but with your eyes so green
and your pinkish theme,
you've made an old friend seem
rather dead to me
alas the weapon sex can be

your body is a weapon
and you're afraid it could get out
a friend of the devil
and you're afraid it could get out

don't say i don't cut when i do i do i do
(i do i do)
don't say i'm lying when i'm true i'm true i'm true
(i do i do)
the razor...

don't say we're healing when it's just not what we do
so many suitors, i don't even have a suit to wear
so many influential fingers running through your hair
i am the razor and in the hands of your heart
and i am the razor in the hands of God

the razor - heads automatica

i dont need to know your past. it doesnt matter.
i want to live for the future. can i get the assurance?
living a lie? eversince so long ago? until when?

n
i dont need to your promises. especially for some other people i duno.
its rili doesnt matter.

its so foggy ahead. its no use planning bcos nothing will come my way.
living each day as it comes?
too random? i duno.

just what the heck do i want?

// the safest answer

my body is aching.
trng was fun. its beginning to be fun again. yessah..
full steam ahead!

trng again ltr at grange road. sucks tt i cant train at farrer park on thursdays now. ARGHHH.

I WANT TO WATCH COLDPLAY. I WANT TO WATCH COLDPLAY. I WANT TO WATCH COLDPLAY. I WANT TO WATCH COLDPLAY. I WANT TO WATCH COLDPLAY. I WANT TO WATCH COLDPLAY. I WANT TO WATCH COLDPLAY. I WANT TO WATCH COLDPLAY.

i want so many things. but is it what i need?

well.... will b off to c d lil guys at marsiling ltr.

// this love

n so SPORTING WESTLAKE emerged as the winner after beating the likes of YOUNG WOMEN'S, BISHAN ARSENAL, PAYA LEBAR n ARION. $1000 will be given to them NEXT WEEK, not at LOT 1, but at PLAZA SINGAPURA.

yeah. we won. tough one. but yeah, like dey say.. the ball is round. and smaller this time round.

i resumed work yesterday. sup picked me up n we went to NSRCC together. we played d par 3 nine holes course. my score was 38. not bad for a first timer n d fact tt i hvnt hit a golf ball in like 4 weeks. i strained my left elbow while chipping. now i hv 2 bad arms. i didnt bring my golf shoes so i had to wear someone elses. its smaller one size so yeah.. my feet were crying thruout d ordeal. but it was fun.

got bck to wrk. sup n kara updated me on happenings n all. 5pm class only 3 kids turned up. was hoping tt ji-yeon wud turn up but she didnt. bluek.

went to national trng aftr tt. it was ok la. passes n den 2 side wich i thot was like an enlarged version of d 4 aside we had on d past weekend. haha.

n so d Socceroos lost! dey had 1 man advantage n dey cud not make full use of it. n where was Kewell?! n Italy didnt desesrve that penalty. dere wasnt any infringement on d player...... argh. bluek. as much as i was the aussies to go thru, dey didnt deserve to win wif their performance like tt. bluek!!

I WANT TO WATCH COLDPLAY. I WANT TO WATCH COLDPLAY. I WANT TO WATCH COLDPLAY. I WANT TO WATCH COLDPLAY. I WANT TO WATCH COLDPLAY. I WANT TO WATCH COLDPLAY. I WANT TO WATCH COLDPLAY. I WANT TO WATCH COLDPLAY. I WANT TO WATCH COLDPLAY. I WANT TO WATCH COLDPLAY. I WANT TO WATCH COLDPLAY. I WANT TO WATCH COLDPLAY. I WANT TO WATCH COLDPLAY. I WANT TO WATCH COLDPLAY. AAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!


its not everytime u c me like dis


tak glamour nye


the bomb n me


post jemputan, pre match


shid n d cage (or netting..)


group B


team AISHAH supporters! (MUAHAHAH!)


random oj pic


that sunday team


brunch


grace is evil


mirul cute kan!!!!


old sch corvette at farrer park.. HOT!




those were the pix for over d past 2 weeks. time flies by too fast wen ur having fun.

