d 2 set of twins were an adorable bunch. zac n harriet r 5 yrs old. emily n ben were 4. dey were so supportive of each other and were so interested of d sport. their mummy was so surprised to c dem so happy. daddy is a golfer wif a 10 for his handicap. daddy jus want dem to learn golf so it will be a family thing. i rili hope dey wil sign up nxt wk.

i want hv kids toooooooooooooooo!

shidah bought for me oyster omelette! finally. ive been wanting to eat tt since i duno wen.
n! she's gona make me spend money again! deres dis rili cool cool vintage looking watch. n yeah. im gona buy 2. 1 for me, 1 for her! haaaaaaah. wif d money i bought my lost tEEEEEEEEmex, i cud buy 4 of those watches. haiyah. heart pain.

cool aint it?

oh yeah. a beetle flew in through the window, straight onto the side of my head. n den fell and died on the floor.
tragic.

// my only one

wrk was fine. 4 of us in d centre today. its a lil funner now. i like teasing the sup. hah. anw, lunched at holland v. sup wanted to buy those shoes/slippers me n her saw weeks ago. she was so excited. turned out dere were none tt were her size. i tried some, n i bought a pair. hand made from india i tink. cow leather. i shall call dem COWS.
n den it rained so very heavily. sup parked her car so way inside d private housing. d kind sales guy, btw he was quite a looker, gave us 2 complimentary umbrellas.

aftr wrk, me, cam n kara watched 16 blocks. it stars bruce willis and dis black guy. duno his name but if im not wrong he was in ocean's eleven n that car movie with the blue, yellow, red and white mini coopers.
basically its abt corruuption in the nypd. its abt right and wrong. its about realising your mistakes a little too late. and its about, people. dey can change, if given a chance and ofcourse, if dey choose to.. i dun mind watching it again.
u noe how some people age gracefully? yeah.. bruce willis doesnt do tt. he looks rili haggard. hah. but, i like him. d way he speaks.. d way he tell us how he feels without talking.

AND! i saw the world cup nike jerseys at the nike shop! aaaah! dey come in different sizes! n dey cost more den a hundred buckarooooos! argh. d holland away jersey is nice laaaaa. n i saw d mexican n australian jersey!!! so niceeee!

bck to wrk in a few hrs time. we will b having 2 sets of twins tmr for a trial class. 1 set is 4 yrs old, d other is 5. it will be interesting.

// dey came together

FINALLY! BLOGGER LOADS!

been trying for 2 hrs to get into dis page. duno wats wrong wif dis freakin computer?! argh. im so bingit. i duno y. shidah is noisy. ayah keeps askin me abt d camera. ibu's nagging abt d fon bills. d bro broke his promise again!
fortunately oj is sound aslp!
argh. so irritating......

got d new fon. received d long sleeved tshirt. got d confirmation for d boxers.. im jus waiting for my freaking CROCS! argh.
so many bills to pay. argh. argh. argh. argh. argh. argh. argh.

i cant wait for monday. can kick ballllllll.

blogging doesnt make me feel better!!!!

// i need a kiss. QUICK! haaaaaaah. =0

reggo. technae.. shidah ah merepek. she said she noticed guys her age r rili typical.
she got dis new game. who can wiggle their thumb fastest and for d longest time wins. ahhh! not easy tau.

so yeah. it was so difficult to wake up in d mrng. it was raining heavily. jams all over!. reached work late. bluek.
beef noodles at clementi for lunch! yeay!! yum.
d rest of d classes were ok. yeah. last class, jx was being rili weird. i told him dere were blue ppl behind d walls wen he kept knocking d walls wif d golf ball. he was rili scared. hah. im scared if he develop a phobia for d sport. argh. he's weird.

got my new boots... red n white lotto.
RED is the new BLUE.
hah. yeay.
tmr, getting new old fon. yep yep.

all's well, ends well. ;-*

// in your arms

gd mrng sunshine. =) woke up early again. i slept late laaaaaaaa n its my freakin off day. hah. madness.

cam said my cheque's ready. she's gona drop it tonite. so! il get it on friday! yeay. hah. i alrdi calculated wat i need to use d money for. n gues how much im left with aftr subtracting? less den a hundred. hah. 2 pays of unpaid leave rili sucked me dry. argh.

so d other day, dere was dis rili cute Axxxx plate pale pink vintage vespa at d carpark infront of my window. d rider was dis chinese girl. wen she started her engine, i screamed at my mum to come to d window. d girl n her vespa scooted away. even my mum thot it was way coooool. den my dad said his dad used to hv a vespa but he scrapped it away for less den $300. like wth. he shud hv asked me rite. den he cud keep it for me. hah. (yeah rite.. i wasnt even born yet. hah.) so yeah. cool la.

kelly clarkson has a rili new cool video. fuunnnnyy la. d ppl so smangat sing her song. chk it out on mtv k. title: walkaway.

my sis shid has a new fetish. sudirman songs. weird kan. anw im listening to 'terasing' now. hah. she's so influential la.

