hey dere. its been a long time since i blogged. hv been transferred out from the office to a polar outlet at TTS hospt. a week and a day has passed. tiring. but, all's well.
 
trng's been real. real trng. but, yeah, no use. well, for fitness.. yeah.. thats it. no league. ltc not released. bloody hell. i kinda feel stupid abt the whole situation. but, yeah... no use regretting.
 
yestday was C's bday. 32nd. can u believe it? i dun. hah! did nothing special. had each other for company. hung out at home. watched VCD. "while you were sleeping". romantic flick. cool. dined at breeks. bought C a bear. and also a mini hello kitty choco cake. hah! walked around AMK for awhile. nice..
 
juz finished handing in my part of the stoooooopid online module. crappy. hate it. having an online test on the 2nd. how sia? pc at home half alive. hate it.
so tired aftr wrk den hv to tink abt d stupid module. tinking so hard but doin nothing abt it. tts wat im best at. great.
 
sick, tired. life's ok. yeah.
 
oh, gotta wear my retainers for 1 year on. got scolded by 2 docs on the last apmt. damn. how was i to noe?! dr zul said 1 month! i was juz following instructions! bloody toots!
 
tts it for now. its late. gotta head back home before aqilah falls aslp.
 
peace.
 
//lets make love in the shower for the last time
 

hey dere. reached home at 11 plus. went to watch the matches at serangoon std. sengkang held the u-23 at only 2 goals. man.. dere r tt gd. y hold our ltcs? we'l make d team worse? dilwan, u suck. bishan arsenal lost to the chinese team. i lost count of the goals. really, BA could hv done better. 
anw, ate at khatib coffeeshop. i ate rojak wif century eggs. C ate pratas. bought me candies. lectured me abt my current situation. hate wen C starts to nag. hate wats happenin to me now. hate it cos i trained so hard all these mnths. hate it cos nothing can b done. hate it cos we didnt c it coming. hate it.
cik jaafar told me to inform the rez to play for sengkang's nxt game or else face the ban. the 6 mnths ban. i wud definitely face the ban den to go back to the club n b treated like dogs. 
i dun feel like having perfect attendance. no use. this sux. bernard said wer welcome to train wif his team. CP's coach i can train anytime at NYP. runni said i can train for fun at NP. cool. fitness should reamin constant. but.. stil, i wun b able to play... runn n mun can look forward to IVP early nxt yr. i cant even play for challenge cup!
 
suppsed to go on our budget date earlier today. plan backfired cos i had the most horrible headache. my left side of the brain was in pain. i had no idea wat happened. well, prob its bcos i hit my head against the metal shelf on sat mrng.. rested all the way til 4 pm juz now.
 
i wana change my skin but im juz so bloody lazy.
 
il b goin to TTS hospt at 11 tmr. hope d outlet wil b rili fun. C's sendin me. yippee.
 
new song: one thing by finger eleven. nice
 
If I traded it allIf I gave it all away for one thing
Just for one thingIf I sorted it out
If I knew all about this one thing
Wouldn’t that be something
 
peace.
 
//you suck

hey. gd mrng. in d store office rite now. came a lil too early, office was locked. headed to store. ate. hung ard. helped uncle ah tan to pack the custard powder. now my hands r coated wif the sweet sticky powder.
yess ah! 2 hrs left to punch out.
 
goin to train ltr. earlier this week thot dere wasnt sat trng cos dere wud b a frenly. planned to 'walk down memory lane' wif C. haha! plan backfired. 
 
went over to C's last nite. had a talk.
cuddled.
"it hurts wen ur gf dun trust u."
it hurts to hurt.
cabbed home.
nagged at.
 
oh, last day here. goin TTS outlet on monday. hope its fun dere.
 
ibu said the CPU wil b returned tmr. hope everytin wil b ok n i can blog at home. den can change my blogskins. cant wait. tmr, feel like watching the matches at serangoon. but im lazy.
we'l c how.
 