// say what you mean, but it wont change your sins

yesterday was a long day. d girls had d st soccer at kolam ayer cc. dey won 1 n lost 1. so out dey went. hung out dere.. watch d matches til d end. got d certificate n den we washed up. nik wanted to walk to potong pasir mrt but we got lost. took a bus to dhoby gaut.it rained. i wanted to slp. but its uncomfortable. met none at d mrt stn. took d train to marinan n all d way to cck. we slpt. but it was uncomfortable too.

n soooo.... we strted late. n we won all d matches la! omg. hah. first one was nerve wrecking. me n shah were discussing on how to repeat last wk's performance. haha. madnes.. 2nd game i was exhausted, i didnt play. 3rd game was ok. was subbed aftr i got kicked in d ankle.

finals today. wen it was supposed to b last nite. crap. shah n jon cant mke it. dammit la to tt particular person. irritating to d max nye.

we'l meet young women's cos dey lost to nyp. weird. so yeah.. 1 in 4 chance of winning the top prize.

i gues il strt wrk tmr. yeah. tts wat i told d sup. cam wun b comin bck. n i heard a handful of d kids hv withdrawn. bluek.

oh! went to teck ghee cc to ref. but it rained n rained. so i had brkfast wif mr Raunadeys. (i tink im d only one who noes who is RAUNADEYS!) went bck to d tent. sat n sat. got our pay n left. HAHA.

// irritants

gd mrng. its raining n its not cold. i hv to get ready very soon cos i hv an appointment.

so anw, yesterday's trng was tiring. d 1st part was a killer. my thighs felt like bursting. but aftr tt twas ok. i felt gd during possesion. its like d prev's day energy was released on yesterday's trng. everytin tt i wanted to do on wednesday tt i cudnt do, i did yesterday. tts possible rite? i cant lose this vibe. even my lotto boots felt good, despite d swollen lil toe n aching soles.

n.. im happy tt d socceroos got into d final 16. harry kewell looks so much better wif shorter hair. n i noe i mentioned dis but, joe cole is my new favourite player. =) his partnership wif ashley cole is superb. makes me wana play midfield again. bluek.

so yeah.. im stil lazy to upload pix. mayb ltr today or sumtin. kak yam, patience.. =p

oh. d bro's bck. let's c wat happens nxt.

// paplin

my horoscope today is jus plain freaky.

im exhausted. didnt clock in enuf slpin hrs.

dang.

trng was ok to begin with. jus got suckier towards d end.

im exhausted. oh. i said tt.

tmr is another day.

// i dun make dem

woke up early, rushed n got ready.. met nyai n we headed to teck whye. not before i caught a glimpse of court i was gona play at in d evening. it was small, n had futsal goalposts.
so anw, cousins reunite! minus d ones frm 861 n bkt batok. cam whore as usual.
hung out til kinda late.

reached lot1 early. watched d u-12 boys playing. i was alrdi in my jersey, n den had a conversation wif a stranger who happened to noe my coach. he wished me luck n went away. finally d teamates came n we reg. juggled. n den d tourney started. we lost to paya lebar 2-4. n won d rest. we beat BA 5-3. woohoo.. madness.
thnk u to my 5 supporters! kak rin, kak yam, shid, raihan n farizwan! dey were like screaming my name la. hah..
got thru, n will b playin nxt sunday at bishan junction 8.
well, its crap tt these buncha teams r grouped together, as compared to d saturday teams. its not fair..

my right jaw is creaking n my left little toe is swollen, again.

n soooo... monday.. today. went to register d players for d upcoming league wif CM. went all over singapore (almost) with him to do errands. took free bus rides. so tiringggggggggggggg.

gona watch my weekly dose of monday nite television show now.

pix wil b uploaded once im not lazy.

// come what may?

gd sunday mrng.

last nite went to din's to celebrate his 19th bday. d 'lucky draw' part was kinda hillarious. well, glad din had fun making fun of ppl. hah.. bought a pressie for both him n saint.

ive found a new way of destressing.
photo-editting. ive been bugging shid to dl a programme. n she did!
we hv adobe photoshop!
here's 2 of our wrks.





enjoy.
oh! btw, kak yam. d ostrich had to b blindfolded. if not, it will jus run amok wif us on top. yeap. dey hv rough feathers n rili tough muscles btw. haha.

// shit happens shid

d mrng's match was so irritating. lampard missed like more den 5 chances. n beckham's crosses were not goin up. felt so relieved aftr crouch headed d ball in.
JOE COLE will be my new favourite plyr.
i like his dribbling, step overs n passing. n he wears his shorts high, is tt cute or wat.

no'ne n nik actually asked me out to go clubbing last nite. but.. neh, not yet. runn has been askin me since i duno wen. haha..

well.. its friday. i wana go out, or shud i jus stay at home? hv a bday party to attend on sat n sun wil b a long day.

eveyrone's at home. shidah's bck frm camp n my bro's not out yet. it feels so normal. haha.. past 2 days hv been weird, jus me oj n ibu in d mrngs.

