sometimes i hate wakin up. no.. i dun mean like i wana die.. no. not crap like dat.
i juz hate wakin up cos il start tinkin. tink abt stuff dat hurts me. my heart will start beating so fast, n den anxiety.. n den d pain, or watever is it, will travel to d head.. n den d head hurts.

i dun wana b like dis anymore. its drainin me. i wana start anew. i wana b fresh. but how? where do i start? wat exactly is it dat i want anyway?

yearnin for u. but things. dey happen. all d time. not once. not twice. not even 3 times.
y dun we talk abt it? y dun i ask u? wats d use.
u'l say wat u always say. n il always give in n let u do it all over again.
i dun like expressing myself one to on to u. my emotions will get d better of me, n il end up juz cryin. i duno how to get it across to u.
im d fool.

if u happen to stumble upon dis. u'l get ngry. u dun like it wen i publish my thots. but wat m i to do?

im happy. wen im not alone. wif my frens. at work. at sch. u tink i dun care.
its juz too bad i can pretend. i hv to. i dun wana b like dis all d time.

a song for u:

Broken this fragile thing now
And I can't, I can't pick up the pieces
And I've thrown my words all around
But I can't, I can't give you a reason

I feel so broken up (so broken up)
And I give up (I give up)
I just want to tell you so you know

Here I go, scream my lungs out and try to get to you
You are my only one
I let go, but there's just no one that gets me like you do
You are my only, my only one

Made my mistakes, let you down
And I can't, I can't hold on for too long
Ran my whole life in the ground
And I can't, I can't get up when you're gone

And something's breaking up (breaking up)
I feel like giving up (like giving up)
I won't walk out until you know

Here I go, scream my lungs out and try to get to you
You are my only one
I let go, but there's just no one that gets me like you do
You are my only my only one

Here I go so dishonestly
Leave a note for you my only one
And I know you can see right through me
So let me go and you will find someone

Here I go, scream my lungs out and try to get to you
You are my only one
I let go, but there's just no one, no one like you
You are my only, my only one
My only one
My only one
My only one
You are my only, my only one

ONLY ONE - YELLOWCARD
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