before i forget. other than the usual bukits u see in our island, here's 2 more.
BUKIT SEDAP and BUKIT BROWN.
we hv such bukits k. n i tink bukit brown will b included in d upcoming circle line.

so today will be the last day im here. im taking a break and will b back on july. goin to miss the lil kids.
i hv plans, but i so doubt dey r gona happen. hah.

i was telling my colleagues abt wat d doc told me. me having stress n all. n i told dem tt bcos of dis, im stressed. all of dem objected almost at once saying tt i was stressed bcos of other things. namely, soccer and a certain someone.
probably. probably not.

i jus feel sumtimes im not ready to grow up. to face all this difficult paths n choices. im so scared.
later, i dun even feel like goin trng cos im not ready to hear wat i need to hear. but if i dun come, im such a bad person. intentionally blowing my chance.
dis sucks.

once again, i hv so many things to write dwn, but its of no use.

il go find sumtin to eat now.

// how long must i wait?

jus dun get on my nerves k. im so irritated. i duno by waaaaaatttttttt.
i noe wat to do. dun talk to me like im dumb.

seriously i wun b sad if i dun get to go to china. im not hoping for it eversince d day dey told us abt d trip. so yeah, dun get ngry cos im not sad. hah. i noe im not ready n im not those sensitive kinds who'l get depresed if i dun get wat i want.
im goin to d club trip anw n d road trip wil sure b fun. too short of a trip but yeah better den nothing.
i hv plans n a goal to achieve 1 yr frm now. hope everything will go well.

im having amenorrhea. n i tink im gaining unecessary weight. i can feel im getting heavier n slower. got 1 day's supply of medication left. i hope everytin wil b bck to normal real soon.

i want to watch xmen.

// we can never have what we want

d st soccer was d crappiest tourney ever. dey suck la. even made one of my team mates cried. irritating.

tmr. long day.
cant wait for 10pm. haiyaaah. so lazy to walk bck frm grange road to mrt den frm mrt to home. argh.

k ah bye.

// all that i want

my hands r cold.

so wrk was ok. had d kids all to myself.

im very relieved. its a little funny when 2 different doctors said that im stressed. i never thought i would get anything that was stress induced. i gues i tink too much.
plus it was so cool la to c d inside of me. n it was cold tooo.

so yeah.. fortunately im taking time off from work this june. no more JELITA. no more COLD STORAGE. no more SBS BUSES. for one month!
wooohoooooooooooooooooooooo.

im hurting everywhere la.

k ah nak slp. il slp sound tonight. i will. i hv to.

// imbalanced

my mum cooked porridge for me but i wasnt home for dinner. i feel bad.
no thnx to d fact tt ive been feeling bad since i duno wen.

i got so many things to say. but i gues its worthless.

sprained my ankle again. its not swollen but it hurts wen i walk. it hurts at d core of my ankle. weird.
i got one long scratch down my butt. jus like oj's! hah. was sliding cos d field was wet.

i stil got so many things to say but i stil gues its worthless.

yessaaah. no work dis wkend.

ape u ckp? woopiidooooo! =p

// the end?

i guess sometimes its ok when you dont get what you want,
because what you want may not be what you need.

i miss u still. nvr enuf of u.

n btw, y cant sick ppl eat ice-cream?
ice-cream is good for u k.

// pieces

d dentist said i have an infection due to erupting wisdoms. both left and right. he said we'l jus hv to monitor it for a few more mths. mine's a vertical impaction. not as serious as other types of impaction.. but if its not fully out, i hv to go surgery.
my dental records were still at d clinic, d last i went was 1991. to remove my first 2 baby teeth. haha.

so i didnt go to trng, developed a slight fever. napped in d evening. while shidah went to grange road.

watched desperate housewives n den grey's anatomy. woohooooo.

yeah.

my teeth still hurt. it feels like somebody punched me in the mouth. i feel like having tau suan again.

