hey.. 2nd entry for d day.
slacked d whole day. was on d net. surfed. i duno wat i surfed.
den i slept. not for long. but long enuf.
woke up. to surf again.
im a surfer.
showered. washed my muddy soccer stuff.
cleaned d toilet. hah!
ibu told me abt wat happened at work.
poor her. she was juz being frenly.
anw, met my darlin. had sushi, rojak n our liquids.
sumtimes i worry myself. i eat alot. n too fast too.
haiz...
went to abc. walked ard. den we sat dwn somewhere.
he was mad. haha! so talkative tonite.
so cute..
stil duno wat to wear to hpb tmr.
gona sleep again. haha.
il wake up early to prepare my stuff.
fitness at toa payoh. bluek.
munah win b comin for sure. hah!
pleasant nitemares fellow frens.

// hard core soft porn

i changed my skin. its a burger!
yummylicious.

i cud nvr wake up late wen im at home. everyone wakes up ard d same time. now im feelin sleepy. meetin C only aftr wrk. rojak n teh-o n kopi-o. shud b ah.
so tink im at home d whole day. but d family wants to jln raye ard d area.
ayah sent abg to check up. so we wud b goin out only aftr dey come bck.

im in need of a better job!
bloody hell. i juz realised i keep sayin dis but im not doin anytin abt it!
idiot me.

tink i wana go slp again la.

// i wana go tanning!

hey.......

i like duno wat to write nowasdays.
im juz so tired n stuff.
i lost my hp.
i duno wat to do.
crappiness. hvnt tell my parents. scared.
bluek!

lookin at my blog makes me dizzy.
im feelin so helpless. i like wana do so many things.
but duno where to start.
plus im so lazy. even if i noe where or how.
i wun do.
i suck la.

// qilah got new boots. where's ur horse?

woh k. shidah changed d skin for me. its the incredibles. its cute. but its kinda cramped n my entries looked ugly. il c how k.

k ah. i wana slp.

days been tiring.

// wat colour?

k kak yam. thnx for spotting. ive deleted d other entry.

happy bday to all late nov babies. namely,

gracie! zu! mar! kak yammie! terence! abel! happy happy bday u guys!

ppl. bad news. i lost my e-700. yes. juz aftr 1 day wif it its now gone.
somebody stole it while i was havin my trng.
damn dat *ucker. *uck u la.
thnx to my darlins. runn n grace for being dere for me.
luv u guys to bits.

im tired. freakin tired. of everytin.

its not my fault im feelin dis way. at all. everytime i tink we'r ok, ur actions will always make me tink otherwise. wat m i to do?

n guys, if u wana watch 'birth'(m18), watch it on weekdays b4 5 k. yeah. d movie is ok. d cast acted great. esp nic kidman n d lil kid. but d plot was confusing. very.

k la. gtg. tired. work in d mrng.

// i am sean.

i trimmed my fringe. my forehead mow feels lighter. n i tink i look a lil bit more selenge den i used to a few hours ago. but, being selenge sometimes is good. rite.
u noe, i cud hv post my pic up here. BUT. my newly returned, better, supposedly not spoilt e-700's camera's not functioning. now.. me, lazy me, tired me hav to go to amk central to c mr eddie again. cos, he has some explainin to do. yeah.
thot of goin b4 trng. but tink il juz drop by aftr trng instead. yeah.

dilemma ah. fri, sat. both days work. den jln raye. so many diff grps of ppl askin me to go out. im stuck. bluek. =P
how ah? prob i shud juz work n work n work. den at least i cant go out wif any of dem n i can earn money instead of spendin.
hah! me? work n work n work?
yeah rite.

hungry. go eat now ah.