// i hv scrawny arms

its my off day n i woke up early. i wanted to go bck to slp but i felt so restless. rehearsed wat i wanted to say. dial ur no n 'wham!' i forgot wat i wanted to say. at least, d heart rate slowed dwn aftr hearing ur voice. last nite was yeah. unexpeced.

finished with the list of schools. woohoo. now, wat do i do?

ibu cooked yellow rice. i ate it wif canned tuna. hah.

i got invites. dis time round, tink it thru ok aishah. u can do dis.

denial. denial. denial. denial. denial. denial. denial. denial. denial. denial. denial. denial. denial. denial. denial. denial. denial. denial. denial. denial. denial. denial. denial. denial. denial. denial. denial. denial. denial. denial. denial. denial. denial.
no shidah its not a name. no. im not denying anytin. im jus exercising my fingers.

chatted abt wat i shud do now, during yesterday's lunch. now i hv to tink it thru n decide very soon. do i want to stay on? or?

tink il go tke a nap. maybe. hahah. maybe. maybe. maybe. maybe. maybe. maybe. maybe. maybe. maybe. nah.. jus exercising again.

// aching

i suck. i screw up all d time.
laughing, is jus like drugs n nicotine n watever la. deyr addictive n makes u forget abt crappiness.
feeling a lil wooozy now. i duno y. no no i dun drink or smoke. probably its sumtin physiological. yeah. nothing to it all.

im ok.

m i trying too hard? tts y i screw up? tink n plan too much before saying. it jus comes out worse.
wat was tt? wat were u trying to do? i hate forcing the tears. it hurts d brain.
so many things to say to u. millions of times i rehearsed. not one time it came out right. jus wat is wrong wif me? i know i can do dis. i know. i was fine.

sharon is ten yrs older den me. aqilah is 10 yrs younger den me. 1975, 1985 n 1995. hah. so very cool. hah.

AAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH! pain.

// she screams, stab my back.

nothing much today. took cassius early in d mrng. he came late again. d girls r not here today. aftr tt, took michael for chipping only.

we had pizza for lunch. me, cam n kara split d cost. we had pepperoni n spanish seafood. woohoo.

hung out n talked crap amongst each other. finally luke came. he was abit reserved to begin with. gues he was a lil awkward aftr a mth of not coming. he's leaving for california in 4 days! he'l only b bck in june! aaaaahhhhhh. n i wun b ard by den. damn. so tempted to stay. argh.



kara d coconut milk asked me if i hv a bf. hehe. cuteness. yeah. n den took d bus home wif cam. she gave me some ideas. oh yeah. n we'r invited to d bbq at ns. haaaaaaah. like thnx la, but no thnx.

tmr is monday! yeay. wrk. bola. teeeveeeee... hmm, can i squeeze in a lunchtime wif u? jus a thot. i misssss u to d max. mke me laugh pls. dun wan sad mad n ngry. bluek.

// burning in my heart, tearing me apart

today was d Kindergolf Awards Day. from 10 to 2 i was doin nothing much. everyone was rushing n planning n stressing, while i jus sat ard n look at dem. hah. i had to b reserved to b d most important role. Roly the Golf Dinosaur.



k other den being d star. i was ushering d Jelita kids before their cert presentation. it was so fortunate tt our centre has d least no of kids. it was easy to get dem together.





so proud of d kids. especially Taiga. he got 1st in d Monthly Medal.
n Luke! was so glad to c him. missed him. he's goin bck to US for awhile. he'l b bck in June.