// the remedy

gd monday mrng to everyone! im at home. n im not goin to wrk. my wisdom teeth are acting up again n since i hv abit of cash, mite as well i go c d dentist today. was contemplating between seeing dr joseph or going to d marsiling polyclinic. my mum said its better to c dr joseph. n my dad's gona send me to d dentist.

so anw, went to kebun baru yesterday. assisted cj in refereeing the NSSL. i tink its fun la being a ref but my right ear's still ringing now. no joke. i hope il hv d opportunity to ref d u-14 matches probably..
it was quite a long day but thank God d weather was fine. n i got a nice Umbro NSSL top. woohooo.
so anw had dinner at tanglin halt. yeah. n den to queensway cos nik wanted to get referee shorts n boots. i was so tired, i was practically dragging myself.
fun la.

so today.. hope i can get an mc from mr dentist. chill at home n den go to trng in d evening wif d lil sissy perhaps. alritey. gtg.

take care everyone, cos i care.
esepecially u.

// crappidee-doooo-dahh-daayyyyy

so i was walkin ard queensway shopping centre. saw that holland jersey again. deres 1 tts in my size. i feel like buying it wen my pay's in. it costs $114.
its not worth it rite? is it? argh. i tink its like d coolest jersey. haiz.
n i saw hoops watches in one of d shops. dey sellin it for $35. show d guy mine n told him i got 2 sets for cheaper online. den he said mine was from d old collection. hah.
watever.

oh yeah. i saw d papers. coldplay's coming to town. $168 for free standing.
its not worth it rite?
BUT I WANA GO TO A CONCERT! N ITS COLDPLAY LAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA.
for $68 u sit beside d stage. n u will c d curtains. like wth.
bluek.


hope il hv fun tmr! yeah. bye ah. tired.

// dont worry, everything will be alright

macam tak bersalah gitu kan

everything i do and will do
is
wrong

d funny thing is, i know im not stopping
anytime soon

// selective memories

jus changed my skin. black bckgrd stil n deres a pic of gummy bears. i tink dey look cute yet sinister. dey remind me of foetuses. wth.

so anw, yesterday i went to laguna for my regular golf trngs. did d indoor drills. putting, chipping into chip mate n den frog's mouth. aftr tt was full swing, apparently mine was d nicest. least problems. i shock myself. went outdoors to d putting green to do chip n putt. claire says i 'slice' my shots. hah. jus like soccer huh? i need to improve on my chipping! n i cant wait to go to d drving range! gues it was fun. but i was so so so tired aftr tt.
walked all d way out to d main road. took d bus to bedok for lunch n bck to d centre.

wrk was fine. ji-yeon was adorable la.. she has dis cute way of pronouncing my name. hehe.

trng at grange road. we got our kit. mine's not complete. n i noe y. so anw, trng was ok. yeah.
4 red shelled tortoises walking bck home aftr tt.

no grey's anatomy last nite! cos of survivior finale. bluek.

we planned to watch it. we wanted to watch. u n i. but u said u had plans. i was trying to b understanding n accomodate to ur decision. n den u said i didnt pester. HEH? im dumb.

// broken on the floor

i jus hv to blog abt dis! no one believed me! no one!
d picture below is the new Netherlands kit for Germany 2006!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
HAH!



now i can slp in peace!

hey. gd mrng. at wrk now. first lesson was fun. madeline brought her tamagotchi. its version 2. helen's her name n she's 2 yrs old. hannah didnt bring hers.. but hers is called spoty. cassius didnt come too late. he got new shoes again. puma st soccer shoes. he likes to rush n he told me he scored in a soccer match yesterday.

yesterday, wrk was fine. aftr wrk met up wif kak rin n raihan. wwe had dinner at ramen ten. ok la. d waiter spilled soup dwn my leg. i was fine but he could jus come bck n ask how i was didnt he? haiz. so we went to lucky to play pool. haaaaah. i thot i was bad. dey were... terrible? hahahahah. tak ah. dey jus dun play as often i gues. but it was fun la. i was so sleepy thruout d outing. but it was great to c my cousins. han's getting taller!
pix wil b uploaded sooooon. wen i feel like it. (o_0)

i misssssss u. its like we hvnt seen each other forever! bedek seh. :-*

oh yeah. boss says i hv to resume trng at lagunaaaaaaaaaaaaa. omg. noooooooooo. its so farrrrrrrrrrrr.
n i hv to wke up super earlyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy.
hhhhhheeeeellllpppppppp.

// secrets

last nite i typed a long entry. it was quite frank n angry. somwhow wen i wanted to publish it, my comp hung.
probably it wasnt meant to b for d public to c.
well, il jus forget wat i wanted to say n let it pass.

so anw, went out so early in d mrng. planned backfired but.. stil had tremendous fun. i always always enjoy myself with you. no worries ok. :-*

watched rat race n toy story! happiness!
howdy partner!
reach for the sky!
somebody's poisoned the waterhole!

oh yeah! did i mention to u?!
i got my CROCS n my HOOPS WATCHES! woohoooooooo!
im done with my shopping!

