chenged the skin. its sumtin smaller den d prev one.
black background, as usual. i duno y.
kinda explained the mood ive been feelin for weeks.
cool huh.

n so ive finis all my exams. ive got a nice feeling abt ND but otherwise for FPr.
i didnt exactly study for the latter. cos i had insufficient time.
its difficult to explain how i study. cos its crappy. but its works.

so ive been goin for on the job trng. d people at the new place are rili noisy.
a house ful lof mad adults. im no where near their age group,
but i shud b ok. d pay's better den my prev fun job..

// save the last dance for me

wOitz.
in cybercentre. printed stuff.

finis ND paper. it was okat first denit got sucky.
prob its becosi was gettin restless, or cos my tummy was rumbling.
or cos my mind was occupied or prob i was jus sleepy.

normal huh?

shud i drop by fuchun or straight to farrer park?
hmm.. but muz tke ic sized pic la.
sian eh.
ok ah. bye.

// i dont wana be anytin other than wat ive been trying to be lately

in sch. photocopied notes from dayen.
cos jann has my liver.
yeah.

tmr's nd paper. i tink im up for it.

yeah. fpr wil begin on tues.
il b ok. i shud b ok.

life's stagnant. or is it?
i duno. waitin for a call.
hope il get it. please.

// a heart may be broken, but it keeps on beating just the same

finally im done with my values reflection.
now im all set to study. im a lil late aint i?
nah.. dun tink so.
dun wori runn, i noe, its my last yr and all..
il study.

its freakin cold in cyber. damn..
im gonna study aftr dis, eat n den meet gracie at dover.
goin to wash eye.
muahaha. crap.

heard tt uwc pulling out from the semis.
n den, heard tt ite will b given a walkover.
WAH!!!
where can?
its only logic for d nxt team to enter d semis.
but, yeah..
i duno.. d condition of d team now..
bluek.

// it gets harder, the more that you know

fuck.
hypocrites. C said i duno how to appreciate things C has done for me.
fuck, dere's people in my own circle of frens who's worst off than me!
bloody. im so fuckin mad.
it sucks wen u noe too much.
yeah runn, shit always happens wen exams r ard d corner..

C once said tt d team was a halfway house. yeah, all d rejects from other teams group up..
but now i tink its an exchange counter.. u get bck 1 n u hv to sacrifice 1 more.
or 2..
life's never fair huh?
thot evrythin wud b dandy for d league.
but u noe wat!?
I THOT WRONG!

bloody. people. frens. i always tink of dem, but dey dont.
fuck, i was concerned. but who fuckin cares.
better off being a loner.

i duno wat to say anymore. i duno wat to do anymore.
my future's at stake n here i m worryin abt people n stuff tt prob dun even noe im alive.
il b at orchard hotel on sat. il c wat il do frm dere den.
my parents makin a decision for me is prob best aftr all.
dun have to crack my brains tinkin wat to do next.
n prob il jus make coffee at t2d in d mean while.
yeah, w or w/o d senior staff..

im so scared of leaving sch..
i still wana tke 969 to tampines every morning.
i still wana run aftr 23.. i still wan to eat the pathetic paos n chee cheong fun.
i hvnt tasted the strawberry cheesecake, brownie n oreo cheesecake.
ive nvr swim in d swimmin pool b4..
i kinda regret not knowing more ppl. damn.

i now im not perfect. but pls, remember.
y do get ppl angry? bcos dey were provoked.
who brought u in? who cared for u? who taught u stuff?
appreciate. remember. dun jus leave cos ur heart wants to.
ur body is a connection of organs. dun jus listen to one.
but even if u hav to go, leave at a good note.
please. make this world a better place.

// crappiness

n jus like tt, challenge cup's over for us.
actually i gues its cos of d bad start we had at uwc. if we had at least drew tt game,
who knows wat our fate mite b.

played double stopper, n den right wing n den left wing.
coach said tt their 2nd goal was my fault. erpz. i cant rmb wat happened den.
sucks la.
oh, was surprised to see jumiyah playin for BA.
final score 3-2 to dem.
so close.
goin to queenstown again to support BA.
d irony of it all huh?
hah.

hugged az. missed her la.
she was sucha a joker in d field.
same ol, same ol..

oh. i got so many many injuries.
n no bruises frm d opponents. jus cuts.
i sprained my right ankle when alighting from d bus, sprained my left ankle while running, bruise on my knee from falling off the chair at home, bite mark on my shoulder from titi and bruise on my arm cos of tt day i was very angry. told my brother abt it n he said, "my sister is such a bimbo!" damn, i was so insulted..

// u lie

i nvr felt so angry before.
i even showed a finger.

amazing.

major project's over.
presentation was fine. but we had to wait very long.

// u made me

oitZ! haloo..
so many things to say but forgot..

well, went towning last nite wif my pets.
runn bought rain an emily.
grace was limpin cos of prev trng wher d wind blew her n she fell n sprained her ankle.
she cried abit but shy to admit.

rushed home to watch desperate housewives.

oh!
saw baihakki.. 2 times in 2 days!
like, wow!! sunday at jln kayu n yestday at far east..
hira gf says its fated. but grace says its fated for her cos she was wif me for d 2 days..
so i duno. he looked at me.. heh. whatever.

oh, n i fell from d bus.. my foot said, "craaaack.."
awful.
now its swollen. wat a stupid freak injury..

// u cant do it, not english n not sanskrit. jus forget it, please.

in the library now. doing my FPr assignment. yeah.
had ND presentation juz now. twas ok i gues.
quite an uneventful day i shud say.

well, last nite, had a match at clementi std against NTU. the postponed match.
we won 7-0. i reached really really late. 8pm. 30 mins of the game gone n we scored only 2 goals.
i was lost actually. i alighted at buona vista and wanted to take 196. but somehow due to renovations and such, and the fact it was alrdi dark, buona vista didnt look the same. wen i reached the bus stop there wasnt 196! checked out the directory n saw 198 goes to the std. so i was relieved. on the bus i was somehow scared. scared tt the bus will exit the highway. no thnx to someone who created that phobia for me! anw, i alighted at the sight of residential blocks. got to noe i was 2 bus stops away from the std! so i walked to the next bus stop and waited for the next bus that goes to clementi std. i was so scared and tired.

anw, i played well. statistically, i always play well when im late for matches. probably i shud always always be late for all my matches. i was stopper. i was better than the match at yishun std. i gues il b stopper for my next match too.. i duno.

ah! i lost my ezlink. n a lady named agnes found it at the toilet of clementi std last nite. (i was rushing rmb?) called her juz now n she wud post it to me. prob il go get it from her tmr aftr sch? yeah.. cant wait til it comes in the letter box.

so other than tt, today's quite uneventful. tmr's d day we hand in our fyp report. hifa gf said there's lotsa mistakes. oh damn! i didnt take my logbook! must go bck to AS to get it! argh.

// the langoliers are coming!

somehow im feeling lethargic.
i ate. i did.
i always feel so hugry, tired. but i know my stomach is still not empty.
its d mind rite? i always tink im hungry. rite?
man.. people mite tink im weird to have jus typed watever i jus typed..

interview was a disaster. nervous.
damn.
at least i got Soxhlett rite.
well, half rite.. actually about a quarter rite only.
Mrs Lim shaked her head at me when she left d room.
i suck.
i dun tink im gonna apply for any lab technician post in the near future.
prob fnb only is my forte..

mdss assignment 2 was ok.
mr foo off to reservist. so dere was dis teddy bear like lecturer.
r all statisticians always look so happy?

// enough already