2nd shift for Roly was madness. i was stomped on, kicked upon, pulled at by over excited kids! haha. dey were all over me! i almost fainted. i was woozy n i told d rest tt i wanted to tke a brk. haha. i was dripping in my own sweat aftr tt.



d event was a success. had fun la. hehe. deres alot more pix. but yeah, laziness.

went to taka aftr tt. ate kfc wif pauline. n den yeah. it rained. n rained. n rained. n rained. n den it stopped. n den yeah.


in motion.

// tired

reached home at ard half an hr ago. oj was watching freaky friday on disney channel. i tink dis is like the thousandth time dey r showing tt movie. hah. but i watched it anw.

wrk was ok. we were rushing to do d scrap book for tmr's event. pauline did a gr8 jpb putting it all together. tink our pictures r great! il b d mascot. dey say il pespire like mad in d costume. but i tink it'l b fun. cant wait.

was walkin ard lookin for a fon. found a gd buy. hope it'l stil b dere nxt wk.
was also askin abt rimless glasses. d guy said hi index lens wun look gd on a rimless. so yeah, tink il stick to dis.

d cleaner auntie gave me mangoes jus now. ayah said its for sambal belacan. yeay. can ask ibu to make!

i want u. i want u. i want u. all to myself. yes? no?


edward and aishah


// some guys have all the luck

tell me wher i can get a 2nd hand phone cheap.

i thot pasar malams close aftr 12. i was so sure of tt. i mean, dey r called pasar MALAM for a reason rite? i reached yishun at 2345hrs last nite n d place was all dark. i planned to get sumtin for OJ. bluek.

almost everyone who went to d futsal competition over at sembawang had rashes. i heard tt d caterpillars ard d area emit some kinda substance wen provoked n tt wil lead to human skin irritation. i told my bro n he confirmed dis. (he's some sort of an animal expert in our house.) he reminded me abt caterpie in pokemon. one of deir powers were poison powder. i gues tt does explain d rare incident. dere were hundreds of black caterpillarss crawling aftr d rain. YUCKS!

oh yeah! monday nite updates!
desperate housewives was ok. it jus gets more complicated as new characters enter d show. sister mary has a scheming look. im sure shes up to no good.
grey's anatomy! d pole thru 2 ppl part was freaky n way emotional for me. n! dr shepard didnt sign d papers n went bck to his wife! omg. i was almost so sure tt he wud get bck with meredith. n tt lady who was on d fon all d time, did she die cos of d radiation of d freakin 6060? HAH. weird la.

last nite/mrng. i was awoken by a noise. it was a familiar noise n i cud hv sworn it was wat it was. but. i was kinda scared to find out. im stil lookin for it. n i didnt slp for tt hour. dammit.

i hv to go bck to slp now. i got plans ltr. n it includes! playing at jln besar std. well, tt is, if im even selected la. hah. im getting closer..

// nice yet awful

in total i played 13 mins. took 2 days urgent leave for only tt. hah. kinda crappy rite? it rained yesterday for wat it seems like forever n dere were so much creepy crawlies all over. yucks. but, it was fun to c everyone. yeah.

had lunch wif miza, no'ne n an achi at some pondok nearby d hardcourt at sembawang jus now. miza told d achi tt i was 18.. den d achi looked surprised. she thot i was 12. ~bangs head on d wall.~ im turning 21 in a few months dammit. argh.

well, here r some pix. njoy.

me n mil


wat r u tryin to do ti?


dey nvr stop


guys n their manager


11 shoes n a foot


mak's tying her laces


clearing sky

its a new wk tmr. i cant wait for monday nights. hah. d only night i watch tv.

btw, I WANT CROCS!

// if it takes forever..

fickle fickle fickle.
i change my mind more often than i change my underwear.
seriously.

wats r my principles? ppl change minds n opinions all d time. well, i noe i do. so yeah. principles change too.

sum1 told me, wen making decisions, tink of urself first. mke sure u wil b happy wif d decision. m i doin dis for me or for someone else? but sometimes, u being happy isnt always d right ans. we hv to consider other's feelings.
n tts wher it all begins.

if only dere was a manual on how to live. preferbably in volumes n pocket sized.

took my leave, wil not brood over it n get ready for soccer real soon. hope it wil b fun. it wud b FUNNER if U came. so, come k.

// moving along

got this from a fren's profile:

jealousy is not a barometer by which depth of love can be read, it merely records the degree of the lover's insecurity.

it got me tinking..

well, gotta go for my long awaited date!

