes sting.
sleeepy.
apel soon.
n den its d st soccer thingy.
excited.
ha-ha. (sarcasm)

sch...... haiz.
so many things to do.
so little time.
yeah rite.

// what a difference a day made

hey.. sori didnt update for some time. comp at home is crapping. thnx to my bro. i hav no idea wat he did to it, n now we can only hear Winamp.

anw, tues, trng at st wilfrid was ok. except d last part. tink i pulled my calf n hamstring. not a nice feeling. i can stil feel it. didnt come late as expected cos ND tut ended early.
ate maggi goreng at bendemeer. nice. nxt time i go dere i wana try d bubur taiwan.

wed, went to sch wif kak yam. met her at d bus stop. forgot wat happened at sch but went to city link aftr dat to get pressie for asad. den headed to east coast. d pit was quite far from marine cove. food was ok. but i tink i had a bout of fd poisoning for d rez of d nite. but i tink no one knew. twas fun! kinda like a reunion wif d CBTL kids. sheikh even brought along his shisha thingy. coolness! bbq-ed wif fai's frens. cycled to the jetty wif fai. thawed d frozen hotdogs in d sea wif bedah.. left d place at midnite. took a bus to tamp n den cabbed home.

today. went to sch wif kak yam again. muahah! had apel, lect n den fpr lab. dats it. now here i m.
yeah.
yeah yeah yeah.

// wat now?

cudnt slp last nite. went to bed at ten plus. but i tink i only slept at 2 plus.
tossing n turning.
so many things were on my mind.
so many people.
den i had my usual weird drms. so full of crap.
i was wrkin at a market one sec, i was wif my frens at a bus stop laughin n den i was somewhere else d next sec.
like wtf?

saw some netball girls on d way to sch. tink dey'r havin some kind of a carnival somewhere.
thot of those sch n pri days where i had to wake up early to go other schs or d kallang netball centre for netball matches or carnivals.
miss playin netball.

trng at st wilfrid ltr. will b late. but stil will b trng.
cos i like d pitch n d toilets dere.
n i stil dun get y its spelled dat way.
w-i-l-f-r-i-d
man.. its so weird....

// where?

hey.. wow.
long day? short day? seemed like i didnt do anytin today.
but den again, i did alot...
somewhere only we know.
something only i know.

d/l many songs..
wana try listenin to some songs by d malaysian band, 'disagree'
u/l songs to my player. some new ones.. many old ones.
im a sucker for romantic songs.
unfortunately, im no romantic.
d irony of it all.

had 1/2 a chicken bandito.
wana wait up for shida frm her bbq.
but den again mayb not.
sleepin soon i gues.
sch at 8 tmr.

// pleasant nitemares

here i m again!

i got like so many things inside my head, i cant end up like my sister rite? talkin to herself.. so here i m again!

anw,
1) happy birthday to all DECEMBER babies! namely, hira, alif, jannah, dayen, sheeda, salihin, k-rin, k-run, jonathan, asad n my uncle Su.. n loads more.. somehow im a lil mixed up who's 1st.. but anyhu! HAPPY BATHDAY!!! (im not stupid.. purposely spelled it dat way)
2) ive juz discovered the wonders of GPRS, thnx to my cuzzin, ray-han.. im like downloading so many stuff..
3) my current fav radio hit is U2's Vertigo! its so rockin.. i tink deir one of the greatest bands ever. bono is so cool.. n so r the rez.. (i duno deir names..)
4) Oh! n im so jealous of anyone who went to kl.. not fair.. wen can i go kl on my own.. im 19!

i wana go drink my tea now.. n eat my cookies..

// EBFAST sgl

gd mrng ppl. woke up 10+. whoa.. wen was d last time i woke up dis late?

yestday, had some sort of an open house at my place. my parents actually started preparing on thurs nite.. helped out wen i woke up.. cut d onions n stuff.
n den made my way to bugis to pick up C's specs. damn cool glasses.. kinda similar to mine, but mine's not as nice.. but watever.
n i had 'beard papa'! vanilla n cocoa! yummylicious.
den went to nortpoint to buy my uncle's bday cake.
he's 40++ today!
d soccer mates came at 6+ onwards. dey ate n ate. n ate.
thnk u all for comin.
i finally get to eat at ard 10+..

today. goin out wif d mates.
to those houses we hvnt go..
i wana wear jeans.
c ah how.