// u cant say yeah wrong

hey dere. gd mrng to all. hey! im at home! like finally!
been goin to either work or sch on early mrngs for d past few days. hah! feels a lil weird to b at home. hah!

yestday work was chaotic! worked wif dat iskandar n a trainee. so i was d senior. d whole outlet was in a mess. d floor space is freakin limited. n dey ordered so many stuff! irritated sia. didnt help by d fact dat i was havin my frist day. hah! but twas stil fun.
headed to amk aftr wrk to collect my fon. my e-700. twas $180! damn. i asked d guy wat happened to d lcd, wat caused it to to blow up. he said i was openin n closin it too often n therefore d wire came loose. den wen i finally held my fon, it felt so fragile. i was so scared of spoiling it again. n rite now, im even scared of touching it. m i paranoid or wat? man, i feel stupid.
anw, went over to C's to finally watch 'mean girls' on vcd. freakin funny! power ah.
cabbed home.

gues il b at home moz of d time until trng of coz. yeah. my whole body's aching stil, thnx to tuesday's trng.

// coolness

hey. i juz wana tell u abt trng ah.
yeah. was late cos i left sch late. did d checklist late. so yeah.
met zela cos she was ard d area. took d train cos yes, we were late.

anyway, was rili exhausted n sleepy way before trng started. twas drizzling and cold. was rili lazy. changed anyway. n den pets came. waited for gracie to change den went to pee together. oh, coach got a new car. it looked cool. mitsubishi lancer. too bad reen's not dere. cos its her fav car. well...
headed to d field. stretched. runni started becomin crazy n kicked d water at me. oh, d field was water logged. yeah, she kicked n kicked n i was dirty. i hvnt kicked a bloody ball! so we were divided. played 2 side. i was stopper. ok ah. but somehow i had no mood ah. like so tired rite.. but i gues i did ok ah.
well, since it was so water logged, it was kinda a hopeless game. we cudnt kick d ball properly. we had to scoop d ball. n we were slidin all over d place. fun like mad. i was totally covered wif mud. from head to toe. no joke. looked like i had a facial. score was 2 all i tink.
den had crunches la. long time sia nvr do. 2 sets of 4 or 5 different exercises? so total was abt 100++ crunches. damn. cant laugh now. it hurts. but its fun. gonna do dis for the whole of d next 2 months. woo hoo..

k ah nak slp. wrk in d mrng. in bloody boring t1. sian.

// somebody told me

hi people. im in sch now.for fyp ah.
normal crap ah.

anyways, been busy. had no time for myself. had eye bags n all. i looked awful for d past few days. work n go out. i seriously need to find other jobs. sumtin dat pays a lil bit more. n sumtin not so energy sucking. damn it.

finally, can train ltr. i feel so fat.

hav been workin at d new outlet at t1d. bloody boring. less den 30 customers per day? sian eh. only fun thing. i can watch tv. yeah.

watched the incredibles. wif my sisters n d baby sitter. muahahha!
movie was good. funny.
but aqilah wasnt a gd girl. naughty girl.
but stil, it was fun. took neos n stuff.
cabbed home!

oh. pics for raye r at my cousins' webbies.
mariam n sarinah.
mariam: go her page. click on TWO. n den u find ah.
sarinah. go her page. click on IMAGEZ. den u find ah.
u all clever people rite.. sure can find.

shidah n aqilah n kak rin taught me dis.
\m/ = watever
ok. dun ask me y. it is.

// aqilah: stomach pain ah. \m/

hey. miss me? heh.. bz bz bz me. hehe. work, sch, proj n raye. yeah.

well, juz came back from our annual bus trip wif d family. yeah, twas fun. always is. last house was wak mah's. food was great! no joke. haha.. we were a lil mean dis yr, teasing our relatives. i thot cik man looked like a badut initially. he wore dis really colourful shirt. but twas cool. n den d 3 sisters had checkered tops. n therefore i called dem 'd keputats'. yeah. hahah! ok lame. but thruout d whole day, dey were called dat. oh, i was takin pics of myself wif kak rin n yam's cam.. hehe.. miss my fon ah.

anyways, i finished my vacation sociology. i gues il pass d subj.
i enjoyed d whole month's experience thanks to my tutor, ms street n d wonderful people of VT2. also to some people from d lect. hope to stil bump into u guys wen sch re-opens.

well, dis pc is killin me rite now. its bloody laggin. duno wats wrong wif it. duno wat to do abt it. sian eh.. oh, n i need to buy a freakin fon for my room. sharin it wif my bro aint fun.

yeah. im sleepy ah. gotta get up early for work in d mrng..

