last nite i watched desperate housewives n grey's anatomy.
great entertainment. altho im confused abt mike, susan n tt kid. (wats his name?)
n den! now i regret missing last wk's episode of GA. last nite's so called theme was 'secrets.'
everyone has secrets.

cant wait for 2 wks more. nxt wk deres d grammy's i tink. so yeah. on d 13th den can watchhhh..
i so wana noe wat's gona happen! d surgeon is actually married!!
interesting twist of events huh.

n! deres dis guy in dark blue uniform.. he almost go to d laundry near by.. n he always smiles n say hello to me! strange seh.
probably hes just supe duper friendly.

carl's coming early. woohoo..(tt was sarcastic.) non stop, back to back to classes.
hv to skip trng. BLUEK!
argh.

oh yeah. i got discount wen i buy food jus now. haha. i was also given a discount wen i went ti guardian d other day!
it sure pays to smile alot at strangers ah.
muahahah. k ah.
carl n d mummy's coming up very very soon. i can smell them.
hah. tak ah. bluff.

// deception

hey dere.
we won d match against tiong bahru. 1 nil. shidah lam scored again.
i was last man. n.. erm. im not tired. hah. weird. anw niki, no'ne n gracie did a great job. mak was unstoppable. karen too. jon gave great crosses. miza too! rie was fighting.. n for those who missed their chances. hard luck ah.
half time dere was some kinda chaos which was totally unnecessary. i tink it was pure crap.
yeah. n i seriously dun mind a new pitch. farrer park field is rili hazardous wif all those holes... haiz.

those u-19 plyrs goin to jordan in a few hrs time. wishing dem all d best. stay healthy ok u guys. yeah.

tmr, d new girl's coming to wrk. 1st half of d day wil b orientation for her in d centre. i wonder wat i hv to do? bluek.

// lonely in this crowded place

960 + 10 = 980?
yesterday's date was 26th?
yeah.. only she, is capable of such mistakes.

tmr's game. i cant wait.
stay in d kitchen for tonight.
keanu reeves probably for supper?

other den tt, im speechless.

// in awe

ayah: kak, smalam pergi mane, balik lambat? dating eh?
me: hah. hah. hah. hah................. ~bangs head on the kitchen counter
ayah: abeh harini balik lambat lagi?
me: haaaaaha. hah. hah. ~walks away

n so, my application for d Us r done. appraisal done too! thnx CJ! n now, il jus hv to wait. checked d website again, n i actually jus hv to wait til end of march. not june!

im broke la dammit. n i just want my 30$ back.

can i like tke d bus ltr n somehow magically, it will be sunday 4pm? taknak la go wrk!

// see you in heaven

gd mrng. im stil at home. online wif cam now. haha. im supposed to b on my way to wrk la. meetin kath for d last time today. yeah, so i gues il drop by farrer park late.

last nite, wak ju was at my place. he got he's new ericsson fon n he was so proud of it! he was like showing it off to everyone la. cuteness. he's so tech savvy for someone his age. interesting. n he didnt ride his super 4 cos he said he was lazy. hMmm.. sumhow tt got me tinkin.

n kak yam.. i used to do tt too aftr my papers tau. den tt uncle who sells d bubble tea will always talk cock to us.. he over friendly. rite? is he stil dere?

I MISS SCHOOL! i miss tampines! i miss 969! i miss running for 23! i miss walking so fast to rush to class til my shin hurts. i miss waiting for d lifts to go 1 floor higher. i miss my locker. i miss d library. i miss d comp lab. i miss miss choo. ish. hah. i miss my frens. i miss d LTs.

aRGH.

k la. i need to go to wrk now. i hv to. i must. i got to. bluek.
i want a rich husband. (now,what has tt got to do with anytin!?)