//im d girl tt heartbroken guys sing abt in their songs
 
 

hey. gd mrng. in office. kinda early today. drank my milk before werk.
 
last nite's trng was fun i shud say. i was really tired. been a long time i felt tt way. started out wif basics. lotsa dem. i need to werk out on my left leg. somehow it doesnt know how to lock itself. its like the wire(haha! nerves) from my left foot to my brain isnt werking. aftr tt, 2 side. tiring, but stil fun. wen dere was no more light, we did rolling! cool. twas so much fun. we had to lie down and den d last person would roll over. apparently, im a lil too heavy for their liking. had crunches. different frm the usuals. real cool. n den tts it. oh, dere was a new plyr, ri-e, a jap. man.. she's old. yati was wondering if she had a son. mite b cute we assumed.
 
time for bad news. coach told me, mun and runn that out LTC is not released. and may not be released. sucks. n dey mite even impose a 6 mth ban. bloody toot. hate tt guy wif a moustach. wat d hell? trained so hard these few months for wat!? argh. C told me tt i can be helped. cikgu was planning to do sumtin. but, i duno.. i mean.. i duno..
 
n runn, sori i raised my voice in d car last nite. i was pissed. we were pissed. but rili, cikgu isnt wat u tink he is. im sori.
 
cant wait for werk to end.
 
peace.
 
//im a people-pleaser, people.

mrng. punched in at 0801hrs. didnt bring vcd for james. haha! ill be attached to the outlet at tan tock seng hospt nxt week. no more blogging at werk! haha!
bought a crabmeat sandwich juz now. eating it soon.

watched spiderman 2 last nite. cool. actually im not into spidey tt much. i prefer x-men. anw, the visual effects were great. enjoyed the part where spidey n doc ock were battling on the train. cool. n, me n C concluded that MJ wasnt pretty at all. hah!
n, sometimes i hate movies. it so relates to wat im goin thru. hate to see that smug look on C's face sometimes. idiot. haha.

went bk. had our cap n milk. did sumtin naughty b4 headin home. hah! cant wait for fri.

found my 2 pairs of long lost socks! stupid idiotic bro used, kept it n forgot all abt it. gotta talk to him ltr.

cant wait for trng. runn n mun wil b dere. reen n grace wun b dere. hope trng's ok.

peace.

//im spiderman. u n me can nvr b.

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so true.. again.

hi mrng. in office alone. wearing my thick glasses cos i lost my left lens last nite. im buying a few more pairs of lenses ltr anw. andrew thot i looked so hillarious he took a pic of me. idiot.

last nite, was cold n wet. duh! twas rainin. met yati at bishan mrt. took bus wif her. 1st time. usually i'd walk. changed to my new white socks. bad idea cos its not white anymore now. hah! stretched n den did one touch n den two touch. n den did dis particular drill tt no one understood except me! damn irritating. cik is n coach j showed us like, 3 times, n dey stil cudnt get it! hah! felt like screaming at the rez. but, yeah dey caught up.lightning n thunder. took our stuff n headed for the coffee shop opposite. wif our boots! how cool is tt? d ppl at d coffee shop had a pleasant surprise.
anw.. coach told us tt our LTC is stil not released. a certain mr singh is stil against the miserable 5 of us. wats his prob man? having grudges against little helpless girls like us.. bloody toot... apparently, his attitude is well known among the soccer community. damn. n we heard he's gonna head the womens' league for 2005! double damn!! this sux. i rili wana play for this league. argh!!

gona watch spidey2 wif C at causeway pt ltr aftr werk. cool. cant wait!! i wana eat hot dog!!

peace.