// sedap

munah. lookin cute, somehow.

superbored in d bus

naughty boy

cj welcoming us

kambings

pink car passenger 2 n 3

pink car passenger 1

SWFC vs Negeri9Womens

su clapping wen im pissed. hah.

ladies

ibu n cm running for d pufferfish bus

the pink car

seremban cow

ostrich man

standing on ostriches eggs

riding d ostrich

din n mil, starbucks at jusco seremban

UNO GAME!

in d ISTANA

caught! hah..

kenny rogers!

d mirror

mil n a lembu

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those r jus some of d pics. im stil waiting for saint to pass me d pic we took at baskin robbins. hah. yeah. enjoy.

// experienced

hey hey. im bck last nite.. it was a gd experience.
i didnt buy much, i gues. but im left wif 5RM. haha.
d fatory outlet at jusco seremban drove us mad. i bought 3 tops.
n i bought another pair of boots. mitre.
30+RM = $15+! hah.

so anw, d resort wasnt much of a resort. it was kinda creepy at nite. it was ard an hr's drive frm d town. d 1st nite, cj drove us out to d coffeeshop jus to drink. opppsite d coffeeshop was dis karaoke shack. dere was i tink only 2 guys singing.. over n over again. d shack was even complete wif disco lights. d funny thing was! d police station was beside d karaoke shack. n it was past midnite! sumtin u can nvr c in singapore.

on the way bck, we went to malaka to shop n stuff. i didnt shop cos i didnt want to anymre. we had lunch at kenny roger's! n den me n saint went to baskin robbins for dessert! power to d max laaaaaaa. haha.

k im stil sleepy. argh. n i hv trng ltr. gona wear my new boots!

// 12 pieces

packed my bag. set d alarms. input songs into my loaned mp3 plyer.

gona watch d 1st '06 world cup match. germany vs costa rica.

dun miss me ppl. il b bck before u can say england-will-win-this-year's-world-cup.

haha.

// do i have to cry for you?

i was slping waiting for shida to finis using d comp. i jus woke up ard 15mins ago?

yeah.





im not giving excuses........... n i hate explaining myself.

iiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii fffffffffeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeellll llllllliiiiiiikkkkkkkkkeeeeeeeeeee cccccccccrrrrrrrrraaaaaaaaapppppppppppppppppp. everything was alright. it wass it was it was it was. wait, it stil it.

runn wants me to do disss... so here goes!

3 schools I went to:
northland pri, yishun sec and temasek poly

3 things in my handbag:
i dun hv a handbag!

3 things I do when I'm stressed:
umm.. go online, tink of loved one or lie dwn n try my darnest to slp.

3 places I go on a daily basis:
home, wrk n den farrer park

3 fav fruits:
mango, orange n grapes

3 names I go by:
aishah, shasha n umm... leha. yeah

3 of my fav food:
kacang pool, hokkien mee nban mien

3 things I'm wearing right now:
white top, gransport shorts n my glasses

who is in the house with me:
ayah ibu oj n abg

who am I thinking of right now?
him

who did I last talk to on the phone:
umm..cant rmb

who did I sit with during my 5th period in class?
no class

who was the last person I uttered love to?
him

who do I wish I am with right now?
him

who gets on my nerves most in school?
no one

where is my phone?
charging. on the whiteboard.

where do I sleep?
last nite, on d bed. other nites on d mattress.

where is the place I took a ride to?
last nite, home?

what was the last thing I ate?
pancakes wif tofee syrup

what colour shirt am I wearing now?
white

what is the closest item to me that is blue?
mousepad

what do I like most about school?
ppl

what is my fav colours?
blue n green

what do I wear most often jeans or shorts?
shorts.

what was the last movie I watched?
xmen 3.

when did I start school?
wen i was 5

when did I last go to the mall?
yesterday. northpoint.

when did I last burn something?
nothing.

3 bloggers to do this:
haha. shid. kak rin. n zalina?

changed the skin again.

had pancakes for brkfst. ayah n oj made dem.

slept almost immediately aftr i reached home last nite. it was a cool nite.

shid n zaida came to play for d frenly yesterday. cj asked dem to train wif us. yeay.
no comments abt d game.

im tired again. i want to go bck to slp ah.

wat the......... i am so irritating.

