I'm going to kill myself tomorrow

i hv no idea what's dis movie abt. dun tink ive heard abt it too. but. this scene. d song. its quite peaceful. yet disturbing at d same time. jus watch k.

hey.

watched happy feet wif some of d KG ppl. d show was a lil slow. but fun nonetheless.. i specially liked d 5 amigos.. haha. funny!

its been raining most of d time today. twas stil pouring wen i made my way home.

last nite's match. man utd played chelsea. man utd cud hv won. haha.. again, nonetheless, it was pure footballing entertainment.

HAPPY 18TH TO GRACE WONG WAI MUN!!!!!!!!!!


// il do my crying in the rain

being alone at home is so weird. so used to having ppl ard. hah. had a nap frm 1+ to 5+. d bro n d sis went to a gig together. how cool is tt? dey asked me to come along, but neh.. im not into gigs. yet? hah.. so here r some random pix.


kara n me getting ready to go for pauline's wedding


d bro, me n d bomb


sunday mrngs! jack d n cassius k


kara drives a lorrrry!


abi wif my sneaks


me n josiahhhh!


nyai says those who are not married, cant eat this.

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it's kak yam's 22nd today. tt means, man u is playin chelsea! it'l b definitely d match to watch. n ofcos i dun wan chelsea to win. hahaha. anw, hv a happy one kak yam!!

// silver arrow

we played stress. d card game. now my finger tips sting a lil. hah.. i nvr win.. shid always win. im slow to react ah. lame.

so anw trng was fine yesterday. twas some sorta real trng aftr a long time. mira came! n her bros toooo! long time no see dem. n d meridien girls too.

i always hv nothing to say nowadays.. boring.. giv dis page a miss. nothing exciting goin on now.

probably il strt reading annie proulx's short stories. since i left my pet sematery at NSRCC.

i want my zen microphotoooooooooooooooo! argh. i hv to wait til nxt yr!

// so wrong it feels right

i got nothing much to say today.
lunchtime, me n pauline had an interesting talk. abt skills n paper qualifications. told her abt my plans.. or.. rather, the choices i have.. its rili cool to hv someone like her to talk to. someone slightly older n slightly wiser.. somehow.

high school musical was on disney channel again jus now. watched wif oj.. but i skipped d part where troy's n gabriella' frens were fooling ard wif dem. mainly jus watched d part where they sang. haha.

going to d golf course in d west side. shud b cool. i somehow cant wait for d last session. brian n michelle. haha.

d ocbc atm at jelita jumped n opened up on its own again. 2 policemen came n asked us questions.. den in d evening, d technician guy sorta interviewd us. hah. its always a funny sight to c those ppl panicking when d atm machine literally jumped n opened right infront of their eyes. hah. dey look freaking shocked.. u noe... like those ppl in just for laughs gags. hah.

im mean.

watever.

// evaporate tall person

i cycled to amk courts jus now. it took abt 30mins to rch dere. but, wen i was goin bck, it only took 17 mins. weird. cyling in d rain otw bck was quite cool. dere was dis huge lorry who honked at me, n d ah pek driver smiled at me. haha. oh yeah. i almost ran over a dead frog. tt was jus plain nasty.

n ive watched my heart. i only cried during the last part wen farel was reading d letter frm rachel. d rest of d movie i was jus tryin to figure wat deir saying. haha. lame sia. predictable ah.. well, other den d fact tt i noe wats d movie abt.. yeah.

hv a gd evening everyone.

// i forgot

gd evening.

i hate to be told tt im wrong. especially wen i alrdi noe tt im wrong. i jus hate tt feeling. d heart beat will escalate. i feel like breakin sumtin with my bare hands. but. i hv to feel like tt? if not id nvr realise it??

i love u.

so now im reading stephen king's pet sematary (yeah its spelled like tt). cj gave me a rundown on d movie.. gues it was aired in d early 80s. anw. it shud b a cool book. dis book is slightly different somehow.. d way he begins. in d early chapters, its almost impossible to think tt itl b a scary book. its d way he writes it tt makes u want to noe wats goin to happen. n even if u alrdi roughly, ud stil want to noe.. geddit? no? nvm.

u noe.. il always want things to b easy. bcos.. its easy. if being easy is wrong, its ok. il try to make it better nxt time. if a chanve ever come my way again. if not. too bad. il stil live. i dun regret. cos i noe i cant turn bck time. so yeah.
dey say i hv to change cos dis is not a gd motto to live by.
dammit. life's so hard.

watever. tmr is another day.

// WAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA

ive been watching brokeback mountain's trailer n vids on flixter, on youTube. its jus very tragic tt i wasnt 21 yet wen dey released d movie in singapore. i wanted to watch it so badly. i even bought d book. n since its adapted frm a short story.. d book i bought was a collection of annie poulx other short stories. i didnt even look at d rest of d stories. $12 gone to waste. r R21 movies available for sale or rent? will it ever be out on DVD?
its so hearbreakin to c d scene in d trailers. i can cry dere n den.. seriously.

so anw. i was flippin thru friday's today. dere was dis part on d singapore motorshow '06. n dere were brief reviews on d lastest models to hit singapore. its so cool la. last day is nxt wk, anyone wana accompany me to watch cars at suntec city? yeah? 20 bux. 10 bux me, 10 bux u. hah.

strtd at jcc yesterday. met some of d new kids. fixed d blinds. moved d lights n boards.. pasted d tape on d edge of d steps. bla bla bla.. it'l b cool. but i foresee, trouble. in d near future.
n tt. is not gd.

help me.

oh yeah. i HATE IT wen familiar things/places look so different at night. things tt u noe. places tt u noe. it sucks ok. last nite, i got lost in sembawang n woodlands. it was so cold. n i was walkin n walkin n walkin. luckily it wasnt too late at nite. hate tt feeling wen its so cold but ur sweating. hate tt feeling where u noe ur goin d right way, but it seems tt ur never getting dere.

so anw. tmr is a monday. its d last day of my work wk. yesssss! 10 to 7. n im done.

// what hurts the most..

i went to blk 610. one of my old neighbours' son is getting married tmr. so jus now, was d rewang. no.. i did not rewang. i merely went dere to hv my supper n to fetch my sister home. d food was nice n all. d irritating part was wen all d makciks n a few pakciks saw me n my mum n den, dey'l go:
"ehhh.. ni shidah kan. "
"salll... ni yg no tiga kan.."

DOINNKKKKKKKKKKKZZZZZZZZZZZ.

i WAS jus a little happy. me lookin young, youthful n all.. but yeah. it got RILI IRRITATING.. especially wen one went, "ni secondary brape ni skg?"

WHOOOOAAAAAAAA. i have a freakin diploma. hah. well, ofcos its not written all over my face n therefore these makciks cant tell. haiz. wat shud i do, to mke dem think im TWENTY ONE?? im jus being me. probably i shud hv a voice box transplant.. argh.

so anw. yeah. i duno. im restless. bluek. goin to d golf course tmr. hv. to. slp.. now. zzzZZZzzzzz. i want a hug.


// need your touch

gd tuesday mrng ppl of the world. its a nice cool mrng n i shud stil b aslp.. but i was woken up pretty early. long story. nvm..

watched tv wif nyai. updated her on kara's little kitty n we watched animal planet and national geographic together.

as u all mite hv noticed by now, ive changed d blog skin yet again. yeah.. greenish.. .dark. but nice. yup..

so anw last nite i received news on my msn tt saddam hussein n 2 other of his men will be sentenced to death. for their crime in 1982, where 148 Shiites were murdered. ok. i was born in 1985, so i had no idea wat happened in 1982. i hv no idea too who are these Shiites, Kurds or other minority groups in Iraq. so i hv almost no clue on why mr saddam has to be hanged. all tt ive known all my life is, dis mr saddam is an evil man. n he deserves to be given such a sentence.
http://www.msnbc.msn.com/id/15567363/
i rili should read up on this. jus to know. u guys shud too..


on a lighter note, im listening to the soundtrack of high school musical over n over again. i specially like 'someone like you'. the one by ryan and sharpay.. its more fun. =) i hvnt watch d movie til d end. probably i shud rent d dvd.
oh yeah. me n shid were watching vids of HSM (high school musical) n grease.. n we realised! tt dey r very similar. troy n gabrielle.. jus like danny n sandy.
met b4 sch opens.. d girl is d new trnsfr student.. have their differences. conflicts aftr conflicts. but in d end, everything ends well! u guys c d similarities?? coolness kan.

i hv to do d laundry aftr dis.. wil b meetin miss mystery shopper today b4 trng! yeayyyyy. haha.
hv a gd day everyone. tke cre cos i cre.

// =)

yesterday was d annual family raya bus trip. dis yr twas minus cik su n kak yam.. kak yam only joined us aftr her cheer performance. here r few of d pix.


first n second


first n third


first n last


dey took over 10 shots of dis.. none turned out rite. someone had to b doin sumtin wrong. i jus chose d last one. hah.


my knees were hurting by den


focus: teeth. before n after.


madness

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deres a total of i tink close to 400 pix. i tink 75% r crappy. hah. with d invention of digital cameras, ppl coined up d word cam-whoring. so yeah. go figure.

nitey nite ppl. i repaired my golf shoe n im off to d golf course tmr. wish me luck.

// i didnt intend to

me, shid, ibu n sofi dyed our hair. hah. i jus washed away d dye frm my hair. n dere isnt much of a diff. bluek .wats new? hah. ibu's white hair r not white anymore. i did streaks for shid. but not sure how dey'l turn out. my bro was easy cos his short hair. yeah.

tmr. or ltr. d whole family has to b out by 11 am. n here we r, 2 am. stil up. hah. oj's having a fever. hope she'l b better tmr mrng. we cant possibly leave her alone or postpone d whole thing. so yeah.. ibu's gona bring d pink panadol n cough syrup for her.

im gona tuck in real soon. thot i wanted to change d skin. but m lazy.

// 4mins of pleasure