// dont know much

came to wrk early. abigail gave me a buncha flowers she collected on d way to golf. she's d sweetest la. oh. she plays soccer too. she said she can kick d ball as high as d sky. i told her i can kick d ball to d moon n she kept quiet. HAH.

got a new colleague, her name's kara. she bought me the long long thing that i wanted. yeay.

tmr is a holiday. woohoo.

saturday n sunday............................. howwwwwwwwww? i want to play laaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa. help meeeeee.

n i found it! its linda ronstadt n aaron neville! d wonders of technology. =)

// dun even tink of comin closer

i woke up n my body was aching. not sure if i was stil tired frm trngs or i jus slept too long. but i feel fine now.
had brunch wif ibu. rice n leftovers.
hung d laundry wif oj.

im gettin a new old watch. kinda excited abt d watch cos it was a gift frm my parents wen i was in sec sch. n i broke d glass so ibu repaired it for me n im gona get it soon! yeay. finally im gona wear a watch again.

n im gona get a new old hp. long story. bluek.

my sister, shid, is funny.
dis was wat she sms me last nite b4 she went to slp.
"wher u? deres food on d table. if u want to eat, eat la. but if can dun. cos i want to bring to sch. so anw, wen u finis put dem bck in d fridge."

so i was tinking, can i eat? or not? n den, if im done wif d food? wats left to b put in d fridge?

shidah, shidah... merepek je tahu.

// so wrong, it feels right

my back hurts like maddddddddddddddd.
i hvnt been drinking my milk. n i was glad jon reminded me to.
n yeah. i shud find out abt dis new treatment she mentioned.

trng was ok la. i was rili rili tired. oh yeah.
wen shit happens, il jus laugh to myself.
cos deres nothing else to do.
coachies r bck! yeay.

n i hv a dilemma dis weekend. ARGHHHH!

// acting dumb is fun

thot i cud slp in today. but ibu woke me up tellin me i had to pick oj up frm sch. she's stil sick. she has been sick for more den a week now. not much of a fever but her coughing's so bad. its irritatingly sad to hear her cough like tt all d time. wait for kakak k..

trng was ok. crappy to begin wif! d left shin strted to act up again while we were doing d basics. sorta. aftr tt was d high balls. but rolling. n i sucked! i duno wat i was tinkin la. i mean.. i cud do tt wif ease, every other time... felt so so down. passes aftr tt were sllightly better. slightly. d last part was better. we had to score frm crosses n i scored 2 la. 1 was a header somemore. felt tt it was an achievement for me cos i nvr made a gd striker before. hah. sprintings aftr tt. bluek. rushed home to watch my ch 5.

desperate housewives is gettin so complicated n grey's anatomy is so nail biting. is dr shepard gona sign d divorce papers or not?! argh.. cant wait for nxt monday.

// hands shaking cold, these hands are meant to hold

last nite, aftr wrk, met up wif d sissies at d nearby pasar malam. bought our dinner n ate at one of d benches. oj wanted to play d rides. so we bought d tix for her. she went up this pink elephants ride. n den she went up d bouncy castle. i was gettin tired n d crowd was irritating la. shid wanted to walk ard.. so yeah. we did. got her a fan n bought oj some stickers. bought somemore food n headed home. finally.

got up early. well, not as early as i planned. but yeah. i was late. dey were all dere. registered n played d matches. i suck la. duno y i always get shin splints during short matches like dis. so while waiting for d quarters, we played game. it was a carnival atmosphere ah. so i was dunked, by no'ne! haha. den i played horizontal bungee.. we had to collect stamps to redeem a mystery prize. n d prize is! a cup of popcorn. wth.
quarter final, we beat young women's. penalties. jon scored. btw! d goal post is real small la! micro! oj is taller la. wth.
met arion for semis. we won. by coin toss! hah.
1st n 2nd placing, met a guys team. geylang fan club team. ape2 la eh.
2nd it was.
gaguy won a game n he got a cash prize. it was alot. shall not disclose d amt here. hah. he treat us to dinner n pool aftr tt. hah!
someone stole karen's bag, took her valuables n dumped it in d guys toilet. wth. idiot.

oh! saw wak ju, wak nor n kak idah la! n u noe wat?! wak ju noes d national coach la. he also mentioned, d national coach noes my other uncles too la. he calls him coach dollah. den my coaches call him coach dol. so its not coach noor. cos noor is d dad's name. haaaaaaaaaaahhh!
ITS A SMALL WORLD!

gd niteeeee. i misssssssss uuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuu. soooooooooooo verrrrrryyyyyy mucccccccchhhhhhhhhh....

