hey! gd mrng. gues wher i m now?! quick gues..

hah! im at macdonalds changi airport! haha! im having my break now. im fasting. cant eat so here i am surfing d net. muahahah! yeah..
rick dees top 40 is playin now. jojo.. ah! she's not black. like wat i assumed. cool huh!?


sleepy n deelin kinda drafty. lack of slp i gues. less den 12 hours ago i was here. muhaha! next pay i shud b gettin lotsa money man... better b!

fninishing at 3. goin over to C's? i duno.. im like tired. haiz........

dere's dis ah pek across me who's playin comp games.he looks so funny. muhahah. im bad. tink im goin up now to browse d books. yep.

dats it for now.

// dishonest note

gd early mrng. got back at almost midnite frm wrk. wrk was hectic. but stil fun. i-rene was crazy again. she's a ciabatta. im a pita n ann's a scone. zela wanted to b a choc chip cookie... muahha! oh k ah.

shaikh haikel came down n bought lots of stuff. he ultra frenly sia! he chatted wif me n even noticed my name! power ah he.. n annabelle's pregnant again. power ah dem! muahah.

beautiful full moon. clear skies. no clouds. will b a cold nite again.

work again in abt 6 hours time. hmmm.. feel like bubblin sia.. dammit. wil b tired. who wudnt b? but.. man, i know il manage to wake up on time. n den if i dun go il feel guilty d whole day. but if il go, il b super ultra tired. haiz! dammit.

woh k. sleepy's gonna sleep now.

// a beautiful monthly affair

sometimes i hate wakin up. no.. i dun mean like i wana die.. no. not crap like dat.
i juz hate wakin up cos il start tinkin. tink abt stuff dat hurts me. my heart will start beating so fast, n den anxiety.. n den d pain, or watever is it, will travel to d head.. n den d head hurts.

i dun wana b like dis anymore. its drainin me. i wana start anew. i wana b fresh. but how? where do i start? wat exactly is it dat i want anyway?

yearnin for u. but things. dey happen. all d time. not once. not twice. not even 3 times.
y dun we talk abt it? y dun i ask u? wats d use.
u'l say wat u always say. n il always give in n let u do it all over again.
i dun like expressing myself one to on to u. my emotions will get d better of me, n il end up juz cryin. i duno how to get it across to u.
im d fool.

if u happen to stumble upon dis. u'l get ngry. u dun like it wen i publish my thots. but wat m i to do?

im happy. wen im not alone. wif my frens. at work. at sch. u tink i dun care.
its juz too bad i can pretend. i hv to. i dun wana b like dis all d time.

a song for u:

Broken this fragile thing now
And I can't, I can't pick up the pieces
And I've thrown my words all around
But I can't, I can't give you a reason

I feel so broken up (so broken up)
And I give up (I give up)
I just want to tell you so you know

Here I go, scream my lungs out and try to get to you
You are my only one
I let go, but there's just no one that gets me like you do
You are my only, my only one

Made my mistakes, let you down
And I can't, I can't hold on for too long
Ran my whole life in the ground
And I can't, I can't get up when you're gone

And something's breaking up (breaking up)
I feel like giving up (like giving up)
I won't walk out until you know

Here I go, scream my lungs out and try to get to you
You are my only one
I let go, but there's just no one that gets me like you do
You are my only my only one

Here I go so dishonestly
Leave a note for you my only one
And I know you can see right through me
So let me go and you will find someone

Here I go, scream my lungs out and try to get to you
You are my only one
I let go, but there's just no one, no one like you
You are my only, my only one
My only one
My only one
My only one
You are my only, my only one

ONLY ONE - YELLOWCARD
(www.azlyrics.com)

2nd post for d day. hung out at library while waitin for partners. watched tv at lvl 3. some soccer matches. barcelona n osasuna. n den man u vs arsenal. both repeats. yeah. i gues mike riley was bias. yeah shit happens.

went to tm to pay bills n stuff. went to gio to check deir new collection. cords. gotta hv dem. went up north. waited n waited n waited. finally C came.
walked ard a lil. went to gv.
was early. sat n listen to songs while waitin for 1835hrs.
ladder 49.
joaquin pheonix is not cute.
john travolta is still cute.
n den bought slippers. 3 pairs. 1 pair = $1.

my head hurts. my legs r warm. my feet r cold. freezing. its d weather. its weird.
d skies r bright tonite. again. d clouds r beautiful. cant find d moon tho. muz b hiding behind d clouds.

im not ok. im not f*****g ok.
i wana b free. free from all dis unnecessary crap.
2005. 60+ more days. will it b a better year? i can only hope.

// i dun like big red ants.

gd mrng people. im at sch rite now. just finished d movie screening. watched yamakasi. french movie about 7 guys (2 of dem were cute! heh!) who r so agile n dey scale bulding for fun n for d thrill of it. things turn out bad wen d neighbourhood complains, n a kid had to hv a heart transplant cos he imitated these yamakasis.
basically its a robin hood kinda story. but with d extra punch. twas a great show. wud ask C to buy a copy of it. cool show! french guys r hot! n i juz lovvveee d way they talk...

goin for lect soon.

n den its fyp meetin wif mrs c wof my 2 partners in crime. yeah baby yeah.

will b goin ard TM to pay bills n stuff.

meetin C. chances r 50/50. not much huh? yeah. if not il juz go home. n mayb pick OJ up.

