what is the matter with you?
why do you keep holding on to the damn past?
just get it over and done with.
dammit.

moooooooooooooooooooooooooove on already.

// wake up and smell the freaking kopi

finally, oat meal for breakfast!
had it with strawberry jam. total sweetness.
im d only one at home who eats it. i can hv d whole pot to myself!
wooohoooooooo...

// strongness. HAH! =p

hey. ive changed my skin. colour concept is similar to d prev one. dis is more girlish. n i tink its nice.

im sick. having a fever. my body's aching. ibu said i cant go out. but i tink i need d fresh air. we'l c how.

dis hols, except for d road trip was quite unproductive. many plans put out. cos im lazy. bluek.

bought an infra red port. transferred almost all d pix i hv in d fon to my comp. ayah said i hv to return d fon bck to his boss. haiz. tink il get a new fon nxt mth. suggestions anyone?

bluek.

// mad

finally i noe d title of tt new peter pan song. thnx to TVRI. dangdut rocks! HAH.

d bro told he got d job. proud of him BUT! he didnt come home for d night. despite me transferring $ for him at 1am just now! i was sick. sneezing, having a headache.. i cycled all d way to 800+. n dammit. he nvr fails to irritate me. argh.

im stil sick la. duno whether it was d dust or d rain. my throat n nose hurts. arghhhhhhhhhhhh. im so lazy to go out. aaaarrrrrrggggghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.

ibu jus reminded me we r goin to jb on sat. aduhai. n i promised dem il go out wif dem. arghhhhhhhhhhhhhhh. stress la. help me.

i tink i want to go bck to slp again. aqilah shut up!!!!!!!!!!!

// u raise me up

hey im bck. it was a nice getaway. my uncle went 140km/j all d way to perak. it was a smooth ride. reached dere early. walked ard Jusco n den we checked in d hotel. lets jus say, ive been to better ones.

we went to d theme park on d 2nd day. reached dere at 10am. changed. walked ard a lil n den tried all d slides. dere were 5 of dem. it was real fun. went to lazy pool. wave pool. tink he hung out at d childrens' area d most. dere were 2 drowning incidents n 1 accident where half d kid's mouth was bleeding. freaky i tell u. all d lifeguards dere were scrawny. boring.
left dere at ard 3 to hv our late lunch. went to dis coffeeshop where jumanji was showing on axn. went back to d hotel. wanted to slp but cudnt. watched japanese cartoons dubbed in malay. cracked me up. haha. was abt to fall aslp again, wen my uncle called us. he wanted to walk ard Ipoh Parade. i was kinda unwilling. but wth. finding a place to park was a killer. finally found a spot n dey walked ard. while i was trailing behind half slping, half walking. dey had dinner at some coffeeshop while i had horlicks.

last day. had breakfast n we checked out of d hotel. last min plan to go to cameron highlands. i was so excited. d scenery was beautiful. n as we go uphill, we hv to turn left right left right. at first, i found it so fascinating. i got bored aftr 3hrs of non stop left n right turns. luckily d weather was cooling. we picked strawberries. bought flowers tt didnt need water n can last for 5 yrs. went further uphill to go to d tea plantation. BOH tea plantation to b exact. we went inside d factory. it was COOL. started goin down hill. went past Orang Asli's kampungs. went past this real cool/cold waterfall. had ramly burger dere. on d way down, 2 of d lil kids got car sick n vomitted. bluek. i almost too. d bends were really sharp. i kept on wondering wat happened if d car accidentally fell. wud we die or wud d vegetation break our fall n all? hah.
aftr 3 to 4 more hrs or lefts n rights. finally, a toll booth! i never felt happier to c d highway n all.
had dinner at one of the highway's rest n relax places. another 3 hrs of drive before we finally reached johore. first time i actually drove into a gas station wif all d pumps closed. found out tt d station jus got robbed. d glass door was broken n dere were CID officers. but, dey still cleaned d car.

reached home ard 1+. gave ibu d flowers n she immediately found a vase n put d flowers in. haha. funny la she. showed d sissies n d bro wat i got for dem. n yeah. oj liked d t, i didnt hv any comments frm d bro n ofcos shid is nvr content. hah.

enjoy d pix.