// finally

im bored. im not wrkin today cos of d handover. it will kath's last day so i hv to b dere. cam had to tke over my shift today n meet d hart brothers. carl wil b coming to. n seriously, im worried. hope evrytin wil b fine for cam. jx is comin at 6. poor cam, she always has to tke d 6pm classes.
tmr, i hope i can change d last class earlier. n den i can go trng. met d siblings last wk. hope dey r ok wif me.

i feel like highlighting my hair. on my own. got dis small tube of dye since last yr but hvnt used it at all. bluek. scared it mite turn out bad. haha.

since yestday kan, i felt like drinkin 2 drinks. kikapo n mint red milk tea. its been so long since i last had bubble tea. now dis reminds me of hira! n jann! n dayen!! n alif!! n sheeda!! bluek. i miss sch!

n! farrer park field sucks la. dey r holes everywhere. killer holes! twisted my right ankle. thnakfully it was nothing serious. argh. n den kan. dere's dis green fence being put up surrounding d boxing gym.. it looks so ugly la. so d rimas.

n! technology is dying on me! my fon's gettin crappy! i cant hear wen ppl call me. i dun quite understand d profile settings of this stupid bulky fon. bluek. its free.. so yeah.. beggars cant b choosy.
d home fon is crackin up too. dere's no tone. we cant call in or out. last nite those 2 idiots were using it fine. argh.
dis freakin comp is infected by a virus. its slowing dwn. dere's stupid pop ups popping up. n i noe who is d culprit! its my bro! im sure he has been downloading those obscene things!

ish. n cam jus called me abt d chip n putt bookings! cock up again. wth.

// blind

gd day. happy birthday to zalina and yan.
i stil dun feel tt gd.
got bck my bulky mp3. shid decided its time for us to use our own mp3 plyrs again.
b bye.


4 jobs i had in my life
1. barista
2. telemarketeer
3. intern at polar puffs
4. golf teacher!

4 movies i could watch over and over
1. armageddon
2. big daddy
3. kate and leopold
4. volcano (the one with tommy lee jones in it..)

4 tv shows i love to watch
1. goals!
2. scrubs
3. desperate housewives
4. japan hour

4 places i've lived
1. holland road
2. bukit gombak
3. yishun st 61
4. yishun ring rd

4 places i've been on vacation to
1. Sendai, Japan
2. Hatyai, Thailand
3. Perak, Malaysia
4. Sentosa, Singapore

4 places i'd rather be in
1. beside him
2. in school
3. in cold storage
4. Bintan

4 of my favorite food
1. sushi
2. hokkien mee
3. kfc oriental salad
4. ibu nye mee goreng

4 websites i visit daily
1. blogger.com
2. hotmail.com
3. friendster.com
4. yahoo.com.sg

4 victims to do this tag
1. whoever
2. ditto
3. ditto
4. ditto

// she will be loved

sori for d late update of saturday's game. we drew with NTU, 2 all.
u all mite noe by now, (HAH!) tt i scored one, d other one was shidah Lam.
i was playing winger. interesting rite. i was surprised tau. but i tink i did gd.
ofcos, i can b better.
it was weird cos i was tinkin n somehow hoping i wud b pushed up frm my normal position for dis game.
btw,
imitation is the sincerest form of flattery.

so im at wrk alone. had a class with malte. cuteness.
goin to hv it with 3 other kids. 1 new.
wonder how he wil b.

im sleepy. oh yeah. im losing my voice.
hah.

// i miss youuuuuuuuuuuuuu

before i slp, id just like to inform,

I SCORED MY FIRST EVER GOAL!

gd nite. rest well dearest team mates n coaches.

details of d match tmr. if im not tired.

// no one else.

live like you're dying - tim mcgraw

He said I was in my early forties
With a lot of life before me
When a moment came that stopped me on a dime
I spent most of the next days
Looking at the x-rays
Talking about the options, talking 'bout sweet time

And I asked him when it sank in
That this might really be the real end
How's it hit cha get that kind of news
Man, what'd you do (he said)

I went sky diving
I went rocky mountain climbing
I went two point seven seconds
On a bull named Flew Man Chu
And I loved deeper and I spoke sweeter
And gave forgiveness I'd been denying
And he said some day I hope you get the chance
To live like you were dying

He said I was finally the husband
That most the time I wasn't
I became a friend a friend would like to have
And all 'a sudden going fishin'
Wasn't such an impostition
And I went three time that year I lost my dad

And I finally read the good book
And I took a good long hard look
At what I'd do if I could do it all
again..... and then