// yamakasi!

woke up at 1pm. been a long time since i woke up dat late. surfed.

headed to trng. twas ok. overlapping. n den 2 side. a lil crappy. i tink.
broke fast.
cont 2 side.
poison ball. but dis time, kick instead of throw.
i was d last 3. but somehow had 2 balls came to me at d last moments.
one at my thigh n my ankle. at d same time. came crashing to d ground. d impact was great. rolled a lil. heh! was fun!

ate at arab cafe at hougang. hokkien mee. damn full.
home.
here i m.

somehow i feel so v tired now. i duno y.
wasnt tired just now. weird.
didnt meet C just now. tired.. yep.

sch tmr for sociology. movie screening. i wana watch 'yamakazi'. heard its a good one. our socio project is a movie review. it'l b cool i guess.

ladder 49 wif my darlin tmr i hope.

full moon since last 2 nites. bright skies at nite. cud c d clouds floating by. especially juz now at d open field. breathless sight. i love d moon.

nitey nite.

// to make you feel my love

hey. gd mrng. got home at 2+. hah! finis at 11. but hung out at d outlet n waited for d free transport. hvnt top up bus concession. yeah. got new girl, charmaine. jc student. her memory skills power. n hammy last day at t2d. dammit sia. will b boring. wil miz her! she'l b transferred to t1d. dey openin new outlet.. power huh? total of 6 CBTL outlets at airport.
was fun workin juz now. chatted wif charmaine. played scissors paper stone wif izhar. damn! i lost! 6-2.
nabil, dis scrawny guy is actually a tp student. same ah. yr 3 sem 2. hah! he calls himself a bodybuilder. crap sia. oh, n his face is on pg 39 on dis month's edition of lime. the part abt d sum 41 concert. he went.

C was supposed to pick me up. but, yeah.. had to go to work last min. yeah.
heh! i had a feelin dat wud happen anw.
no joke.

here i m. tummy full, bloggin.
wil b home most of the mrng, later. soccer in d evenin.
yeah.

//grease is d word

hi. at home today d whole mrng n aftrnoon. sent qilah. thot of goin bck to slp. but nah..

anyways, here r d different faces of me.n some other stuff i like. heh! im bored.



i was tired n bored, waitin for my darlin.



my favourite blocks of flats.



being VERY happy at a relative's wedding wif my cousins.



1981 Honda Cub. i noe i noe.. its an ah pek's bike. but i tink its cute.. classic..



how do i look?



usin grace's hp.. lookin stupid but nerdy..

//classic..

hey ho. in sch library. had sociology d whole mrng. tut den lect. was kinda fun act.
my tutor was dis round happy crazy teacher.. ms street. tink her surname's so cool. im sure gona enjoy draggin myself to sch for d next 4 weeks.

my tut class wasnt bad. not bad at all. didnt make any frens. yet.
handful of cute guys. heh! eye candies! woo hoo..

waitin for my 2 partners in crime. wilb goin up to lvl 4 soon for journals.
n i hv no idea wat to look for.. yep. hope d interview ltr wil b a short one. cos i wana get out of here n get to amk. meet sum1. n also ask abt my fon.
dat eddy guy hvnt call me yet.. im worried abt my baby e-700.
i wana giv a name to my baby ah. wat is nice? u all tag me n giv me suggestions k.
eewww... my tummy's growling sounds awful. im not fastin. but i hvnt eaten. haiz.

woh k gtg.

// miss u still

finally watched kal ho naho. 2nd time in a row i saw shah rukh died. prev vcd was DEVDAS. yeah. i was abit slow i gues. i heard so much abt d show but yeah finally.

beginnin to hate love stories. love movies. i hate cryin lah. or actually, hate holdin back my tears. i mean, sux lah. k lah. i duno. i juz sumtimes hate d feelin of seeing rejection, sadness.. i mean shah rukh khan's character was so.. so.. i duno. he was dying! but he was always so happy. i mean, come on ah.. like fake rite? dere isnt any1 like dat.. 1 of those things dat can happen only in movies..

im pissed actually. its too far.. it has gotta stop. i gotta do sumtin.

hv sch in d mrng. sian eh! sociology.. please aishah. keep an open mind. enjoy yourself.

tuckin in.