140km/j

room

eerie

d childrens' area

wave pool

jumpa lagi

look who went holidaying with me

strawberry picking

they can last up to 5yrs without water!

i shoot you

you shoot me

UMPH!

teh

i duno wher we were. but it was amazing.

i stil got alot more pix. but dis shud b enuf. =)

// -

all my bags are packed im ready to go
im standing here outside your door
i hate to wake you up to say goodbye
so kiss me n smile for me
let me know you'll wait for me
hold me like you'll never let me go
HAH.

had a busy day. running here n dere n everywhere. finally finished packing. not much la. im so gonna slp in d MPV. haha. wun b away for long. but im not sure wen il b bck. miss me cos il miss u. u, u, u, u n u.

i want a regular hot vanilla with no foam. not too hot. 140 degrees Fehrenheit. having here but in a takeaway cup, please. thank you. oh, if u cud, pls sprinkle some chocolate powder on top. ur too kind.

// getaway

hey good noon. im at home. didnt wake up late cos in this house, waking up late is almost impossible. woke up feeling tired. had a drm. it was weirdly nice. hah. its those drms tt may happen but u noe it wun ever happen.

anw, i continued reading my book. its stephen king's Nightmares and Dreamscapes. (hah! no wonder. tt explains my nightly affairs. ) its a collection of his short stories. most of dem r freaky. dere's dis one where a 7 feet finger came out of someone's sink n tried attacking the poor man. another one was where an old teacher who taught 3rd graders n she hallucinates tt d children were monsters. she wasnt sure how many of dem were, so she actually called dem to another room during lessons, saying tt dey were goin to hv a test, n shot dem to death. d last one i read was abt this town,which had a rainy season every 7yrs on d 17th of june. it will rain deadly carnivorous toads. haha! funny right, but scary tau.
d stories hv been entertaining me n keeping me occupied for d past week. thnkfully.

its alrdi d holidays for me now. i gotta start packing tonight. d uncle rented an MPV with a portable dvd plyr. n kak rin thought it was called a VPM. haha.

caught. me n my mess.


// nothing matters anymore

MRNG! i jus woke up n i had to blog abt dis. i had a weird drm. (waats new? hah.)
so i was walking towards my seat in holland v's starbucks. (note: ive nvr been dere, but i noe i was dere, somehow.) so dere was dis guy smiling at me. he looked like he was in his late 20s, or older. not singaporean. he looked like some kinda middle eastern or latin american man. he had swept back curly long hair. (i dont like guys with long hair.) so he was looking at me n smiling at me. so me being me, smiled back. like 5 secs later, he came to me with a pen n (check dis out) a packet of COFFEE BEANS. (u noe, those packets the size of ur palm tt those coffee houses sell to the customers. yeah. tt one.) he asked for my no. den i said, i dont want give him my no. n den its like he alrdi knew tt, he pointed to d pack of coffeebeans he was holding n dere it was, his no n address. (heh?!) i looked at d address, i asked him if he stayed dere. n he smiled n started mumbling (ok, i tink he wasnt mumbling. i tink it was just me, not really listening cos i tink i knew i was dreaming.) i only heard he said he was in d carpet business. n tt address was his warehouse. n he needed to fly off to panama. (where is panama?!) but he was sad cos he said over dere d carpet business wasnt good. he said it was like "u noe, its like those 50's power rangers warehouses." at this point, me n him laughed. i duno if i laughed becos i KNEW it was supposed to b a joke, or because i had no idea wat he was talking abt BUT it jus sounded funny.

n tt was it! it was 0730hrs n my alarm rang! ok, probably it wasnt tt weird.. but it was weird enuf to b in my list of weirdest drms. i tink i shud start doin this- blog dwn abt my drms immediately aftr i wake up. i wun feel like goin bck to slp anymore cos im so excited typing dis dwn. (btw, im easily excited) hahaha. madness.
alritey. i gtg now. gotta get ready for work! im working on my freaking off day la! life's never fair huh? but no worries, im cool.
=)
hv a good tuesday everyone. take care cos i care. yup.

// shiver

i was so tired. d classes were a killer. a hyperactive 18kg 3yr old who talks jibberish. a boy who cant decide to b a robot, a kangaroo or a cat. a girl who cried bcos i said she cant have d magnets. i almost fainted after work. thank U for the fillet o fish.
im sick of listening to ppl complain abt other ppl. if dey'r rili tt stupid, cant u jus let dem b? y do dey hv to complain so much. its not her fault she's dumb. y cant we help her instead of just bad mouthing her? haaaaaaaaaaaah.
my back's hurting. thx to d trng in d mrng. was it d full swings or d fact tt we had to crouch so much? haiz. i hate it.
i wana run tmr. but, dammit. i hv to go to wrk. on my freakin off day. great.

for your viewing pleasure. hah. (taken on tt day tt me, my cousin, my cousin who is my cousin's sister n her boyfren went out together. in the pictures are just me n my cousin. who is not my cousin's sister with the boyfriend. HAHA. whatever.)