// huh? wat now?

hey ho! only an hour of TP for me today..
ND lect.. damn. ND is terribly difficult.
wish me luck woh k my darlings.

went to expo.. aftr grace begged me..
hah! no ah, dropped gracie a visit.
she gave me waffles, n lotsa n lotsa n lotsa candy floss!
den we packed some for runni in a bottle.
cool!

den met runn at city hall. headed to my place.
i ate. while she looked! haha! evil me.
no ah. she ate kueh kueh n stuff.
transferred d songs she wanted.
den surfed frenster n stuff..
sent her to train stn.

n den.
met my dad lah! in d middle of d road.
went to ntuc. changed our minds.
went to abc. bought wat ibu told him to buy.
n den had ice cream n yoghurt at mac!
d yoghurt, was erm.. ok.
plain yoghurt wif generous helpings of strawberries n blueberries.
n juz a measely potion of oat cereal.

now! here i m.
listening to jamie n vernon.
im sleepy. but ibu asked me to make bergedel for tmr..
haiz.. lazy.. lazy..
oh! all of u. please come to my house tmr for open house.
sms me b4 u come k.
k c u.

// italian dressing

always updating dis a day late.

felt like i was goin down wif a fever.
but, no more of dat now.
weird.

dis sem's cramped. gotta complete all my modules.
gotta not slack.
wish me luck.

my soccer? how? tinkin of forgoin trngs.
n challenge cup.
n juz wait for d league..
how now brown cow?

// take u away

hey.

i thought.
she thought.
he thought.
they thought.
we thought.

everyone thinks.

tshirts with flowery prints.
3 for $10.

// airwalk leather bag

heys. tiring day. somehow.

got a new fon. a new no. nokia. can u believe it?
3120. cool enuf.

got a new 2nd hand fon for my room. for $1.50.
interesting rite.
yes.

plans dashed. bluek.

trainin. 1/2 a bucket full of salty sweat?
yeah.

gd nite.

// nokia!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

damn. hate it wen it happens. another long entry gone to waste.

anw, sch so far is ok. CSAS was fine. someone had a cockroach in her bag. n d roach escaped. no names will b mentioned to avoid embarrasment. hehe!

ate at design wif some engine ppl. new frens dat i kinda made. yeah. been a long time since i ate dere. one of dem is a coffeebeaner from east coast.

oh! saw t2d coffeebeaners at sch.

tink my time-tables cocked up. i got a new CDS. its MDSS. i heard its easy. but dats not d point. im supposed to only take 1 CDS cos i alrdi got 8 freakin Cus. n i hv to take my FPr now. or else i hv to stay for another sem. haiz. mailed ms choo abt it. hope everytin wil b fine.

watched 'crossroads' over at C's durin d weekend. d movie where britney starred in. it was a lil stale in d beginnin. but it was heartwarming.

im listening to some new songs now. well, actually i dun tink these songs r new. i juz happen to b listenin to dem now.

empty apartment - yellowcard
letters to you - finch
merindu kepastian - art fazil
if it makes you happy - sheryl crow
me and mrs jones - marvin gaye / taufik batisah

// sometimes i forget where the heart is

hey.. im tired. attended a wedding juz now.
it was nice. d place was spacious. somewhere at sengkang.
but, i hate d blocks surrounding it. so confusing.
anw, i was washing d dishes. tiring. but fun.
i like playin wif water.
i was dis close to pillion riding on my uncles bike juz now.
but i lost d coin toss to my bro, n so he had d chance.
hmph.

1st day of sch tmr.
no APEL. damn. dat means, i got a 5 hour break.
wat m i to do? grace told me to go home n sleep n den go back to sch.
no way.
my sch = tampines, home = yishun
no way jose.
heh! but no worries. il survive.
somehow.

wana tuck in now. eh, no. wana upload songs to my player 1st.
got some new songs to listen.
recomended from my frens.
art fazil rec by wan.
finch rec by is.
hope dey r nice.
k ah. go.