// come back

wat do i type here? !?

denial
pretence
secrets
exhausting

i love you.
love dont matter?
now where did i hear that?

right back at you, aishah.
right back at you.

get me a shrink n tke cre of him pls.
dun let d bad guy push him over the bridge.

yesterday's trng wasnt gd to begin with. we played d numbers thingy, i get d part wher coach said we got to get ready way before our number is gona get called. but, others dun get tt i gues, so yeah.. i was slow to react.
2side, started off behind jon. again. hah. but i drifted to d middle n stayed dere. dere were times i was lost again. n i lost it. dang. it didnt occur to me den, tt it was d accumulation of everythin. i cant do anytin wen ppl scream.
note:
scream: a high loud sound made with your voice because you're very frightened, angry, hurt or excited.
shout: to say something very loudly
k, dere r many other definitions for these 2 words but here's one of each. wen i hv d ball, ppl screaming, tellin me wat to do. il jus freeze. cant u jus shout. say loudly without any indication of d feeling ur feeling. its just soccer dammit.
so anw, ive been told, i can b emotional. n i shud curb tt!
but den again, i dun do it as often as some ppl. so it cant b helped wen i do burst. dang.
but tt wasnt an excuse to wat i did.
i tink i played better aftr lettin tt out. but. argh. im not proud of it.

so yeah. im not sad. well, mayb jus a lil. ur leaving.. but its not jus tt.
its foggy ahead. i need assurance?

n some ppl alrdi got deir acceptance letter! n im anxiously checkin d letter box everynite for tt envelope. even if i dun get in, jus tell me asap ok. get it over n done with.

i hope il do ok ltr. i jus need time. tts all. i can do dis. i want to do dis.



// im ok

as you can c from the pictures above, it was recently reported that in a remote village somewhere in the north side of an island off malaysia, a family of siblings has been attacked by a strange unknown disease. apparently, after drinkin water from a nearby river, one of their tooth will expand. just one! baffled scientists have alrdi collected samples of the water and are doin tests.
the brother and three sisters are actually quite amused by all this commotion. it has brought them fame and they have signed a contract with a travelling circus to show case their extra enamel.
stay tuned to this space for more reports on this weird happening.

// HAH

SWFC ST SOCCER TOURNAMENT 2006


reunion


equation


foreigners


medic


lunchtime


spectators


penalty


merlions


winners


team


passengers


driver


dinner

at wrk alone..... im so sleeeepy. cam took d half day off. n matthias didnt turn up. i tink he'l b comin at 5 instead wif lukas. ive been doing online shopping on yahoo auctions for d past 2 hrs. won a bid. for less den 5 bucks. yeay. probably i wana get myself a pair of cords n den tts it for dis mth.

eversince i mentioned taking up driving lessons to my aunt, she's been very interested. she asked me to come along wif her to go register for the theory tests. d thing is, i tink im lazy. n. i duno if i shud spend d money now. or shud i wait til later? n sumtimes, i dun tink i even wana tke driving, i wana ride... BUT, out of 10 ppl who i asked. 8 n a half says i shudnt. so yeaaaaaaah. probably im destined to tke d public transport forever. since im quite versed wif d bus services ard d island.
dilemmas aftr dilemmas.

lepas satu, satu. hah. bedek seh. lepas satu, dua.

so d parents r out at jb. d kids r at home r left wif d gramps. n i hv to do some chores aftr wrk. billllllllllllllllllls to pay. piiiiiictures to print.

eh u noe i was reading, today's today n dey r doin a casting for d new bond movie. dey need ard 100 locals, n me, I! wana tke a shot at it. im gona email dem n tell dem in less den 50 words y i shud b filmed in one of james bond's movie! woohooooo. hah.

merepek.

// current affiairs

i uploaded a couple of photos n den IE had to suddenly close.
il post d pix nxt time. christiano ronaldo, if ur readin dis, jus wait for ur pic k. HAH.

soooo.. d st soccer tourney was a success i suppose. it was tiring, but it was fun. n i HATE IT whenever i hv shin splints! d pain's d worst! it was great to c people u hvnt c for a long time.

its greater to c d person u c everyday too.

so! bck to wrk tmr. woohooo! not.

// happy people