// miss my baby e-700

its rainin. real heavy n hard. muz b cos of the typhoon in japan. u noe how d winds r like rite? monsoon n all dat crap.. man, i miz sec sch geog ah.. haiz.. typhoon tokage was it? cool huh? oh, japan was hit by an earthquake too..

me home alone wif d girls. dey'r outside playin wif deir barbie dolls. i can nvr understand d fun. yep.

juz now i was talkin to shidah, tellin her abt sumtin. (i forgot!) n i was speakin in malay.. den here was wat she said:
"kak, dun speak in malay lah. ur spoiling it. jangan rosakkan bahasa ibunda boleh tak?"
wah kau! i was dumb struck! somebody ever told me dat too.. a long time ago. kene lagi lah! man.. i suck.

oh! n to all who r 22 dis yr, or who will be 22 or alrdi past 22, here's a song 4 u!

im one year older now since last time i saw you
in case u wana noe wat im abt to say or wat im up to
first of all im a sluggard movin in a slow n clumsy way
some piece of mind is wat i want
but dat'll d day

ive been goin wif d flow for far too long and dis muz end
running ard in circles ive been so far from myself
searhing for d energy n d time to make a change
to make a change in my life instead of watchin it past by
do sumtin now whilw im alive

im 22 duno wat im supposed to do
or how to be to get some more out of me
im 22 so far away from all my dreams
im 22, 22, feelin blue.

afraid...
dat i will be weak forever
i cant stay in this shape any longer
my life's just another cliche

twenty two - millencolin

i got back at 0022hrs. werk was hectic. was busy throughout. i was doin service n gourmet. cool. n den the EB machine was leaking. n i was hired to b d ah soh. had to mop d area every 5 mins. yeah man. but it was cool sliding around d whole place. i like to slide at work. ahah. n im d only one who slides.

yeah. im tired. betcha my body wil ache wen i wake up in d mrng tmr. or shud i say ltr. yeah. muahah.

im listenin to millencolin. yeah yeah.
mr clean! tell me if its really you!
last time we met u'd beat me up!
wher did u go to sch! rite ans n ur cool!
no cigar!
i cant dance!
im 22!
punk rock rebel!
take a piece of paper! make a heart! n send it out to u!

// pires is a lion!

i gues its juz d time of d month. my tummy area doesnt feel nice. it doesnt hurt. but it just doesnt feel nice. i dun feel like smiling. i can cry easily. n den i try my darnest not to. n dat sux. cos den somehow it'l hurt. bluek. n im thirsty all d time. den il drink. n drink. den il end up feelin like a camel. n den il tink too much. tink about things i hvnt had d time to tink abt. gues it is a gd thing, to do abit of tinkin. but it can b energy consuming too. haiz. my middle finger hurts. felt likt i knocked it against sumtin. but i cant rmb wat. my mum told me im clumsy and aggressive. cos of socccer. n den my coaches say im not agrresive enuf. i told my mum im juz clumsy.
n yes i m. i knock into stuff alot. hard stuff. like wood, granite, steel tble tops n ovens. my hips hv marks to prove it. my knees r spoilt. n my lil toes r so used to d knockings dey dun hurt anymore. im dat clumsy.
oh. sometimes i can juz trip over my own foot. n there were times i kicked myself. wen i wanted to kick d ball. man..
n den, no n den.

hmm.. dat whole paragraph made me feel better. hah!

oh. n i passed my term. my food safety n SIP. pass. gd enuf. im relieved. im happy.

went to wdlnds library wif runn. to transfer songs from her lappie to my mp3 plyr.
saw ayi. she was studyin geog. she showed me her straight teeth. heh! hi-5 ah!

// BUT is a powerful word that can change things.

as u can c, i stil hv no mood to blog. i was bored. check dis out.

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i think its so true. practical, comfortable and classic.

no mood to blog. juz wana share this song wif guys.
my bro downloaded dis song, once again C ever sang dis to me.
i think its a soundtrack from some old movie.
you know one of those movies where the heroes always die..

though we gotta say goodbye
for the summer
darling i promise you this
i'l send you all my love
everyday in a letter
sealed with a kiss

guess its gonna be
a cold lonely summer
but il feel the emptiness
il send you all my dreams
everyday in a letter
sealed with a kiss

il see you in the sunlight
ill hear your voice everywhere
il run to tenderly hold you
but darling you wont be there

i dont want to say goodbye
for the summer
knowing the love we'l miss
oh let us make a pledge
to meet in september
and seal it with a kiss

yes its gonna be
a cold lonely summer
but il feel the emptiness
il send you all my love
everyday in a letter
sealed with a kiss

sealed with a kiss - santo and johnny

stayed at home d whole day. did nothin but surfed. im a surfer now. wak ju came over to meet my gramma. he surfed for awhile too. cool.

anw, watched tv juz now. yeah me. watched tv. singapore idol was great today.
taufik: he sounded nice. like usher. but somehow he lacked sumtin. yep, wasnt his best performance.
christopher: amazingly, he sounded his best so far. like dick said 'that was robbie williams wif lotsa sugar sprinkled all over.'
daphne: think her performance was ok. her own rendition of christina's i come to you was real cool. her voice's unique.
miaia: she's doin d same thing every week. so.. yeah. power but gettin boring ah.
olinda: just GREEAAATTT! finally wore a dress sia! woo hoo!
sylvester: i stil dun get it?! he is NOT CUTE! at all. y r all d girls screamin? yeah his a rocker.. dats it.
leandra: she looked uncomfy in dat elegant get up. she's like bubbly n she looked confused. tho, her rendition of selena's famous song (i duno d title) was great.

so who do i tink should leave? sylvester. y? cos i dun like him. yah.

den i watched d 9pm show. was a great show. kept me at d edge of d seat n my mouth opened half the time waitin for wats gonna happen next. d auntie in dat show is such an auntie.. she acted so well i felt like slappin her face n shuttin her up. keep it up auntie!

im stayin at home n watchin tv! wow! its kinda fun aftr all.