// take care keputat sisters.

hey.. been awhile since i updated. been bz. work. sch. n stuff.
hvnt been gettin enuf slp. wil b goin out wif d bola peeps. jalan raye.
but il b late ah.

yestday worked at t1t. wif kak elly. v cool. d place was kinda happenin. mainly australians last nite. it was quite boring in a way cos dere was rili not much customers. but yeah i got to warch CNA, MTV, ESPN, cartoon network n stuff. oh dere was a show tho. 'max n ashley', acrobats n jugglers from uk n germany. cool! oh, n i have ashley 2 cherries for his black forest mocha. hehe.. n he knows my name! muahahha.
met hammy. missed her!

oh. sch. before dat. was kinda crappy ah. presentation was crappy. only fun part was goin thru the ottoman empire worksheet..

oh, yeah. i went to d asian civilisation museum on tuesday. it was so v interesting. i wana go dere again..

im tired. n cold..
n i wana change my skin ah. bored alrdi wif dis one. shidah! ideas please..

// im still loving you

selamat hari raya. maaf zahir dan batin.
hi. im back. haha.. actually since last nite.
went back to jb on saturday afternoon. in my uncle's car. packed like a can of sardines. but was fun. dropped by larkin to get dunkin donuts n muchkins and
fire crackers n explosives n stuff. me n my cousins spent about 60 RM on dem. hah!

so after d last breakin of fast, we rested for awhile, watched SI reloaded. only saw taufik n oli sang. my cousins n uncle culdnt wait! started out wif only d sparklers. tink, all in all, dere were 800 sticks of sparklers. muahah! no joke!
n den dere was dis thing d whistling traveller. apparently i was d bravest among my cousins. so i had to test most of d new things. anw, the whistling thingy was like a rocket. v cool. den dere was dis thing. u were supposed to light it up n kinda like leave on d ground n it'l explode into bright n colourful lights. but, yeah no one knew n so i was holding it. n it exploded n my 2 fingers were black. now my middle finger is like a lil burnt. muahhah! man, it hurts for awhile but it was stil fun. everyone was having fun. den my bro n other uncles came bck frm prayers n we continued. so fun! oh, everytime we light a rocket or a bomb, d neighbours will kinda like 'answer back'. hahah! cool!

yeah, n den i was tired. n so i slept. but d others continued playin til 2 am.

mrng. ibu woke me up to go throw rubbish at d back of d house. g grasses were ultra high. den me n aqilah went to d pond. d fishes r bigegr now. cud c dem on d from where we sat. cool.
n den ppl came visitin my gramps. n den after dressin up n askin for forgiveness n stuff all of us went visitin to d neighbours. oh!!
u noe sumtin? ppl dere dun drink iced drinks. dey mix their water wif watevr syrup n den dey juz serve it like dat. warm syrup drink! man.. its not dat nice. so i suggested to my parents to serve drinks w/o ice back here wen ppl come visitin my place! muahahha! dey'l freak out!

evenin, we played badminton. haha!
i went back wif my cousins. so i was home alone last nite. n now.
my family will only b comin back later tonight.
lets just say i had an eventful nite despit being home alone.

tired ah. wana take a nap. muahah!

// only one

hey.. i kinda juz got bck frm wrk. had to stay til 1. yeah.
freakin tired. n stil dey want us to mit at bugis at 10 am ltr to buy xmas decoration. like wtf? where do my slp fit in?

had socio test. was ok i gues. i cud pass.
lect was on gender.
gender. it was short, but interesting.
thot of skippin tut. but cudnt. but it was fun after all. played guessing games.

met partners. did a lil of checklist. n a lil of d logbook.
went home. juz in time to leave d house again for work. damn.

tmr. i mean, ltr. which is today. ok..
im goin to jb for raye. yeah, at kampung. shud b cool.
tink il b bck on sunday? or mayb monday?

gonna surf a lil more. check out d online quiz. n tuck in.