// way to go, idaho.

hello dere. can u hear me?

oj knows how to do addition of numbers more den 10. yeay! she so deserves to go watch d hi-5 in concert.
n if shid passes her exams, il get for her those crocs. IF.
i dun quite like my room. its getting too small for d 3 of us.
i cant wait for my bro to go ns! go go go go.

n so ive decided to stay on. d boss raised my salary a lil bit. yup.
woowweee. in a few yrs time, im gona invest some amt.
cpf cpf cpf cpf.
n in another few yrs, im gona get my own house.
woooooohoooo.

wow.

so yeah. im worried yeah. but.. no use worrying abt it? cos i nvr learn?

crap.

// is this what you want? is this what you need?

probably it was d last class yesterday. it was d killer class. james was hyper. ashleigh came bck. mirza came for make up. eli n jiyeon were being their usual selves. madness. 5 kids. but it seemed tt dere was 500 of dem in dere.

mayb tt was y i was so tired during trng. madness.

other den tt, wat did i do?

dis sucks.


i <3 u

// so little time so much to do

i am feeling very restless.

overload of caffeine. 2 cans of nescafe. 2 cans for $1.95 at 7-11.
took master pung for his lessons. he's fine. not as bad as i thot he wud b.
ppl do deserve chances.

so anw went to sentosa. saw d boys from brazil. heh. dey'r gd cos dey'r used to playing beach futsal. dey'r cute. n dey duno english.

watever la. i feel so crappy now. i duno y la. ish.

i want sumtin but wat do i want?

AAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!


me and the phantom. i looked too excited laaaaaaaaaaaa.

// so many suitors, not enough suits to wear

alone in d centre. sup went to north bridge road to get some stuff for d coming anniversary.
im feeling so cold.

i had so many things to share but im not sure now.

funny how things can change at a split second, n funny how sometimes, it tkes so long to adapt to changes.

im not 21. i dun hv to vote tmr. if i had to anw, i tink il vote for d opposition. hah. if only.

so.... i tink il head down south to sentosa tmr.

i cant wait for the 12th. i wana watch TOY STORY!
woody: BUZZ! UR FLYING!!!!
buzz: no, dis is falling... WITH STYLE!

// you've got a friend in me

strt my half days dis wk. didnt do much. sat dere and jus got rili cold. cam came. boss came for awhile.

left. slpt in d bus. almost missed d stop. got to ur left, my right. ate.. saw dis cat. i tink its pretty. oddly pretty.

to d beach. waves are caused by winds and currents. tts wat i learnt, if my memory serves me right. il go search abt tt another day n tell u more k.
il find out too y sharks cant survive in freshwater.
i want to peep at ppl while dey bathe, it seems like fun. =p

trng was fun. altho i crack up a lil under pressure. hah. i know i can do better den tt. crossed some balls. our team lost.

wanted to buy mee goreng. but pakcik closed early today. luckily ibu decided to cook at 2200hrs. d sambal tumis was abit too watery tho. but, its stil nice. watched toyols on ch 5 while eating kerangs, sotongs n petais.

pls pls. remind me not to buy anymore undergarments, online. d stock's fine now.

// people do change

wat a start to d day.
1st, it was u.
n den it was d mum.

its difficult to get messages across.
easier for me n d mum tho. cos she doesnt get ngry n she only leaves me alone once she understood wat she has to understand. n she asks questions to keep d conversation goin on.
yeah. all that but i felt like i was going to burst in tears explaining every detail n plans n watever.

probably its jus PMS. been trying to hold bck d tears for days now. no reason to cry..

been browsing n browsing n browsing yahoo auctions n ebay. i dun hv to go round shopping centres to look for stuff. no reason to go out with anyone. one less trouble to tink abt. hah. jus sit here, wrk my fingers. to d atm if i hv to.
d wonders of technology.

WHERE ARE MY CROCS!?

i have homework to do! hah. cant believe dis. but yeah. its way overdue. sup's so gona smack my bum.

dah ah bye la. tak fun ah gini.

// we need pen n paper to work things out