// sealed with a kiss

hey! its juz rained! cool day again today.. nice.

yestday, trng. attendance was normal. not much people came. but dere were new girls.. n guys. yep. we juz had 2 side.. wic i tink was sucky cos it was unbalanced.. den i was so tired.. damn. yeah. den break fast. warm down. den sat down n chat..
now i noe dere r 4 seasons in soccer. in season, pre season, close season n 1 more season i forgot. sham was tellin us abt it. he's gettin more vocal.. cool i gues. yeah, irritating sia him.. n he's like always my opponent wen playin 2 side. den whenever i hv d ball, he'l laugh. den somehow il laugh too.. n he got my ball... crappo idiot. dat is not gonna happen again sia.. damn.
hah! lucky not fastin today. can say anytin i want.

anw... went to thong seng to eat wif titi, fani n zela.. dey die2 wanted to eat at lj. lj!! man! dun dey ever get sick of dat freakin place! but i managed to change thier little minds. went to take neos after dat. amazing how zela can juz blend wif dem. its juz a small world.. she (zela) had frens dat both (titi n fani) of dem know. cool..

gracie comin over later. to borrow sumtin for her prom/grad nite.. cool huh? i didnt hv dat...
but watever.

warning: do not ever sleep wif ur handphone or any electrical device for dat matter. u mite drool on it. n spoil it!

HAPPY 20th ANNI to ME n C!

// torn

gd early noon. hey. hi. thot of sleepin in again today. but aqilah woke me up n gave me dat sad pathetic face of hers n asked me to send her downstairs. told her to ask abang, but she didnt want. juz cudnt say no to her.

ive been fasting. no interruptions so far. crimson tide not in yet.. so other den dat, i wana keep it clean dat way. yep. i hv to. n runn, im tryin my best k. hehe..

to those who r stil having exams. relax.. study smart.
to those who r done wif exams. gd 4 u.
to those who dont even have exams, like yours truly. boring isnt it?
hehehe!

work was fun kinda fun yestday. wif irene, zul, godZela n the rock. muahah! i didnt gave dem those nicks! honest! irene was a lil scary wif her mood swings... but stil funny! haha..
im always loaded up wif proteins at CB. always eating their CHICKEN salads, SALMON sandwich, TUNA sandwich mix, hard boiled, half boiled EGGS. ice blended wif MILK!! i gues its healthier den wen i was in polar.. juz pastries n sweet stuff.. but still, im scared wat d excess proteins can do for my body. but den again.. dere are basically no red meats.. so im on d safer side. rite? my fellow nutritionists n dieticians..

my mum's cookin now. she got work ltr. smells nice. smells like tom yam soup...

n finally, im gonna kick some balls ltr!! woo hoo! been more den a week! but den again, both my pets not comin.. sian eh.. ape seh... miss dem so much. den both also nvr come..

C got d v220. since he's inchage of d line. eksyen seh.. n im stil not over my dead phone..

//its just another day

helo dere! gd noon.
woke up not so late. but didnt send qilah to sch cos shida sent her to sch.
twas a cold nite. had a flu.
not anymore.

hmm.. nothin much happened so far. just had been surfing. for new hp price plans. classic motorbikes. saw dis real cute honda cub 1980s make. damn cute! 2nd hand tho, $2000 plus. yeah rite. i cant ride. n so, yeah i was takin a look at d singapore safety drving watever website. man.. suddenly i had d urge to get a 2b license. funny. muz hv been dayen ah.. hahha...

oh k. here r those pics i took wif my younger sis.. k. she is 6 years younger den me. n she juz happens to b my height. kids! they grow up too fast!



// only one

today. woke up at 10+.
went to sch at 12+.
printed stuff i had to print.
den met up wif dayen.
did wat we hv to do.
hira came.
continue wat we were doin.
done.

yishun. cold storage.
rugrats macaroni n cheese. marigold low fat milk. frozen lobster bisque.
break fast. family. funny. jokes. laughter. love.

pearl harbour.
screams. squeals. excited. scared. sad.
history. questions. arguements.

sunday. 5 more days to go. miss you.