I went sky diving
I went rocky mountain climbing
I went two point seven seconds
On a bull named Flew Man Chu
And I loved deeper and I spoke sweeter
And gave forgiveness I'd been denying
And he said some day I hope you get the chance
To live like you were dying


Like tomorrow was a gift
And you've got eternity to think about
What you'd do with it
What did you do with it
What did I do with it
What would I do with it

I went sky divin,
n' I went rocky mountain climbing
I went two point seven seconds
On a bull named Flew Man Chu
And I loved deeper and I spoke sweeter
And I watched an eagle as it was flying
And he said one day I hope you get the chance
To live like you were dying

i like dis song. somehow motivates me. to live?

so yeah. u stil suck. i duno. u seem nice but. i stil dun believe u.
ur actually running away frm me. hah!
excuses?

oh. n i gave away 30 cents to an old lady. long story.

im sick. argh! but, NTU get ready to get ur asses kicked. hahahhaha!
cant wait.

// just leave..

i knocked a kid down. well almost.
i felt dumb aftr tt. stupid bike.. brake pad missing.
well.. it wasnt d bike's fault. its my bro's! he removed the brake pad!
stil had d cheek to tell me, it dropped off. wth.
i hope d kid's ok. he looked too shocked to be angry.
bluek.

so training was ok. my left leg totally suck la.
n d field was stil bad. haiz. im like watching for d holes more den im concentrating on the ball.
bluek.

i tink im falling sick. I DONT WANA FALL SICK!
i hv a game to win on saturday! n yes, i hv kids waiting for me to teach them golf too.

// you're just amazing

dere.
n i smile again.
=]

// only you

this is what happens when you speak your mind! i summed up all my courage to tell wat i thot was right. but i was deemed as rude? it wasnt an instruction, u didnt hv to follow wat i said, it was merely wat i thot.. a suggestion.
shud hv jus kept quiet not share wat i feel! shud hv jus stuck to wat i always do best. listen n just shut up!
i thot i meant well, but yeah.. dey dun c it as tt.

i wanted a hug. i want the pain to go away. urs n mine.

i was tinkin abt tinkin itself n den i rmb my late grandad. he was always tinkin. doctors told my mum tt even wen he was in a coma or sumtin in d icu, dere was alot of brain activity goin on. he nvr stops. it can b gd n it can even b hazardous. deres jus so much one's grey matter can tke.

alone. cold. but not hungry. hah. tts a first.

i stil want a hug.

i dun like this skin anymore. il change it soon. i need sumtin dark again.

// til we meet again

happy valentine's!

yeah. so i went swimming. like finally! yeah. now im tired. shit. hah.
goin trng soon. yeah. balls.
having a meetin aftr trng. shud b interesting.

well.. sunday..... went to watch d matches at clementi std. 1st game was totally one sided. 7-0 to bishan arsenal. 2nd game was better. nail biting. final score was 4-1 to young womens'.

monday. had a meetin wif ops manager n director. didnt expect him to come. slightly nerve wrecking but he was nice. umm. yeah. so.. some things were settled while other things remain unspoken. hah.
carl wanted to pee but didnt want us to send him. n he cried. hah. silly boy.

oh yeah! i tried d golden spring salad frm kfc. NOT NICE! yeah. stick to d oriental one ok. yeah.

taking care.

// dont cry when im away

n so. im home.
luke's daddy sent him to class jus now. he was beaming somhow. a weird thing for someone who had surgery 2 weeks ago. cleared the chip n putt bookings. hope everything will b ok. wrk sucks. but im hanging on. hah.

n so. my team has a new set of jerseys. n my sis has her own set of jerseys too. n ofcos, her name is printed at d bck. n d colour is real nice. its like maroon but it looks more brown. totally unique la. den white shorts n socks. ive always wanted white bottoms. i tink dey look totally.. erm... nice?? u noe like real madrid. its like.. WOW. sumtin like tt.
but! no jersey can beat d material of my teams' new jerseys. its so light u cant feel it. well, almost. even tho its black, u dun feel warm at all. amazing isnt it.
here r pix of shid's jerseys. il post mine nxt wk!




i was surfing. n den i came across this webby abt farrer park. Click here. amazing isnt it?
farrer park was where the first aeroplane landed in Sinagpore in d 1800s. golf was even played dere during the colonial era..
sporting westlake girls are training on historical grounds!
im so proud...... despite the fact that d condition of d field is terrible now.