//amazing how imperfections can make things beautiful

here i m again. in store now. almoz everyone's at d meeting. except me n uncle ah tan @ uncle gary. hah!

im bored. so, lets talk crap. well, i m so occupied these days. werk, soccer n outings. these 3 things r enuf to tire me. where do my sibs fit in? i go home juz to sleep. how bad is tt? man... im like trying so hard to juggle evrything. but, to no avail. i gues il juz hv to take things slow.

soccer. trng's been ok. fitness.. basics. all's cool. but d ppl.. man.. "mcm biskut marie, skejap ade, skejap takde." tt juz sucks. r dere serious? pls.. im like sick of these kinda crap. wait.. im not sick of it. im immune. im tolerating it. like how a mother is tolerating her criminal son. d love for the game... *sigh* i amaze myself.

weather in our puny island hv been good. real cooling. no more slpless nights. but, somehow, the day's too gloomy for my liking.

my room's in its normal state. messy. messiest. haha.. i thot my sis was the 'cleaner' one. i thot wrong. she's a chip of the block too. muhaha.. wonder wher we get our laziness genes frm? my parents are so fussy are cleanliness.

stil got 1 n a half hour left. think im gonna bck to d office to finis up some stuff. yep.

i miss C. yep.

over n out.

hey. not a great start for the day. thnx to dearest lilttlest sis. for no apparent reason she had to go bathe first. felt like smacking her lil ass. ended up watching bolivia vs venezuala and eating oatmeal. reached here half an hour late.

last nite, nyp beat rp 10-0. stupid game.
C was too. of all things had to be sour wif cikgu. headed home. n den u-turned bck to nyp wen cikgu called. spoilt brat. always had been, werent you dear? game ended. C showered n we went straight to sakura. twas my treat. got my pay, rmb? yep. ate a measly serving of chix wonton noodle. even my lil sis would wana hv more. hah! went to cold storage(one of my fav hangouts!) to buy groceries. ended up buying out of indulgence. i even bought fat free microwavable pop corn! was v.slpy. thot wanted to hang out at the coffee shop for our kopi n teh-o. but yeah, i was too slpy. kissed n hugged gd nite.

slpt.

today.. looking forward to 1730hrs. punch out n head to bishan park. runni baby n munah cruz having their trials. not fair. so, it'l b gracie, reen n me. i wana eat pokochuchu. hope tt coach j will come. oh! he has classes today.. boring..

man.. i hate this place. argh!!

peace.

//gosh, its so hard to trust.

hi ppl. gd mrng. hate dis place. cant wait to go bck to sch.

had a frenly yestday mrng. against balestier khalsa u-16 boys. tink we lost 4-2. i sucked during 1st half. 2nd half was better.
coach j came.. he watched frm the seats. 2nd half he came down. he hasnt been coming to trngs. its not the same anymore. its boring now. it rili is. everyone is feeling it. he said cik iz is his replacement. prob he's juz concentrating on BA since their league is already ongoing. yeah, probably.

watched the BA vs u-23. 1-5. didnt expect the u-23 team to b tt gd. jed, yaya, charm, ganga, abi was in d team. had no idea. i tink BA wasnt performing to their best. they could hv done better. all the best for the next game yah.

went over to C's. been a long time. went to meet the 'kentalans' at amk mrt to go to the std.
ate at mos burger's. den went to sportlink to check out boots n stuff. we decided to buy matching sandals. cool.

goin to nyp aftr werk to watch nyp vs rp.

peace.

//i hate to miss you

gd mrng ppl. im at werk now. was late cos i went to the bank.

last nite, had jap fd wif C, zach n a m'sian girl. weird girl. haha. didnt quite enjoy cos there wasnt much left on the conveyor belt. plus, i was a little choosy n i was a little worried abt puttin on weight anw. argh! aishah is not the same anymore!! argh! watever.

apparently, im weak. yep. weakling. victim of love. i miss C. C miss me. i love C. C love me. so.. yeah, 1 + 1 = 2

goin to a relative's wedding ltr. meeting my cousins. miss them all. im sure kak yammie got lotsa things to tell us abt tp.

im goin in production now to get things to eat.

peace ppl.