//welcome to existence

gd noon. its a sunny hot sunday!
woke up not so late. read shida's storybook.
den here i m.
listening to phil collin's groovy kind of love.
C ever sang it to me. yeah. missing u baby. dun wrk too hard now k.
v220 isnt dat nice, so u guys can stop producing alrdi. hehe..

when im feeling blue,
all i have to do is take a look at you
then im not so blue

when your close to me
i can feel your heartbeat
i can hear you breathing in my ear

when i kiss your lips
ooh i start to shiver
cant control the quiver deep inside

wouldnt you agree baby you and me
have a groovy kind of love

touchin man, d song. hehe..

// missing u lah!

k hi ppl. gd evenin.
today. was an ok day. except for in d afternoon wen i was in causeway point.
well, i woke up late again. hmm.. den i forgot wat i did..
3+, went to causeway point. main purpose was to send my darling e700a for repair.
so i got a q no. waited. den twas my turn.
idiotic fat salesguy: so, hi! wat can i do for u?
me: well my fon is spoilt. actually not rili cos its functioning ok but i juz cant c anytin.
IFS: oh k. lemme hv a look.
(he takes out d batt. looks ard.)
IFS: oh, yours in not a local set.
me: so, that means?
IFS: u have to pay for dis. min $280 to change d lcd.
me: huh? so much. wait i dun geddit. its not a local set n il hv to pay for it? i hv a warranty card for dat..
IFS: dis fon doesnt come wif a warranty card n its not made in singapore. its made in korea. (he was pointing to d words which says: MADE IN KOREA)
me: (thinking) i know how to read!
i repeated watever he said to me, n he started to sund irritated.
sucks lah. at last..
me: thanks, gues il juz get bck to u ltr.
im Freakin Pissed.

n den, me n shida went to tke neos. its always a funny moment takin neos wif my sis. we always end up goin to those booth wic is in total jap. didnt understand a single shit n only 5 shot were printed out. out of 14 shots!
il upload dem up once shida got it scanned k.

dats it for now. my head hurts a lil. prob cos of d renactment of dat stupid incident ah.

oh!!! do check dis out! http://sg.motorola.com/pcs/v3/sg/
k, dat site, is d site of d most coolest fon aftr my baby e700a. im having a huge, n i mean HUGE crush on it... MOTOROLA RAZR V3.

check it out k. (psst, it cost $1000++ w line! damn.... )

i miss C lah. dammit.

// so il crawl back into your arms

hey. gd day.

slmt bepuase to all who r.

been slackin d whole day. slept d whole mrng. n here i m.

hvnt bathe. ish.

at home not at sch cos qilah's at home too.

at outram mrt yestday.


//fly away on my zephyr

thursday 141004

woke up. breakfast at coffeeshop.
half boiled eggs n toast.
sch. library.
hpb.
mrt. home.
nap. ntuc.
singapore idol.
vomit. shit.
sms. call.
tears. mucus.
heart. head. pain.
gd nite.

thank god for my family for making me laugh.

lazy. very lazy.

// il figure sumtin out. do i hv a choice?
smile wil u? u look ugly wen u dun smile.

gd day ppl.

ok. sad news. heard it yestday but forgot abt it for awhile.
mr christopher reeve aka superman passed away on sunday. prob moz of u, d older ones rmb him. frankly, i dun hv colorful memories of his shows. but yeah, he was d man.. i mean, he was cute.. n i rmb being sad wen i heard news of his fall wen i was pri 4. n i tink he has such amazing optimism despite his paralysis. he's like started for d funding on research of spinal disorders. n he was always aroud for award shows n stuff n u cant miss him. read on a site dat he actually starred in a movie while being in d wheelchair. "rear window." gotta search for d vcd or sumtin.
condolences to him.

anw, im not goin trng ltr cos im wrkin pm shift. not sure who il b wrkin wif.

trust me
im not okay
im not fucking okay
u wear me out

im listening to dat song. im not okay. duno who sang it, some punk rock band. my bro downloaded it. nice.

// its been awhile but i stil remember how u taste

hey. tiring day. had work. normal ah.. workin dere is always fun..

anw, i realise d world is such a small place. n especially, undeniably singapore. n now wif friendster n blogger, it seems like everyone knows everyone else. somehow..
n wen u r talkin bad abt sumtin or sum1... man, u mite nvr noe, dat person is reading ur blog every single day..
n now ppl, we have to blog wif care...

n wen we'r losing.. nothing seems fair. d ref seems to b d unfairest person. d opponents r d devils.... yup. i noe. ive lost.. 2-0. 2-1. 9-0. 16-0? altho, not 23-0.. ok.. sowee.. yup.. been dere done dat. losing is part n parcel of life. u lose some, u win some. so, dun b too sore u lost. b happy u gained experienced ok?

ok. duno y i feel so philosophical now.. its like, my mood doesnt match my skin, rite gracie? muahahha!

ah! no more soccer for me dis week cos i got wrk tmr. den fri no trng cos 1st day fasting.. cant wait for next week! its always fun to train during the fasting month. the togetherness is always dere! man, reminds me of those days at yew tee pri wif gombak n farrer park wif sengkang...

peace.