// i hate chicago cheesecake!

i m so freakin tired.
freak is d current word.
-
i hv a test.
socio.
in, hmm... abt, 8 hours.
i need to sleep.
man..........

// mango vanilla ice blended please!

hey ho.
socio was great.
did u noe dat 1.3% of greeks r muslims. n most of dem r populated in a place called Thrace.
n dere are 60 bilion people in d world.
n 12 billion r in China.
n dere r 56 different races in China.
n dere was a country called Ottoman Empire.
it was one of d most powerful countries in the 19th century.
n now d place is called Turkey.
do turkish people eat turkey?
was juz wondering..
anw,
i dun like it wen its sunny n den dere's grey clouds.
it looks awful.

// fly away on my zephyr

hey...........

today was an ok day. surfed.. n surfed.
n den.
to d bank. helped my mum to change notes. for.. raye. like duh.
off to trng.
started off bad. wasnt focusing.
lost my touches. ran off to d toilet.

2 side. oh. got bitten... yeah.
by titi. girl, if ur readin dis, rili, u gotta stop dat k darl.
yeah, 2 side. woo hoo. me shah sham rizal nan nisa zela jen titi cik is.
d power team. defence was solid. heh!
but 2 touches only. muz wall pass b4 scoring.
therefore scoreless game.
break fast. apple juice. waffles. sushi.
resume. free touch.
fun. stil scoreless.
ran d flanks. dribbled past.
but din had to interfere.
watever. bluek.
home.

coach sent chips.
n den had mee goreng wif ibu, ayah n sisters.
full. home again.
tom yam soup.
man..........

// even insects are attracted to me

takin dis socio class has rili got me tinkin into stuffs. alot of stuff which normally i dun bother to tink about.

anw, i kinda noticed that d handphones dat ppl carry, n d way they sms defines dem alot. yeah. like wat type of model, wat brand, how u accesorise, how u take care of it n stuff. it says alot..
also, the way u sms.. some people uses the dictionary, some manual.. n there r those who bother to make the words look so fanciful..

well, my thots aside.. had an ok day so far. sch was ok. den met up wif partners. did gantt chart. mailed our revised proposal to mrs c. yeah. den head home. here i m. goin to help ibu wif the biscuits. heh! my sis managed to persuade my mum to bake biscuits. if not, she'l juz buy dem frm jb.. heh! n i dun bother. crap.

k ah. gotta go.

// you're ALWAYS always late.
n im ok wif it.

gd mrng ppl. (it seems dat i nvr fail to greet my readers.. heh!) anyway, thot of sleepin in today, but woke up at 8 n den cant fall back to slp. damn. my sleepin patterns disturb me. i slept so late n den woke up so early. my hormones in my brain are not balanced. (i forgot which hormones control our sleepin patterns. dat was a 1st yr module!) ok watever.

thot of goin to tpy n novena wif C now. but i tink C's stil snoring away. haiz.. so, prob its tmr.

work later. not sure who il b workin wif. but i noe zela is one of dem. tink il b tired. but il live.

i'v yet to go to geylang. not exactly lookin forward to it. i dun rili like d crowd. but somehow i feel like i hv to go. cos everyone has gone or is goin. damn. now i feel idiotic having to conform n instead of doin wat i feel. i dun plan to buy anythin anyway..

oh yeah, u all know jojo? d 'leave get out' singer. i happened to stumble upon her video.. n damn! she doesnt look like how she sounds. she looks so petite but her voice.. whoah! im addicted to her other song now, 'baby, its you.' check it out k u guys.

oh! C's juz smsed. tink il b goin out anyway.