//great to be loved

wOO hOO!! finally, we'r getting the cheque. one less thing to be pissed abt. woo hoo. but, the money will only be ready on monday. boring.. but, yes ah!! cant wait. can buy the things i want!!
-cap
-soccer socks
-shin pad
-underwear
-handphone pouch
-belt/t-shirt
-boots?

argh! how do i spend? oh! someone's birthday's coming! oh, n reena too! muz buy presents.. hmm, wat shud i buy!? hahaha!

argh! cant wait to end work! goin to eat japanese food. muahahaha! im loving it. cant wait!!!! im goin bonkers.

yestday, trng, whoa.. tired.. 5 sets of everything. wen was d last time we did all tt? im aching now. tts great. im workin out. i can feek it all burning! muahaha! im nuts.

ok. gotta get bck to werk now. muahaha!

I LOVE ME!! muahaha!

peace.

//money makes the world go round

apparently wat i thot was, was not.. hmm, i gues tt is gd news. one less thing to worry away.
n,
did i or did not? i hope i did.
oh man.. useless stu-pid questions filling up my grey matter.

last nite, wrote a letter to FAS for the release of my LTC. so smangat.. n my hmewrk is stil not done. hey idiot! set ur priorities rite will ya?!
i suck.

im alone in this cold office. im not sad.

ate oatmeal for breakfast. without honey. ibu threw it away. she said it was sour. was it? it tasted real sweet yestday mrng.

im all mixed up. i feel like the things in a blender. hah! wat things?! ok, crap.

trng ltr. i can like kinda predict wats gonna happen AFTR trng. bloody.

peace.

//stooooooopid

here i m again. had rice for lunch. nice.

updated the side bar. got new links. gosh! i juz remembered wat i initially wanted to do! damn. nvm, nxt time..

gonna go home immediately aftr werk. no plans. boring.

i get cold easily. is my body like building fats to adapt to this new stupid office's environment? i hope not.

trng's been slack. i kinda miss those torturous days at gombak std, yew tee pri n marina bay field.i wana feel so tired tt il b so lazy to bathe every night.(now, i bathe everynight) its not d same anymore.

gotta go to lil girls room now..

//smile for me

hello! in d office alone. hv no idea wher the rez went. juz came bck frm production area. i did chocolate rolls. man! its definitely not an easy task. tried yesterday evening, but was a failure. finally, i tink i rolled abt 10? they sure rolled alrite.. but, they look... erm.. not nice. hah! but the auntie was rili nice n sht taught me how to remedy those ugly looking rolls. apparently i had to push the paper, instead of the sponge cake itself.

argh!!!!!!! shit! hate it wen i send the sms to the unintended person!!!! shit. everything wil go wrong! argh!!

anw, apparently, a few of the uncles here know that im playing soccer. so, while i was rolling those rolls, uncle johnny told uncle jack and uncle albert that i, play soccer. the latter 2 did not believe. n so they asked me to prove it. "how?" i said. "show me your leg." uncle albert said. "huh? oh k." n so i lifted the jeans.. n "whoa!! ok! ok! i believe!" uncle jack n uncle albert said. man.. all the other aunties there burst out laughing. man..............

yestday's trng was ok. tts it. warm up. basics. den, 2 side, wif a twist. a little boring cos coach kept stopping us. twas only coach m. even sham didnt come. apparently, the couple was sick. hah! oh, 2 players came. they mite consider playin for us. weird.. but stil cool.. i gues.

went bck wif dearest pets. runn was feeling down. me n gracie tried to cheer her up. somehow we kinda made it worse wen gracie wanted to eat 'pokochuchu'. hah! argh! gona miss u guys on thursday!

im drained. im tired. im worried. im screwing everything up. am i?

over n out.

