mimic

how cruel can life be? somehow, work life has mimicked love life. just like that, after difficult initial steps of getting to know the kids, after long hours of talking, scolding them then picking them back up again, after fake sarcasms, playing together in Mersing, after successfully building rapport, after getting to know their parents, the big people decided that they are going to take all that away from me.

they are going to throw me into a different pool of sharks just because they think i can handle it. yes, it's great that they have that much faith in me, but it still sucks. to leave what i have started, to start all over, to break that barrier with my bare hands they have built with new teachers and to have new working relationships with 2 colleagues.

don't get me wrong. i am not complaining because i dont understand why. before i got them to clarify, i totally saw why i was chosen. in fact, i was quite honoured when they told me on how they came to a conclusion that i was the one that had to be there.  i am complaining because, it is just cruel how 2 different chapters in my life right now is peculiarly similar.

although, i know. i know that i will be fine. i know by the end of this year, i will be sitting somewhere with my friends laughing about all these. perhaps, i will not even be thinking of these issues because something bigger and better will be happening.