// ikut hati, mati. [direct translation: follow heart, die. ]

hi. m so tired. but cant sleep yet cos i kinda juz eaten.

erm, not sure of d score for d frenly juz now but tink it was 9-2. own goal by reen. muahah! she was last man.. woh k. n i was a stopper. man.. not nice ah play stopper. i mean im ok wif it.. gues i juz hv to practice. but den again, im not sure how permanent dis position is... haiz.. duno ah.

went home straight. d rez went dhoby ghaut.. to eat.. man, crazy ah wana go all d way dere.

tuckin in real soon cos im wrkin mrng shift. hv to cover fai cos she's havin rashes. poor girl..

dats it for now.

// mr sandman, bring me a drink

changed my skin to LOVE HINA! muahaha! oh k, like i mentioned.. love hina is a comic book series.. its abt dis lodge where a group of jap girls r stayin together, wif an inclusion of another boy! its really funny...

anws, been busy. had a hectic weekend. basically, worked. watched white chicks, attended a wedding, went to clementi std, went to esplanade n more! n erm.. i dun find white chicks that funny.. i wanted to watch 'motorcycle diaries'.....

so, today, went to sch to meet my majpr project supervisor.. mrs C. she's great fun! n our project seems fun. our project will be under the HPB! how cool is dat?! muahaha! im excited. yup yup!

oh! borrowed C's my girl vcd. cant wait to c it ltr at nite.

leaving house soon for nyp. frenly match wif d girls dere. hope it'l fun.

im hungry!!!!

// forever and for always

1st. POSB n DBS machines r always faulty noawadays. duno wats wrong wif dem... sux.

2nd. trng was fun! more den 10 ppl. as usual, i started a lil slow due to d lil nap i had in d nice cooling bus. yeah, everyone thot i was frm wrk but actually i was home d whole day. anw, ran 3 rounds. only. hah! relaxed... but b4 dat, coach was scaring us wif 5, 10 rounds... man.. he always does dat. den, while stretching, sham came over to us. he told us we wud b divided into 2 n den we'l b doin pre-season fitness.. wah kau! everyone started sighing n wished dey didnt come. nis wished she didnt eat waffles. reen n zu wished dey were stil at town n stuff. i felt more tired. n so we were lining up as though we were gonn aget sh0t. we were numbered, den separated. den coach n sham laughed at us n told us to smile cos dey lied n we had 2 side! man... suckers. haha! i wanted 3 touches, den free... build momentum ah. but dey dun wan. so free touch. i played defence. wah kau! den i was like crazy.. dribbling, den laughing, den rolling n sliding.. was tired but hyperactive. man i was nuts. ok ah. den 2nd half 3 touches.. sian eh.. like goin down hill ah. but yeah, ok ah.
den after dat, fun! erm, 2 ppl had to link up den catch more to increase the link.. den finish up.. aiyah.. duno how to explain.. but like last time wen we were at gombak.. me being so experienced stil was d first victim.. malu sak! but twas fun..
N DEN!!! while i was changing.. a snake brushed past my feet!! man, i thot it was a shoelace at first.. man, twas scary.. we juz scared it away.

changed. ate at dhoby ghaut. slacked at istana park. sat down. played ball wif runn. fun ah to play throw2..
den runn got sick. she tinkin too much lah.. haiz..

// i dun believe

im in mood of singlish k. so, erm.. yeah, dun mind my language..

im hungry! so hungry my head hurts! muahah.. i lied. im juz hungry. yep. =)

at home d whole day. doin nothin xcept surfin.
frenster's sucha gd thing.. man, im like addin my long lost pri sch frens! how cool is tt!?

hungry ah. lazy to eat.. wah lau!! eat also lazy..

k. im goin trng ltr. cant wait to kick some balls. yeah man.. hope d turnout bery good ah.
hmm.. probably meetin runni baby aftr tt? c how ah.
oh, gotta go lucky plaza anw.. man, lazy...
once again, people.. laziness is such a disease.

aiyoh... C ah. met yesterday..but like nvr meet like tt. den today u got ot. den confirm cannot meet. but den we meet also we always argue.. cos im like always so cranky.. den u getting less patient.. eh, not fun u noe.. always argue.. haiyah.. but den always kiss n make up.. like no point even arguing in d first place.. y we so like tt? hah!?! very funny.. abit stooooopid also.. den u always pamper me.. haiyoh..
wen can watch vcd wif u again?! i want to watch 'my girl' again ah.. oh yeah oh yeah oh yeah.. those lil boys so so v cute.. like me..

eh, my head lil dizzy ah. no joke.. y ah? sian eh... tmr werk... double sian.. wrk, wrk, wrk.... sch, sch, sch... soccer, soccer.. d most boringest girl ever.....

//truly singaporean

cant wait for monday! got frenly at nyp!! miz some of d ppl dere ah.. hope everytin's ok lah..

k dats max n me. yup.

hey. m tired now. had a hectic day.

mrng, followed ibu n wak mah to send OJ to kk. she got to draw blood cos she has to go thru some tests to confirm stuff.. cool place. OJ is d bravest lil soul ever! juz like me! muahah! so true..

went to geylang... walked n walked n walked. amazing how a pair of 40 n 50 sumtins got so much energy. left dem to meet C.

went to far east plaza. den lucky plaza.
i stil luv u.

cabbed dwn to gordon indutrial building. briefed by d OM. OM goin holiday ah.. bali.. power ah!

home. tired.