//m or m not

mrng.. juz finis a pkt of fried bee hoon.
came early cos want to finis werk early so tt i can go trng so tt i can lose my 4kg so tt i wun look fat. (try saying all tt in a single breath! hah!)crap..

went to nyp wif C to pass the pix. met up wif cikgu. sarcastic funny man. hung out at his oficce for a lil while. he passed C the photo we took during the last 7 aside(or was it 5 aside?) at nyp. i look stupid, i tink. anw, aftr tt he dropped us off at amk. dinner. cyber cafed. den headed home.

ayah bought a polar hello kitty cake last nite. for fun. craziness. of all things! polar! well, it did taste nice. n den my parents n bro were comparing between polar n bengawan solo. like watever.

//fuck you, bitch.


peace. (hah! wat an irony..)

hey. gd mrng. in d office. the whole mrng was full of rejects. hah! me n yimiin n abel were rejecting hundreds of curry puffs! it was so so so very heartbreaking. madness.

anw, i had a very weird dream last nite. aftr watching the euro finals(where greece won by a wonderful header), i went bck to slp. anw, in the dream, ASHTON KUTCHER was my boyfren. we were on a shopping spree. he was buying me stuffs. n we had a pair of identical cars. we looked rili happy. he was carrying me, spinning me around. he said he loved me. but somehow i was sad. happy, but more sad. there were ppl who were sad too around us. n dere was also a buncha ppl who was laughing AT us. weird.. weird.

last nite watched the sengkang marines vs bishan arsenal. BA won. 3 nil? 4 nil? not sure. twas a good game...

saw muhsin dere. wen was the last time i saw n heard abt him.

lotsa things on my mind.

//be happy it happened.
//love it wen u sing.

peace.

his. gds mrngs. ims ats thes office. goins homes soons. yeps. since yesterdays, mes, abels n jame thes securitys mans haves beens talkings likes thi. verys stupids Is noes. buts, funs alsos.

haha! crap!!

anw, im goin home soon. half day. came early. office was stil locked. sat outside. a bird almost shit on me. lucky me.
goin home to sleep.. n wil b heading to the east coast for trng. hv no idea how to go dere. well, act, i do.. but, like dere's so many options i duno wic one to take. 16/135/55... the prob is, i duno how to walk to east coast frm parkway parade!!! parkway parade! argh! il survive. prob il juz meet dilah n d rez..

it sux wen ur juz abt to slp, or u juz woken up n u had so many things to write in ur blog.. but now.. the minds blank.. its like, so... irritating...
argh!
im hungry alrdi! had fried bee hoon for breakfast.. damn.

tts all for the weekend i gues. peace.

hey. gd evenin. here i m for another post.. juz finis making the egg tart pastry. damn tired.

in d mrng, ate 7 hotdogs. 6 boiled hotdogs eaten with chili sauce n 1 hotdog roll. the store guys prepared for me. haha! had pineapple juice for lunch! hah!

goin home real soon. hv werk tmr mrng.

evenin trng at the beach! cant wait.. hah! but i hv no idea how to go. is said tke 966 to parkway den walk. man! ive nvr been to parkway!!! sad.. one day! parkway parade, here i come!!

also cant wait for sunday... the much talked about match!! sengkang marines vs bishan arsenal!! woohoo!

oops! look at the time! 6pm. gotta head home now.

peace!

mrng. juz reach d office. alone. abel's not here yet.

watched the liverpool ladies against singapore national selection squad. 3-0. liverpool ladies were awesome. esp jersey no 6 & 8. man, everyone of dem were so confident in handling the ball.
haha! runni asked me whether the national squad or TR played better. hah! i duno i forgot. wasnt paying attn to our local side. but, our keeper, charmaine was great! the best keeper. altho she made a blunder for the last goal. but, hey.. humans make mistakes.

met up wif old frens. fara, mau, yanti.. elin.. but, yeah, i wasnt in the mood to chat..
bumped into the CP coach. asked me abt someone..
cudnt find the popcorn stall, was a lil pissed..

went home wif dilah.

well, peace.

--love to hear u smile--