// teenage wasteland

ahoy dere! gd evenin peeps. hmm.. duno how to describe my day today.
basicall woke up late in d mrng. went to pay phone bill. went back home. surfed a little. checked out bikes. and den started cleanin abit of my desk. changed d phone wires. tidy dem up. cleaned d windows. den everyone was home. was so noisy. screamin at each other havin fun. heh! i like it wen everyone's at home! heh. was tryin my luck. n found out i could reformat my mp3 player. initially thot there was sumtin wrong wif my usb port. idiot sia me. heh! smsed runni baby aftr dat! hehe.. paiseh.

got ready. changed. buka at thong seng. laksa! woo hoo! yummy! next target, sliced fish bee hoon! muahahah.. went to sim lim, n den to og. n den bck to bugis where we had our coffee wif sotong frm bugis village. somehow, coffee wif sotong wasnt dat bad. those kids playin in d fountain entertained us.
went to gio to try out d cords. tried d green one. looks cool i gues. but i wana try d type 1 too. at novena square. dirt cheap! cant wait.

yestday, buka at pit's place. kinda like a farewell for hammy. hammy's goin to t1d! boring! hehe.. she wasnt dat surprised. she was more pissed i guessed. but of course, who could resist our presence. heh! food was good. company was fun. pit's lil bros were so cute. firdaus gave me chocos! cant wait for raya den can go meet dem again!

ok. gotta start my report on yamakasi. haiz.. was supposed to mail my part to mateen yesterday! muahah. n i hvnt start anytin.. bad aishah.. bad girl u.

// i need you

tink it my first time seeing sucha flood. novena, dorset road, farrer park, kampong java was FLOODED! it was so cool! dere was dis taxi which was stalled at d road. n water was splashing everywhere. n so i thot trng was just gonna a wet affair. but no.

half of d field was flooded! we couldnt c the grass. titi n reen took a broom to find out how deep it was. knee deep! the benches at d side were gone.. n if dat wasnt so bad.. dere were creepy crawlies all over!!! dere were earthworms, centipedes, legless lizards, small small snakes, snails, dragonflies, frogs.. dere was dis huge huge snail, as big as an adult man's palm! no joke! it was so ugly.. man... from d bus stop, i felt like wading ard in d flood. but when i saw all those animals.. i dont even dare step near d field. i had goosebumps.. oh, on d way home i saw a crushed headless frog. gross!!!

ibu cooked dis boring looking soup. its so boring it was yummylicious. its like tofu n cauloflowers n carrots n all those white n yellow things. she always cooks weird lookin but nice nice stuff!

// smile ALWAYS

didnt noe wak ju's bike was a honda super 4. he came over to pass some stuff. told him dat i knew a girl riding a super 4 n he wasnt surprised. he said, "ni motor untuk org baik. bkn mcm bdk2 baru blaja dah nak naik motor fancy2. tu misti tp kejar nye.." hmmm.. he juz made me more determined to get started.

rainin now. was real heavy for awhile. i like rain. cold n wet. yeah.

didnt go kk wif oj n ibu as planned. sumtin happened. oj was upset. i wud too if i was her. haiz..
goin out soon. meetin titi 1st. she came out early ah. so i muz tke train to novena. feel like droppin by polar. but, somehow, im a lil scared. wat if sumtin rili happened to d supervisor dere? thnx to me. wat if? damn...

shida's out. sofi's goin out. i dun feel gd now. qilah wil b alone at home wif ibu.

thats it for now. i duno wat else to write.

// i feel like bryan adams now

hey ho. hi. gd evenin. got home at 9 plus. am not feelin too well now. tink i caught a flu or sumtin. or im just too exhausted. was sneezing my brains out. dat hurts.

was almost late for socio. thot of skippin tut. but neh, im a gd girl. wasnt dat bad aftr all. lect was ok. met up wif my partners. did our stuff. edited. surfed.
headed to amk. was a lil early. damn. watched aladdin.(oh, C bought beauty n d beast and aladdin. no little mermaid. boring.. ) fell aslp. got a a new fan. it was freakin cold. n no thnx to d downpour.
broke fast, n den continued aladdin. moto had a power trip. C's boss called. had to go back to work. managed to drop by mac. finally i could taste the savoury grilled beef burger. i tink it was yummy. the sauce was tangy although i tink dey cheated us. obviously dey sliced their usual beef patty into 2. but, yeah, twas ok. it'l b my fav burger for now.

oh! had mee rebus yestday at sengkang. hehe.. thot of those days at polar.. den thougt of isz lah! heh! miss u lah.. n no, im not skinhead.. yet! muahah.. no. i was juz being crazy.

im gonna pop some panadols n den tuck in. goin to kk tmr wif oj n ibu. yeah.