// jerk

i was beaten up a few weeks ago because i spoke the truth. the bruises have since long gone. there isnt any scars but there's this mark on my arm which reminded me of the incident. someone told me i shudnt hv told d truth, to save myself. no wait, not save myself, more like to avoid such an incident from happening.
wen we were younger, we heard the story abt tt puppet boy whose nose would grow longer whenever he told a fib. tt definitely did not deter us from telling wonderful stories to get out of a fix. so, just wen do we tell the truth?
back to me. was it even worth it? to go thru such a thing. i felt good, d fact tt i told d truth. but after that, i find out the truth wasnt exactly right. probably ur getting confused by now. hah. i dun expect u to read this post actually, let alone understand it.
lie. cheat. bluff. fabricate. fib. falsify. deceit. dishonest. untruth.
d late eddie gurrero said, "at least im honest abt it!" haha. he's such a joker.
i duno how to end this post. im ending up with more questions than answers.

// so, how was your saturday?

funny how i suddenly remember something i thought i would forever forget.

funny how things turn out great after senseless, pointless, crappy arguments.

funny how the people i know are so uncannily similar to each other.

funny: comical, odd (adj)
COLLINS GEM Dictionary and Thesarus

// crawling into bed with me

ish. jangan nak gitu.
bodoh kan............
tak abis2 la gini.
dey all come back at d same time.
haha.
tu la. gi skolah tinggi2 pon tak gune.
ni semue cikgu tak ajar.
dun go away. but do not come here too.
just stay wherever u r.

let me get to noe some rich handsome Perak guys k.
let him marry me n il stay dere n take care of his house n kids.
r Perak guys cute? hah.
bedek seh.

im listening to Iklim. me? iklim? wooohooo.. how times change....

nah! enjoy

3 of tt wasnt enuf. it was deliciously salty.


random shot.

// d face turns green when i press d button.

during trng yesterday, it rained heavily. tt didnt happen often, but i wasnt excited. had no mood at all.

anw, showered again wen i got home. was online for awhile before i tucked in. tt was ard 11+ pm. tossed n turned. i cudnt slp. not sure whether it was cos of my occupied mind or was it because of my dearest sister who was talking on d phone til 4am! wth. i tink i only got 30 mins of aslp. im actually amazed i cud last d classes. it was so irritating.

no more classes for today. most of d kids were under suspension. wana leave real soon but cam has a feeling tt d boss will drop by ltr.

wil b goin to jln besar std ltr to watch d match. yup.

im listening to rod stewart. (i hv d album here in dis lappie at wrk.)

i dont wana talk abt it
how you broke my heart
if i stay here just a bit longer
if i stay here wont you listen to my heart

// stay away dammit

i feel insulted. dammit.

im tired. physically.
mentally, im still ok. thnk god for tt.

i cant wait to get away for awhile. il b missing ppl. but i seriously need d break.
chill n have fun. n forget.

im totally feeling like crap. crimson tide down under.

self comfort.

sit down, lie down. beside me. do nothing. dun talk.
jus stay beside me.
if u hv to leave, dun tell me. kiss me n jus go.

// stinky

i duno y but my heart is racing.

anw had an ok day at wrk. was kinda moody to begin with cos my right eye hurt n it was sucha cold morning. warmed myself up towards d day. thnx to ryan n ewan wif their wonderful stories. dylan was being a gd boy. n dere was a trial class which i assisted.
finally paid my fines. borrowed 2 books. cant wait to get lost in fantasy.

im multi taskin now. blogging, watching suria n also central at d same time. m i talented or wat? hah.

ive been having strange dreams for 2 nites straight. making me wake up in d middle of d nite. cant rmb vividly wat dey r abt, but i jus rmb tt dey r weird n strange.

n my heart is stil racing. it is irritating me! dammit.

