hi! its been awhile since i updated. im in the MDSS lab wif sheeda n alif. went to sch for the CSAS thingy. goin to trng soon.

friday, went to bugis. bought stuff for saturday.. ate at mos burger. yummy.

saturday, went to SENTOSA wif my dearest C. occasion: 1st yr anni! unbelievable. it was fun. C brought along d new digicam. n i was snapping away crazily. man.. i gues i cud say i was abit self obsessed. gonna upload the photos soon.

sunday, trng was sumhw, stale. crappy in a way, but whatever. went to holland v for lunch before heading to ntu for the ntu vs uwc match. worked midnite shift wif irene, joni, zen n shida. so many new stuff. its been a week since i worked.

monday, slept the whole day thru...

tuesday, worked am shift. wif abang, ah leng n yiqi. twas ok. ate alot. ah leng kept preparing for me food to eat. i was stuffed wif caeser salad n smoked salmon! at trng i was rili, rili tired. i was weak. but trng was fun. the mock up was ok. n the 2 rounds was fun.

wednesay, worked am shift again. wif mandy, abang n ah leng again. tiring. my hero, asad came at 2. hah! OT for 2 hrs. met up wif C for dinner at sakura at nrthpt. (where else?!) C was shopping again. kept wanting to buy polo Ts n tshirts. sumhw im beginning to hate giordano n bossini. hah!

thursday, here i am.

oh! i have been listening to COLDPLAY's, A RUSH OF BLOOD TO THE HEAD. the whole album is juz great. i cud listen to it over n over again. specially track 7 & 8. green eyes n warning sign respectively. great songs!

oh, n sumhw, amazingly, this week, trngs has been ok. ok.. better abit.. enuf to make me happy.. happy's good..

i wanna pee n i wanna eat sumtin b4 trng. over n out.

oh, im getting bored wif my layout but im juz so lazy to change it.

im in the sch library. waiting for 1515hrs. meet my dearest at tm. watching movie. wanted to watch gothika, but my dear cant stand horror movies! hah!

anw, Fpr paper sucked. well, actually, i tink i suck. i didnt study. was juzt plain lazy. or tired? i duno.

had lunch with yazid at biz. the spinach was sour.. damn. didnt clean my plate.

oh, im wearing my glasses to sch. feels weird.

my ankle is stil swollen. but it doesnt hurt. f a. man, im juz so lazy to ice it. lazy lazy.. lazy..

feel like changing the template. but, lazy... lazy..

over n out.

cant believe im tolerating this shit. gues dere's nothing i can do except to prove myself. damn.

no use talking abt it cos it doesnt make any diff.

hv a gd day ppl. peace.

hi dere. i juz finis my h & w paper. gues it was ok. csas was kinda crappy.

went to town wif runn yestday to buy a gift. we had a debate about free gifts n cheap sales.. crap.

goin to train ltr.

oh, sunday we lost against home utd. 3-0. it shud hv been 2-0 cos the last penalty was crap. i sprained my bloody ankle again. dammit.. bloody ref, damn one sided.

hi dere!! gd day. im in sch on a saturday. main reason im here is to pass back yvonne's java notes. dammit. im here wif shidah n qilah. oh, im supposed to wrk but i m on mc. gues y??!

gues... quick gues..

i scalded my left arm last nite at wrk. well, actually not me.. it was abang.. we bumped into each other n he spilled the hot.. rili hot lemon chamomile tea on me. dammit! it was freaking hot!! ran my arm under tap water. den i sat down. den the pain got worse. it was so painful like sumting stinging from underneath my skin. den abang poured sugar syrup.. he said it was to hydrate the skin. den he had to go to transit to take screws cos the steam wand broke.. man! it was rili the most eventful friday the 13th! oh, n the regular n small cups were all finished. we cudnt sell drinks.
after tt, went to the clinic at the basement. got 2 days mc. the doc was cute. in a manly way.. hah!
there was dis particular thing tt happened. but i dun want to talk abt it cos i wasnt exactly involved.