// hopelessly devoted to you

hi. gd evenin ppl. im sleepy. but im stil not aslp. woh k. worked am shift. wif OM. intimidating. but it wasnt so bad aftr all. she's juz human.. an irritating one. but stil ok. OT for 2 hours. yup. chatted wif hammy. finally saw izhar. missed him. heh! no bad incidents today. fai fasted. so had to keep reminding her to b gd n not saw foul language. took picture wif max! [who d toot is max?! check it nxt post oh k?]

reached home.

repaired my specs. met C. teh-o, kopi-o. rojak. den ABC.
its crazy... duno wats goin on.
lets juz c how it goes. yep.

its gonna b a long day tmr.

// oh yeah, oh yeah, oh yeah, oh yeah

hey hi. tink i noe y im feelin d way im feelin. pre mentrual syndrome. yep. all d signs. in a few days, crimson tide.

im not feelin good. abt everythin. werk, people.

4 dis week, trng's only on friday. sux. i need soccer to forget things tt r occupying my mind. 1 of d many resaons y im in love wif soccer.

im feelin uneasy. my heart's beatin too fast. unnecessarily. im not juz always hungry. im always thirsty too.

met runn. chatted. mc flurried. hairdressers'. funny ah u. stoooopid. muahaha! not normal.

met C. sold d v690. yep.

n if u wana hide sumtin from me, do it well. do not let me discover.
do not!!

//yeah im cool

gd day every single one of u! im at home. infront of d pc. i hvnt bathe. i hvnt eat. im smelly n my tummy's growling. muahaha.
sent oj downstairs, waited for her bus. yep. n here i m.

meetin runni soon! woo hoo.. miz u miz u!
she's comin here. i tink at yishun. muahah!
juz gona chit chat.

n den! at 4.. meetin C! woo hoo!!! at amk!! cant wait! cant wait! cant wait! cant wait!

n i tink frenster is a gd thing. a lil scary tho. ive seen so many ppl i hvnt been seein for a long time. n seein dem now, n den recallin how dey look like before juz send shivers dwn my spine. its like extreme makeover.. oh k ah. not tt bad.. but rili, wow!

well, im hungry. im gona eat now.
n den il go bathe k.

piece of advice tt wrks: smile wen ur happy, smile wen ur not happy. n den u'l b happy.
(oh k, prob its lame. but rili! its works! =] )

// im not ok
u wear me out.

oh k. hi. bck frm wrk. tired. no. more like exhausted.
sux. today. sux.. hate it. im tinkin unnecessarily. wats wif ppl? wats wif me?

had dis lady. she wanted apricot ceylon. i said we ran out of tt. den she said ok, she;l hv english brkfast. 2 of tt. so i gave her only 2 of tt. n den we served her.. she said we got all wrong.. oh no.. she wasnt juz saying.. she was being angry now..
she said she wanted a coffee n 2 teas. oh k, fine.
so coffee was brewing. she had to wait 7 mins. 7 mins, for coffee to fully brew. so i said, "mam, tke a seat, il serve it 2 u." oh, n her bf i assume, pay for d extra cup of watever tt wasnt paid.
2 mins ltr.. only 2!! she came bck wif the most ugliest face a woman could hv, "where is my coffee!?! these guys r leaving soon! they have to catch a flight! this is ur daily brew! n ur sayin ur stil brewing it?!! me being me, cant get shouted at, i juz froze n stared bck at her(refer 2 prev post)" thnx to ann to d rescue who offered to give an americano instread..
fuckin SPG.. fuck u. juz bcos u hv 2 cute ang moh guys u can fuckin boss around like tt. how come evryone else can wait? fuck u lah..

k, another funny incident. stirrer. the stupid white thing to stir the hot drinks from d latte glasses. yup. a guy asked, "what the fuck is dis?!"
..........................................................................................................................................................

den! i hv to do my fuckin trng companion all over again..
cos d stupid ppl dere go throw away my bk cos dey thot i quit tt place forever!!
fuck u lah. no communication one!
bloody..

wat is wrong wif me?! i hate feelin d way im feelin now.
i juz wana burst.. but no! i cant! cos dere's no particular reason to!
f lah.. nothin's goin rite..

i miz C. tmr we'r meeetin..
i miz runni lah!! wah lau eh!! wen can c u again!?!?
idiot lah!!!!!!!!

//

did i ever mention tt i hate it wen anyone raise their voice at me?
especialy wen dere's no reason for dem to do tt at all.
i hate it.
il either wil scream bck or, juz keep quiet n pretend everytin's ok. wic im not.
most of d time, its d latter.

went to work unwillingly in d mrng. yep. reached early. started early. was doin EB. throughout. sunday. breakfast til 3. v busy. but stil fun somehow.. worked wif all frens, bedah n kak lyn! muahah.. oh, n mandy 2. twas so busy dat i didnt go 4 my brk. didnt collect my $5 cos i had to rush off immediately. cabbed dwn to d std wif nis.

