damn. i juz wrote a god damn long entry n it had to dissappear. gr8. anw, me in sch. took cab. driver said he sent me b4. didnt hv to tell me wher i was goin. hah! ended up chatting n telling him about my whole family. shit, cud hv come later. stupid.

handed in my H n W n PBPN. feeling a lil bit better.
hv to finish up FPr by tonite. muz!

cudnt meet C cos having ot. friday, motorola wil b shutting dwn. we r goin out. finally man! gues we'l b hangin out by the longkang. talk. been a long time since we had a decent conversation.

goin to hougang std ltr. wonder how dey'l react to my new hair cut n me without metal!! haha! wil b fun!

im hungry. n alone. boring. bored of the food here. wana go out. if only i hv a bike, can juz whizz away to nearby kopishops... yeah rite..

aqilah's getting smarter. u noe wat she said tt day wen i showed her my teeth? (ofcos u dun..) anw..
me: "qilah! check out my teeth!"
her: (staring at my teeth for 5 secs.) "amazing!"

i didnt expect tt frm her at all! hah!!

k, gotta find out d definition of REGENERATION.

peace.

hey dere. changed my skin. sumtin fresher. prev 1 was i duno. it felt 'tight'. sumhow. watevr. me at wak mah's place. didnt bring my keys. family went larkin. so here i am.

i duno wat else to write. juz miz C. said tt dey'l b a shut dwn nxt week. hope we can spend time. damn. missing C badly.

tink im goin hme nw. dey'r bck..

peace n out.

C's not aslp. we'r smsin. y d hell is C up? go to slp lah. prob we'l meet tmr. prob, if.. fuckin words. i hate dem. y cant things be fixed? i hate it. i hate it wen promises r broken. i hate the word promise too. u noe d song by Stacie Orrico. the promise song. i duno wats the title. its nice right? i like the song. but not the lyrics, chorus especially. its all crap!

fuck. ive done my fair share of breaking promises too. but i dun keep doin it. i try my darnest not to!

fuckin a. im stil hungry. hope ibu cooked sumtin nice. if not il hv to poach eggs again. i miss aqilah. ibu said she's learning addition n subtraction. cute!
i wanna talk to my bro. but its like he's always on d fon. or at d pc or aslp. tink he has a gf. n shidah, dis another idiot. shes gona hv a bf soon. dammit. stil rmb d times wen she was irritating me wenever i was on d fon. hah! wat goes round comes round! idiots. luv u guys!!

i dun wana cry all d time. i hate it wen i cry. i dun like crying. big girls dun cry.

i tink il go off soon. grab sumtin frm mac. im a die hard fan of mac's by the way. rite runn? hah! yes ah! macdonalds rule man!
im talkin crap. gotta stop.
peace ppl. over n out.

gues wat ppl?! me, yes me. have finally taken out my braces. im bracesless! haha. it feels real weird. its like my mouth is so empty. so used to the feeling of metal scraping the insides of my mouth. hehe! dr zul cute. he was singing juz now. haha! tink i wana tke a pic wif him nxt wk. tts if i stil hv d digicam wif me.

check dis out. im pissed.
"Im w0rkin at 11 2 4 den go hm slp and cum bck in d morn at 8am."
i cnt tke dis shit anymre!! work, slp, work, slp. dammit. where do i fit in? argh!

im hungry. ate ice cream potong. n 2 muffins. cassandria gave dem 2 me. thnx girl. man! i hvnt had a decent meal. im fuckin pissed. ever heard of: a hungry man is an angry man. yeah im not a man. but its d same!! shud i drop by C's place for awhile? or shud i ignore? help! im in a dilemma. plus im hungry! argh!!!!

hi. in d sch library. freezing. hungry. lonely. boo hoo. dayana went n nvr returned. alif too. boo hoo..
haha! crap! hehe... dayana had to take a breather with jann. alif went to hit d books.

got new link!! now both my pets got blog!! grace!!

check out d pix yah. tag me.

ate at engine juz now. food was ok. ofcoz, the pasta at cbtl is 10 times better.

oh! worked yestday was fun. kinda slack. no slam. wrked wif shida, asad, jeremy, fadillah n najeeb. 2 new staff. oh!! hugged abg! he was dere for awhile. man, missed him! saw aaron aziz n wifey too. but too bad i changed shift. if not, ill b serving him.. hah!!

yes ah! meeting C ltr. dinner together. tink we gonna eat at sakura.. hehe... luv u!

goin for java tut. den java lect. with an empty stomach.. bad idea rite? no glucose for my brain. only ketone bodies... damn... pbpn rocks.
frankly, i duno exactly wat pbpn stands for. sumtin biochemistry n nutrition..

hah! peace!!!

heya! me again. in pc lab juz for dis entry. forgot to tell u guys abt wat i did in d mrng!

during h&w prac, we did CHAIR DANCING. man, u rili learn sumtin new evryday. it was rli intersting. hah! we juz had to sit on d chair n dance. no joke! d whole class had to watch dis video n followed the moves. we were given paper plates as props too! haha.... i was massaged by mdm teo b4 tt. nice...

went to cyber centre to upload my pix to cd. tmr, all new pix shud b up.