// this is what living like this does

so i actually planned to come late la. nik had to wake me up n pick me up in a cab. reached cck early. told u dey wud start late but dey didnt wana believe me. haha. anw, i duno how i played. tink i did ok. but i was told tt i looked tired. bluek. yeah, probably. i didnt exactly hv a gd slp d nite b4. SO, we lost d first game to d saints. n den won d rest. i forgot who's d rest n wats d score la. we qualified n had to face paya lebar.. lost la doinkz. wasted laaaaaaaaaaa.
otw bck it started raining so heavily. it was so freaky inside d car, i put on d seat belt eventho i was seating at d back. haah.

wen i reached home i wanted to slp. but i had d sudden urge for pizza. decided to go to new york's pizza. d 4 of us went to get a take out. yyuuuuuummmmmyy!

welllll.......... my right knee hurts. somehow. gotta talk to d pharmacist at guardian to enquire abt d different types of joint supplements. bluek!

OH!! i cant wait for d 22nd!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i need a freakin break n its like my uncle can read my mind. muahahhahaha. excited like wat like tt! wooooohhhhoooooooooo.. ok tak. haha. i mean, yeah. but no. ok watever.

hhhhhhaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh. b bye.

// so little time, so much to do

enjoy.


look wat got stuck between d seats in d train!


she looked ultra cute being excited.


told u.. she was EXCITED!


d'marquee


imitation is flattery. HAH! (part 1)


(part 2)


there they are!


content.

// whatever la

hey i jus got bck frm wrk. slept all d way in both buses. oj was waiting for me. saw her on her bed thru d window.
reheated some leftover pasta.. gona eat soon.
not goin trng ltr cos im bringing oj to downtown east.
we'r gonna watch Barney's musical. seriously thot of buyin front row tix. but had no idea dey were selling like hot cakes. got d 2nd last blocks. hope it'l b ok for her. =)
shidah left for kl in d mrng. didnt get to c her cos i was slpin. tried callin her but didnt get thru. boring.

oh. u noe dis fon im using its actually gracie's fon. well, i tink it was one of her parents' fon. but anw, im using the fon now. my actual fon was confiscated btw. so, my dad kinda lost his fon. i meant kinda bcos we noe where the fon is. actually dey tink dey noe but dey dun cos i noe where exactly d fon is. but im not gona tell him where his stolen fon is bcos he alrdi got a new fon. he bought a motorola razr. tt pantyliner fon. tt black fon which i wanted. but d fon is so fragile i dun tink d fon wil last if i was d owner of d fon. anw, ayah's boss or, rather his colleagues have been tryin to get to him. n den dey heard ayah lost his fon. so jus now,ayah called d home fun n told ibu tt his boss gave him a 2nd hand fon! so ibu told him not to tke d fon cos he alrdi hv a fon. but i overheard d conversation n told ibu i wanted tt fon. so yeah. probably i mite b gettin d fon.
oh, n ibu has a new fon too.
ffffffffoooooooooonnnnnnnsssssssssssss.

b bye.

// if its over, im blowing out the flame.

You are 67% Leo

How much do you match your zodiac sign?

got dis frm kak rin's.

bought d tix. cant wait. met d bro for a lil while. he's doin fine.

// i dont wana cry

its a beautiful sunday mrng!
great day to go to a beach. woohooooo.
great day to actually work it out on a field too.
but yeah, yours truly has to wrk wif d lil kiddies.

// sad ppl are sad.
but d bubbliest ppl r d saddest.

dis wil b d 3rd post for today. i just hav to rant.
i jus came bck. n i got stuck in d rain.
now, i hate cold rainy nites!
i hate it.
cos il tink of sumtin.
n tt sucks.

damn. i dun feel any better. i feel worst.
argh!

so now i noe. half expecting it.
was hoping for d worst i suppose.
u didnt end wat u started n i had to get it all in d end.
left right up n down.
u sweet talked. dun deny.
im not mad. jus a lil sad.
im dumb tts for sure. i was stubborn.
u noe wat.
i deserved it. cant say my lesson's learnt cos im bound for more mistakes.
lets jus say ive completed one of d modules in life.
hah.

oh. i forgot to mention. im bloggin frm wrk. oh! n i actually rented a vcd frm video ezy n watched alot like loveduring working hours. haah.
some girls have all d luck. NOT! (wth! isnt tt ironic? rod stewart's some guys have all the luck is playin now!)

// i thought wrong

d sky is so blue dis mrng. weather shud b gr8.
not like i care cos il b cooped up in an airconditioned room d whole day anw.

sprained my ankle. again. d weird thing is, it hurts on d inside. usually it wil hurt on d outside. gona bandage it to work cos a slight movement wil cause d pain. nik suggested tt i shud invest in an ankle brace. coach recommended supplements. i tink il jus stick to milk for now.

n.
stay away. dun ever come anywhere near me. u noe who u r.

// just stay away