// still the fool

oi! oi oi oi!
damnit. i dun feel good. i feel so so argh!! rimas ah!
muz redo proposal. dat one nvm.. haiz!
den socio muz do write up! sian eh!
im so tired sia! but den juz now trng was sian also!
idiot lah.. actually ok ah. but it was juz me. like abit no mood like dat.

irritating ah.
wah lau! shidah is irritating me now. she's bloody talkin to herself. n she's singin. haiyoh! smangat seh dier ngan bende2 band dier.

k ah. gotta go do my proposal. n shidah, no, im not gonna get married. its not dat kinda proposal. go look it up at d dic ok. idiot.

// argh!

hiya. gd day.
how come?! whenever im gonna update dis blardy thing, my mind's blank..
damn. il try my best to recollect now. hang on k.
===================INTERMISSION========================

oh k. hi. well, 1st of all, juz gotta share abt lil huang na's case. abt 2 weeks ago her mum was searchin frantically for her. some singaporeans gathered and helped out. n den, thier m'sian fren was missing too. he was d suspect. finally, a decomposed young girl's body was found at telok blangah hill park. dat blardy 22 yr old guy was suspected for rapin n den killin dat harmless lil girl. man! wat is wrong wif him?! wen i saw d black page on yesterday's newpaper. my heart juz sank. somehow. yeah. it was kinda sad. huang na was all over d news.
plus, i ever went to d park b4. n i mean, yeah it has nothin to do wif me now. but, u noe.. d fact dat i did go dere. n wat if i was dere on sunday n found d body? or worse, wat if i was dere days earlier n saw d box being dumped.
dat guy should b hanged.

on a lighter note now. work was ok. fun but boring cos it was so stale. no slam! dere wasnt much customers last nite.
oh! dere was dis lil dude from india. he ordered a kids size pure vanilla. his name was ACHINTH. but my fren spelled it as ACHIN. after drinkin halfway, he came back to me, alomost sreamin, spelling his name. he said: "my name is A-C-H-I-N-T-H! dere's a T-H at d back! dere's no T-H hereh!" i was like, "huh!? wat d hell is dis kid screamin abt at me?" finally, i got wat he was tryin to say n wrote a T-H at d back of his name on d drink. heh! cute lah.
so basically we were juz hangin ard d outlet chattin n disturbin each other. fai came dwn again n brought her lil bro.. heh! cute. gave my schedule for next wk n d next. wil b workin on deepavali. double pay.

hmm.. hope no trng cos it's on a thurs. but i hv a feelin dat dere'l b trng, n i cant come n den d nxt week is raya week den no trngs.. so damn! i wun b trng for abt 2 wks. haiz.. hope im wrong. heh! cant stand missin everyone dere.

i wana watch little mermaid! i tink C juz bought d vcd from jb. i wana watch! i wana watch!

// kiss the girl

gd day. its gonna rain. cold again. haiz..

sch was ok. somehow a lil boring. i duno. somehow. was rili tired n sleepy.
lect was a drag. no.. ms street was great. but those idiotic guys sittin ard me were d idiots. dey were talkin n talkin n makin fun of her. damn. den i was alone cos azhari had to go wrkshop. boring. went home.

workin ltr. cant rmb who's wrkin wif me. hope it wun b bad.

my bro's not bad. he's mad. he's crazy. wats he tinkin man?

its coach j's bday. happy bday coach!

// not romantic