oh yeah! i had strange dreams again. dere were a few. but i only rmb dis one now. i was running. with only a towel on n i was carrying my ezlink. it was raining. n i had to get to d other side of d road to tke a bus to queensway shopping centre. halfway thru.. i dropped watevr i was holding n ran somemore. wen i reached d other side, i realised i dropped dem. so i went bck to tke only my ezlink. but not my towel! n den i went bck to d other side again to tke d bus. WTH?!
oh yeah. my hamstring hurts now. weird or weird?!

im hungry. ibu hvnt cook. n shes on d fon. wak mah jus got admitted to ttsh again. haiz.

// the only thing i need..
the only thing i want..
the only thing i choose.. is you.

i jus got to find out tt my colleague wun b coming to wrk anymore! argh. argh. argh. argh.
shes nice. always advising me abt stuff. but she cant do this to me! i dun like d kids' parents. n she can handle dem cos she is older n looks older. arghhhhhh.

im so alone now. im cold too.. i hate wrk. arrrrrghhhh.

i want a hug. i want a hug. bluek.
tell me everything will b ok. please.

ish. irritating nye.

n den i received an sms frm someone frm klang. klang is in KL kan? wth.
asked him wher he got my no.
n he said 'saje2 je tekan nombor kat keypad. tak payah nak tahu sape saye, saje nak chit chat.'
merepek nak mampos.

wat a strt to d day. argh. im goin out now.
dammit.

// take me all the way

i noticed i hv really chubby cheeks. ish. i tink its muscle, not fat.
HAAHHAA.

watched the grammy awards. i especially liked the part where linkin park n jay-z were doin their poerformance n den chester sang 'yesterday' n den sir paul came in for a duet. great performance la.

it rained and its stil drizzling. hope it wun b too slippery ltr at mc ritchie.

k la. oj's home. wana cook maggi.

over n out.

// little man and woman

cant believe i missed 2 buses at 2 different bus stops. d stupid auntie tricked me tinkin tt she was gona board d bus, but she didnt. so d 852 sped off. at d other bus stop, i was busy looking at my hp inbox n i missed d 165. irritating kan.

n so,my bro is back. we woke up n dere he was lying on his bed, doing wat he does best, sleeping.

trng was fun yesterday. i like d dribbling part. altho, not wen i hv to use my left leg. n i liked d part wher coach j took us explaining offside n all. i hope d rest understood wat he was telling us. hope d team wil do much better for d coming games.
farrer park looks so nice at night. d open sky, d passing clouds n d moon playing hide n seek. sometimes i wish i could jus sleep for one night dere.

n funny how everyone is coming to me askin for opinions, suggestions n recommendations on things. well, not everyone. a few ppl la. but dey come at d same time so it seems alot.

i gues im gona clean d glass panels n sanitise d clubs la. so bored.

c u ltr k. please.

// bluffer

hey. changed d skin. sumtin fresher.

it seems tt its difficult for us to voice out our feelings. us here refers to d kids nowadays. me, included. im scared to tell ppl things. i only do it like wen i rili rili hv to. if not, il leave it jus as tt. i noe its not a gd thing. but. yeah.
scared? im stil cracking my brain wat im scared of. scared of getting d other party angry, sad or watever.
sumtimes wen we want sumtin, we dun ask. n we expect tt person to noe wat we want. i gues tts taking advantage. come to tink of it, deres no logic to it at all. if everyone noes wat everyone else wants, dis world wud b an easier world to liv in, wudnt it.

dis is so irritating. y im even ranting abt dis is puzzling me.

k la, random pix for ur entertainment. enjoy.


shidah. yes.


bus stop at mc ritchie.


runn. duduk mcm nak kahwin. kat coach nye car.


sunny afternoon.


i did not tell her to pose like tt!


he'l grow up to be a handsome lad.


japanese doll. dust collector. hah.

i wana go c d view frm mount faber again la.

k ah. slamat.

