i suck. i screw up all d time.
laughing, is jus like drugs n nicotine n watever la. deyr addictive n makes u forget abt crappiness.
feeling a lil wooozy now. i duno y. no no i dun drink or smoke. probably its sumtin physiological. yeah. nothing to it all.

im ok.

m i trying too hard? tts y i screw up? tink n plan too much before saying. it jus comes out worse.
wat was tt? wat were u trying to do? i hate forcing the tears. it hurts d brain.
so many things to say to u. millions of times i rehearsed. not one time it came out right. jus wat is wrong wif me? i know i can do dis. i know. i was fine.

sharon is ten yrs older den me. aqilah is 10 yrs younger den me. 1975, 1985 n 1995. hah. so very cool. hah.

AAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH! pain.

// she screams, stab my back.