oh, pit was ok. came to wrk for awhile. man, i was glad she's ok. gave her a hug.

im gonna spend today with my 2 sisters today. hope i alrdi got my pay so i can spend abit on dem.. i dun usually do tt.. hah!
tmr, game against home u. frankly, i dun wanna b 1st 11. i rather b a reserve.. oh, n kak fara smsed me saying she got bad asthma. dammit. hope she'll be ok..


oh, n thnx kak rabiah for linking me. frankly im lazy to ask abt java. i kinda gave up on it.. dammit!

n happy valentines day people! (im so not in the mood.. hah!)

hi. im in sch. for nothing. i didnt go pbpn lect. was late. n dere's no fpr lect. so im stuck in sch til 5 for my java tut. dammit. i cud hv juz slept all the way. argh!

yestday at werk, it was rili interesting. pit was wheeled away to hospt. she collapsed at werk. scared the hell out of me. hope she's ok. went bck late cos of tt.

hope ltr trng wun b so tiring. hah!

im bored n sleepy. boo hoo..

im in IT lab. finished my Java lab. dammit! my head hurts. i cant take this shit anymore. id rather be running rounds n rounds at the field instead of being cooped up in this crappy place. i juz wonder how people can juz sit their butts for hours infront of the bloody pc for hours doing programming. i mean, really programming a programme.

anyone out there, who ever knows the Java shit. please. i need your help. i need someone to exactly show me how to do it. the lecturer is ok. i gues. but i dun wanna ask her. any1.

im goin down now to take in some fresh air. argh! i cant take this anymore.
i wanna run!! i wanna kick a ball. i wanna hurt my toe, my knee, my watever! i wanna tackle, n get tackled!! argh!!!!!!!!!!!
n im very hungry too!! cant wait to get home to eat. probably il go CBTL to redeem a fee drink! but lazy ah!! dammit!!

hi. im sleepy. my eye hurts. tink i shud start wearing glasses to school.
bored. im hungry. no cash. n im so lazy to go down.

im having Java ltr. dammit.
i hvnt start lab 4. double dammit.
term test is next week. triple dammit.

oh, checked the time table.
only having paper on tues, wed, thurs n sat.
means, i dun hv to apply for leave for fri's dental apmt. n means! i can spend more time with my dearest! woo hoo!

C said motorola's sending staff to japan for internal trng (watever tt means..) hope C wun b chosen.
come to tink of it, i dun tink dey shud. dey're like short handed all the time. hey! but den again, C told me dere'd new staff. oh no! oh no! C cant go!!

did microbial tests on the cookies juz now. hah! dere were sum mix ups. funny.
our apple cider had s.aureus growing on the agar. n its not even a week yet.

oh. aqilah drew a picture of me in class. its really cute. the drawing i mean.
me, cute? of cos.. without a doubt.. hah!
someone who didnt c me for a long time said ive grown thinner.
she was worried for me.
hah! probably its juz stress.

i like clay aiken's new song. "the way" . i tink tts the title.

i rili gotta eat sumtin. n i rili gotta go thru my Java. dammit! peace and out!

hey ya. im in sch. tried changing templates, but the fonts dun turn out nice so il stick to dis one til i get sick of it. my eyes hurt. tink they're tired. been going out, werking, soccer trngs.. not enuf slp i gues. but i surprise myself. im surviving.

didnt go for mrng lect juz now. woke up late.

werk on saturday was damn tiring. slam all the way. but i survived. went back a lil earlier cos not much ppl taking the transport. woke up early for sunday's trng. was early. trng was ok. except for the last part. i dunno y. but i always feel the same thing wen tt happens. shit. f, shit.
lunched at town after tt. me, an, hazie, kak fara, chloe n suria. badut met us dere. went to borders after tt. den went to liang court starbucks. hung out til late. we played word games n win, lose or draw.. haha. funny.
C wanted to meet but it was too late. damm. miss C!!
watched The Truman Show at 10. its kinda a sad story. i gues. the place where truman stay is so fake. damm.

dere's Java tmr. fuckin a.