// never a boring moment with you beside me

hey. a quick one.

an ok strt to d day. d first class was alrite. ewan n ryan were cute as usual. n dylan was being moody, it scares me a lil.

n so. d match. we lost. 4 - 1. our goal scorer was lia.
dey say we played well. i tink i suck la.
argh.
comments frm d opposing team wasnt nice to hear.
argh.

ate tt beef soupy noodle thingy at harbour front. now i feel like havin it again dis wk. hah.

k. my eye hurts. it doesnt hurt, hurt. i duno how to describe it. but it feels weird. my bck hurts. n my shin hurts.
argh.

tmr trng at laguna.
bluek.

nitey nite ppl. pull ur blankets up cos its a cold nite.

I MISS YOU SO MUCCHHHHH.

// my paper heart

i wonder who reads my posts?

so anw, had a real X 2544541654 start to d day. lazy to explain.
lets jus say its heartbreaking.
so anw, luke was being a cheeky boy. he kept showing us his tattoo on his chest. jack was squirmy. he was rolling ard too much. n den Cam took taiga for lessons. n den i didnt giv d girls candy cos dey didnt listen to me. nicklas, my bf, didnt come today. i wonder wat happened to him.
did physical count of d stock again before heading home.

oh. wat an exciting day i had.

reached home. volunteered to goreng d jemput2. yummmmm.

nothing much to do. gona pack d bag. n den go to slp.

wow.

// every little thing she does is magic.

Post 5 random/weird stuff about yourself. List 5 fellow bloggers whom you want to do the same.Visit their blogs and tell them they've been tagged and ask them to read the rules in your blog.

Five weird/random stuffs you need to know bout me...

1. I have cold feet most of the times. (literally)
2. I have a crooked spine.
3. I dun like wearing a bra.
4. I teach golf n play soccer.
5. I like looking at people's arms. d=)

The next 5 peeps to continue the tradition are:
1) zalina
2) shidah
3) kak rin
4) kak yam
5) shakinah

yeah. u hv no choice but to do tt ok. hah.

i tink im gona b sick. my hands n feet feel super cold but my arms n d rest of body feels warm. n den, my wrists n ankles feel very very weird cos im not sure it feels cold or warm. argh. ish. i cant b sick. ive got a game to play on sunday.

the air-conditioning in jelita was ridiculous. also in d bus too.. it had to b at least 16 degrees Celcius in dere. dammit. i didnt bring a sweater cos i thot ppl mite tink im mad to bring a sweater wen its a freakin hot day. i shall now not care abt wat ppl mite tink aymore cos il jus suffer. HAH.

anw even if i do fall sick, i doubt its jus cos of d cold. i tink its cos of dis saturated brain. its rili funny how everything comes smack to my face at d very same time. life is sucha joke isnt it. its laughing at me alllllll d time. NOT! argh.

oh yeah. a cross dresser sat beside me in d bus. dis apek, wif apek glasses n a moustache. he was wearing a black tube top, red n white striped cardigan n a red skirt. white heels n knee length stockings. k. tts weird enuf rite. so like wen d bus reach yio chu kang, he kinda woke me up frm my nap cos he was fidgeting so much. n den he reached in his top n pulled out an envelope. it was a wad of brand new $10 notes. he was countin dem n den folding dem. n doin tt a few more times. n den he kept d envelope bck in his top. wen d bus rached yishun, he reached in his top n took out his ezlink n tapped it on d.. d place wher ur supposed to tap la. but he didnt alight! (me n him sat at d sit nearest to d door tu..) in my heart.."ish.. u cheating, cross dressing apek.."
hah. on d way home i was tinkin to myself, probably he was goin to visit his frens or relatives.. dressing in red, preparing money n all.

k im stil cold n warm at d same time. its irritating. my bck hurts. n im hungry.
aishah = cold, lonely n hungry. HAH.

// take me to the place i love

here i m worrying abt u, n dere u r, gettin ngry wif me.
tel me wat ive done wrong now.
please.
argh. argh. argh. argh. argh. argh. argh.

n dammit. i hv all d right in d world to know what ur gona do wif d money i lend to u.
argh. argh. argh. argh. argh. argh. argh. argh. argh.

thnx zal for being an entertainer during dinner time. hah. ur stil d same ol u. crazy, dirrty, horny, mad, irritating n all those crap. haha.


// misunderstood?