// she contradicts

i was watching national geographic. dere were like 5 turtles all huddled up together, swimming. dey was actually jus 1 female n 4other males trying to mate her. wat was weird was all d males had 5 legs. haha. d last 'leg' was actually deir dicks. n dey r huge. anw, wat fascinates me was how all those males were trying so hard to mate ONE female, (with their fat dicks sticking out.) dey were biting each other. trying to mount d female. n d female was jus making a straight face beneath all the other turtles. well, i hvnt actually seen a turtle making expressions, so yeah.. who knows wat she mite b tinkin at tt point of time. its such a wild world.

n so it finally happened. didnt hv to wait til d tenth. n it hurts. it hurts. it hurts. it hurts. it hurts. n bcos of d rain.. me feet feel so very cold. n tt sucks. tt sucks.

wont b trng cos i cant. but hv to go dere to collect money. o$p$. macam paham. haha.

shidah has bright brown hair. oj too. n oj scalded her arm while showering. =I

// i want to run away

woke up early to go to amk for st soccer refreeing. its d u-14 category n i tink i did 1 or 2 matches.. yeah. d rest of d time i was recording d scores n stuff. was dere wif cj n dilah. been some time since i met up wif dilah.. kecoh la she.
nik n titi dropped by halfway. marsiLAN boys were dere. n dey got 3rd.

so, d thing ended. we sent titi bck to tamp cos she had to rush. she had a flight to catch in d evening. d rest of us had lunch/dinner at salihin's. nice la d food. chatted n stuff. went bckkkk....

ordered canadian pizza for d sisses. i ate 2 slices only.

d parents r bck!

tomorrowwww is mondayyyyyyyy. yeah..

// secrets

gd sat mrng. no wrk but i cant continue slpin. crap.

ari's supposed to come over but i dun tink he will. shidah says he's in camp. n wen i asked him earlier dis wk, he said hes comin. ape nye abg ari.. jus bcos u as tall as me now u can play2 wif me is it? bluek.

so yesterday! we went to watch hi5. it was fun la. i tink Charlie n Nathan looked great. shidah looked like she enjoyed it more den oj. oj is always in a state of shock like tt.

cam whored at d airport while waiting for my frens. finally met dem n den we had to look for popye's. everything has changed dere. dere's no more CBTL T2D! sad.
updated each other on happenings ever since sec sch. apparently, im d one with d worst memory. i cant rmb dis teacher, i forgot tt thing happened, n i got confused who was wif who, wen n for how long. HAHA.

zalina looked great. she seems like she hasnt grown. stil same height n all. HAH. ayi is rili fair. oh yeah.. straight teeth. me n her wore braces aftr sec sch..
n both of dem r set on getting married wen dey reach 25. hahaha..
cuteness la.

d parent r gone for d weekend again. il stay at home today. watch tv. n, umm.. do some chores wen i feel like it? yeah..

well, njoy d pix. courtesy of TERRY!

excited


1 2 3 4 hi 5


l.o.v.e


bean head n shid











foaming


foaming


$10 worth of helium!


// the thoughts of you crowd my head

so shidah found the tix. oj called me up immediately. hah. she was so happy. eversince she woke up jus now, she told me every half an hr tt we r goin to watch hi5. LIKE DUH! i noe we r, ok.
oj oj.. y u so like tt.

ish, my dad is being irritating..........................................

meetin zal n ayi ltr for dinner. updates updates! d last time i saw ayi wassss.......... 5 yrs ago? oh wow. eh no.... i bumped into her once at woodlands library.. tt time both of us jus removed our braces if im not wrong. hahaahhahah.

k i want to trim my fringe.. n den probably nxt wk, i wana donate blood.

// 10 to 2 for 2 hrs

reading my prev posts makes me more depressed. i realised nothing happy has been happening to me. dis sucks.

well.. tmr me shid n oj r goin to watch the hi5 concert. but guess wat? oj lost d tix. its somewhere in dis messy room of ours. my mum n dad are alrdi nagging at me for letting her 'play' wif d tix. like wth. i mean.. she took it out frm my drawer n yeah.. i was at wrk yesterday! argh.
oj is now searching the WHOLE HOUSE for tt thin white envelope containing our tix.

accompanied my gramps to d bank jus now. lucky d q was real short. i hate queueing up n small places with alot of ppl btw. d transaction was smoooth. got her money.. n den had breakfast n den to chong pang.

n AQILAH STILL HASNT FOUND THE TICKETS. IF LOST HAVE TO MAKE A POLICE REPORT! ARGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH....
AAAAAAAAAQQQQQQQQIIIIIIIIIIILLLLLLLLAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!

// bang bang