wun b trng tmr. but i gues i will b on thurs cos its d open house. yeah! no sch on friday. cant wait!

oh, first match for the challenge cup on dis sunday(150204) . against HOME UTD. 5pm at Hougang Std. shud b interesting.

oh well, gtg now. peace n out.

hi. im at the sch library. didnt attend pbpn n fpqap lab cos of my dental apmt. hurts abit.
goin for FPr lab soon. will be accompanying badut to bugis for shopping.

wats 5+(6*3)+3?
yeah, calculate that. that was the number of rounds i ran yestday. i ran non stop. i meant, i didnt walk. good for me. my toe hurts. alot. til now. i have no idea y. nobody stepped on it. is it my shoe? badut said its the way i ran. huh? wat seh?
thot it was tactical trng.. well, it was. kinda. the last part of trng. d2 side. didnt run alot cos my toe hurt. didnt sprint cos i pulled my calf.
yeah.. but watever rite? he dun care. he tinks im joking. he tinks im faking it.
sunday's trng's in d mrng. wat the f? gotta find a replacement for werk.
i cant believe im still tolerating all this crap. i guess its juz d love of game.

my toe stil hurts. i cant walk properly.

oh! dere's dis guy frm NUH, n he asked for my no. he stays in yishun. n,erm, he's not tt cute. hah!

well den, gotta get my butt out of here. peace and out.

hey hey! i changed the template all by myself! man, im proud of myself! hehe...
black n blue! woo hoo!!

runni's beside me in sch. goin to trng soon. yes ah! field trng! tactical. wanna practice my high balls.

last nite, werk was ok.. wrked wif a cute guy.. hehe.. blergh... im having a crush on him! dammit..
hey.. its juz a crush rite...

dunno wat else to write cos runni's irritating me rite now! haha.. she's obsessed wif sum1.

hmm. ok den. peace n out.

people! no1 told me dere's no FPr tut today. dammit. came too early. but den again, not. cos hv pbpn meeting. hah! its at 1 n we hvnt done anytin.

gues wat i had for brkfast?!?!?!?!? big breakfast meal plus sausage mcmuffin! man! muz have been the trng yesterday. im abit worried.. im building too much muscle.. no joke..

anw..... yestday, i had my first real trng after so long!! whoa! circuit trng! 5 sets of 20 stations. crunches, skipping, sit ups, hopping... i hate hopping.. erm, weirdly, i feel no pull or strain or pain at my legs BUT my arms, my shoulders.. man! dey're aching bad! muz have been tt bloody 5kg medicine ball. but twas fun. nvr trained till tt late. 9pm! amazing! it was hazie's bday yestday. happy bday girl!

oh! yestday, i played ard with skins from blogskins . i tink im getting the hang of it. ill try changing the templates wen i rili have the time k.

will be going to werk ltr instead fo going to the run ltr at macritchie.

oh! cm talked to me yestday abt wat i told cj. dammit. is dere privacy in their dic?!

gtg now. over and out.

check dis out:

it was 2 years ago, we set our eyes on each other. it wasnt love at first sight. it cudnt have been. but, something was brewing, that, i was sure of. i was hurt, he was there. we became close. i dint know what was happening. i didnt know if wat i was feeling was even true. i felt the warmth. i felt loved. he confessed. i was half expecting it. was pleasantly surprised. and, i was returning the love unconciously. i tried denying it. but it showed. i was falling. falling deeper. he was attached. he didnt care. i didnt care. i missed him all the time. without him, it was torture. counting the seconds til we meet again. longing for his touch. longing. everything seemed perfect. our happiness was short lived. our differences took the better of us and jealousy was looming. we were drifting apart. slowly and painfully. another character appears. hatred. confusion. miscommunication and misunderstandings. i was sad, helpless. i missed him bad, i still do. he was angry, selfish. i try to bring myself to hate him, like he told me to. but no, i dun tink i ever could do that. it was not his fault. then again, we shouldnt have even met. fate.
i still miss him.i still want him. i still need him. he hates me.

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