// bear

hey ho. juz got bck frm trng. man.. power.
NOT!
hah! less-den-i-duno-how-many came. go figure. its a freakin sat.
but anyways, ran rounds d rugby field. i didnt noe it was tt huge..
n den, basics. n den long balls. titi was my coach for d first half of d trng session.
she said i got most of d techniques rite but i juz didnt put in enuf power.
bluek! easier said den done.
my balls were goin up, but not forward. it was irritating.
den coach j came n coach me. heh!? like duh.
my balls got a lil better towards d end.
den tts it! trng today. long balls.

im smelly. il go take a shower now. heh!

// itchy butt

i finally know wats BSELN. its Basic Electronics. hmm.. thot i wun b gettin dat CDS. tink it'l b cool. goin to engine for lects n stuff. wonder wats in store for me?

i juz realised im not doin my FPr dis sem. n dat means, i hv to stay back for another sem to do it. n dat means, i wun d graduating on time! oh my! wait til my parents hear abt dis. haiz.. i duno wat to feel? m i scared? embarassed? bloody.. i tink i hv no feelings. m i an animal?
tink i wud wana b a fish or an eagle.. ok crap.. hah! probably a crab! im mad. talkin crap like dis.

damn. well, it can b a gd thing. i dun hv to worry abt wat to do aftr graduating cos il b graduating late. damn me, always always looking at d bright side of things.. its not always gd i gues.

watever.

i need sumtin new in my life. well, d electronics thingy shud b interesting.. but no, not dat.. sumtin else.. sumtin. i duno wat.

// i hate knowing nothing's fair. i wish i didnt know.

wats dis thing inside of me? y is it doing things i dun want to b doin?
is it my mind? my heart? my brain? my soul?
which one is it? i dun get it.
y do i always end up like dis? wat is wrong wif me?
m i on a rebound? hang on.. a rebound on wat? who?
i hate feeling like dis. i hate skippin a beat for no apparent reason.
n it cant b pms. im done for d month.

im juz so glad sch's opening next week. im not exactly lookin forward to d assignments n stress n all. but i juz need things to occupy myself wif everyday. i need to get busy. i cant stay idle. il tink too much n den il juz break down. no. dun tell me to talk abt it. i dun like talkin abt it. ive bothered enuf ppl. il smile n pretend d whole world's mine. pretend.

n since sch's openin, i cant go to work. n dats kinda gd. i gotta not go dere too often.
its bad for d health. heh! in some ways dat only affects me.
plus i juz dun understand y things hv to break down all d time at dat outlet.
technology sucks.
but il stil drop by some times though. yeah.

// life's a bitch.
- the pretender

i changed my skin again. 3rd time in dis week?
dis is gonna stay. its dark. i like.
yep yep. gona slp now.
no more burgers for everyone now.
hehe!

// dis is pure madness

hey!!!!!!!!
im so drained. fitness was madness. it juz totally takes everything frm inside of me.
doesnt help dat d field was so muddy it looked like under blended mocha ice blend.
was dizzy. dinner at bk was madness too. wif their jokes n stuff. man, it kills to laugh dat hard.

in d mrng. went to dis hairdressers' to accompany both my sissies to get their haircut. tinkin of hilightin my hair dere nxt time cos its dirt cheap.

oh, met my long lost cousin in d train while on d way to trng juz now. chatted.
heh! i tink he's lookin cute. haha!

wrkin tmr mrng. not sure who exactly il b wrkin wif. my body will surely b aching.
oh my. im kinda dreadin work.. wif all those xmas songs. look, i rili hv nothin wif xmas itself.
but c'mon, u gotta b kidding rite? listenin to dat xmas cd over n over again.
wat? a method of brainwashin? i cant tke dis shit anymore. im juz so glad sch's re-opening next week. yeah, but il miz some of u..

// nothing's worst den letting u hate me

F.
i juz typed a F long entry n WHAM! a bloody error.
great.

basically.
went to hpb wif partners. we r ok.
workplace canteens! here we come.

fitness at toa payoh. man. i suck.
but it was great, i can feel it, baby.
can u? heh!
ban mian for dinner.
how cool is dat?

work. wif celine n d girls.
love hate relationship.
hate throwing rubbish wif dat sputid trolley.
tiring, but stil fun.
on d way back was fun too.
=)

taufik won. like duh. twas obvious.
altho he sucked at 'the reason'
now i feel like listenin to my bryan adams album.
been a long time huh mr adams?

i wana change my skin AGAIN.

oh my, its 021204. less den 30 days, it'l b 2005.
oh my oh my. time surely pass by real fast.

// me n MR jones