SW beat woodlands 2-0. zu scored. 1 for me, 1 for dila. hehe..
but! twas a f bias game. ref, was f one sided. twas a lil too obvious. dun wana hear all tt crap abt refs r only human n dey mke mistakes.. twas juz too obvious. dun wana talk abt wat could hv happened cos watever happened, has happened. yep. but it was exciting. i was screamin a lil too loudly all d time til it made grace irritated.
ate at arab cafe. sometin happened. made me mad tinkin abt it somehow..
some people, dey do things w/o tinkin.. it sux wen u realised u shud hv thot abt it earlier.. it juz sux..

admit it, wen ur scared. scared of wat mite happen.. but do not shift d blame on someone else to make urself look gd.
n wen ur scared, it doesnt matter who u r, or how old u r.
admit.

tired. sleepy. nitey nite.

// n den, no n den
n den, no n den
n den, no n den
n den, no n den
n den, no n den

courts. 50 only.
stared at d fountain while waitin for u.
mint sheesha. bread n feta cheese. coke n latte.
me checking out cute waiter.
u checking out cute waitress.
u tink i duno. hah! i tink u didnt noe... but we knew.

bugis village. swarmed by von dutch..
juz wat the in d blue hell is Von Dutch!?
its everywhere..

smelly sotong. coconut juice.

cool bin. 851-ed home.
gd nite.

// i dun wana wrk
i dun wana wrk
i dun wana wrk

im eating mee goreng. ibu cooked it last week, den she froze it, den she juz reheaated it. didnt noe dere was stil some left... den she started nagging on how she's d only one in d house who noes d status of d food supply around here... man.. she IS d mother.. im totally thankful. but i tink she tinks dat we'r not... haiyoh... her bday's comin...

hv been slackin d whole day today. woke up at 11+. woohoo... been a long time.
oh, my ankle's swollen. cos of d stupid sprain. iced it.

leavin at 4, to courts. den meetin C at bugis at 5.30. hope our plan will go well.
duno wat to wear.

listening to: happy together- turtles

u noe, d heineken ad wif j.aniston in it.. yeah, such a happy song.

d only one for me is u n u for me
so happy together

im like listening to all kinds of music now.. oldies, punk rock, skinhead, cartoon theme songs, rock, indon, indie.. man.. rite now, im listenin to sesame street's theme song!

woh k ah. dats it for now.

oh! its fara's 19th bday. sure she's havin fun at vietnam now.. tke cre dearie.

// tell me

oh k. dat is a pic of blocks of flats near farrer park. ive always found dem weird ever since i 1st came to farrer park last yr. it totally looks out of place. surrounding dis flats, is d open field, shophouses, old flats n farrer park pri sch. but, frm where we usually r.. u only c d blocks juttin out. dis flats hv been helpful.. its d most prominent landmark around d area. several times i got lost, n thnx 2 d blocks, i found my way to d trng ground. yup. its cool.
come to tink of it, i juz find d whole place, cool. d farrer park swimming complex, d now defunct boxing ring, wif gym. d old kk hospt, which is now the LTA offices. d current kk hospt, which looks like sum kinda spaceship... lil india nearby... cool interesting place..

went to sch today. for fyp briefing. had to wrk actually.. forgot all abt d briefing. gf n sheeda reminded me. anws, d briefing was scary.. somehow.. intimidating. 8 cus.
went to cyber to choose d title.. did peer evaluation..
headed to amk. b4 dat, i was waitin for d bus. took out my discman n changed d cd. marc anthony to michael buble.. dis old man beside me was staring at wat i was doing.. he suddenly said, 'eh, u still using discman? everyone is using mp3 players now. even uncle, dis old.. is using an mp3 plyr...' i was too shocked, i juz stared at him wif my mouth open... he kept goin on n on, on how i was such a 'backdated' girl.. damn...

met C. we registered our ez link cards at macs. bought lunch. reached home, ate our burgers. watched 'cheaper by a dozen'. touching.. tom welling is soooo cute. halfway.. we start dying our hair.. cool.. mine didnt turn out well. juz a lil diff.. washed up. hang ard b4 i headed to trng. slept in d bus. alomost missed d stop.

trng was ok. ran 5 rounds under 10 mins. managed.
monkey. stupid me, stupidly sprained my right ankle. cos of d stupid hole. but den again it was half my fault cos i didnt lock my stupid ankle while i was running ard chasing d stupid ball. rested a lil, shook d pain away, went bck in.
posession. den sprints.

me n grace concluded dat our trngs' intensity has been declining steadily.
gues dats y im like gettin chubbier? i duno. im not exhausted.

dinnered at bugis wif grace, titi n C.
went to seiyu to buy file, n grace's pencil case.

home.

//weak unkle