C smsed me. wil b wrkin late. hv a feelin tt i wun c C tmr. damn.

goin to wrk soon. tink mgr wil b chandra. wonder who else is wrking?! hope can c abg.. man, miss him..

aite, peace people.

hey u ppl! got new photo album!! check it out!!! will put up d rez tmr k. i skipped fpr tut. cos my tummy's not feelin rite. damn. hehe.

i miss C!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

k, peace and out.

hey dere. in IT lab. tryin to put up an image but i dun geddit. nvm il ask kak yam again. had the MICROBIAL TEST juz now. twas ok. had to identify the BPA agar. den went to eat at design canteen. the potato was hard. but the fish was soft. hah! yummy. went to cyber centre. wanted to upload the pix but cudnt. nvm, will go wif alif ltr or tmr. now here i am. have to complete my java prac 08.

C called me juz now! yippee! it was gr8 to hear C's voice.
yestday, went over to C's for awhile. C told me sumtin unexpecting. hope we'l b ok. no soccer dis week. so shud b goin hme straight after school. cant meet C cos C'l b tired. *sigh*

oh! ibu trimmed AQILAH'S hair! me n her now hv exact heirstyles! hah!!

k, gotta start my java now. dammit.

peace.

new link! Ayi (farisa) another one of my good pals frm yishun sec! check it all out!

hey ppl. happy last week of march! (huh!?! wat did i juz say?) watever. in sch now. juz finis the CSAS meeting presentation. my name was MS ALICE MISSISSIPPI! haha! crap, rite? gues my group did ok. we wun fail but duno if we can score well. goin to send the minutes soon.

yestday, 210304. 13th mth anni. wat did we do? i had cbtl trng n C had to go chinatown wif grandaddy. hah!
trng was ok. i tink. the manager was dis william hung lookalike. (NO JOKE!) i tink their long distance relatives. didnt noe that t2d hired quite a few new staff. got to noe dis guy frm NYP's ECC. abdullah. he said he knew jonathan. jonathan, my sec sch classmate. sumhow im like wondering abt him.. weird..
headed to clementi std to watch the FAS WOMENS' CHALLENGE CUP SEMIS. tamp rovers vs uwc. 3-1 at 1/2 time. at 1/2 time, game was postponed due to lightning. man! it was magnificent! it was like sum kind of light show! the lighnings were juz scary.. wanted to take pictures wif d digicam. but runn suggested otherwise.
oh!!!! people!! guess what!?!? i cut my hair! i trim the length n now, i have bangs!! yeah! me, wif bangs. C was against it, n call dem DINGDONGS! my mum said i look like a BAD GIRL. my dear sister, shidah, said i look like SHIT. (thnx alot!) n runni calls me MINAH. ppl in sch said i was CUTE. hah! hira juz SCREAMED wen she saw me! hah....

oh, d game on d 17th. against ntu. 8-0. i played right mid. 1st 11. man! i was still running a fever. told coach m. he gave me the green light to play. i tink this was my best game for the challenge cup. even though i played for 20 mins!? i was feeding the strikers. i was beating the opponents. but, who fuckin cares? C didnt come.

im hungry. oh. the sch administrators blocked friendster. we cant access it frm d pc labs. dammit.

aite ppl. over n out. peace.

didnt exactly hv a gr8 strt to d day. stil not feeling well. ears blocked, nose leak, cold hands n feet, warm body. wat? im a freak?! hah! damn.. gues its juz my body's immune system responding to make my body better again.

cudnt find a bag to put all my stuff for today.finall, used the 'holey' urban bag. today i look like im going to sumkind of a hike or sumtin.

meetin C ltr aftr sch. mayb patrick's coming along too. so exciting. heard so much abt him but nvr see him in person. hope il b ok for the game ltr. frankly, i dun like clementi std. bad memories.. damn.. hope il b ok..

hvnt do my fpr. heh.. wil do it ltr.

oh! new links! zal n aishah big. my sec sch frens!

tts it for now. over n out.

hey ppl, mrng. i dun feel gd. my throat hurts and sumhow itchy. weird. my eyes feel funny. n im abit warm. i tink its java. hah! probably.. man.. i hate tt.. i cud hv slept more. juz went to lab to look at the plates. n dere were only 2 miserable colonies growing. boring!

oh, C calls me cranker. cos im always cranky. i tink its cute. heh! i luv u.

im bored n hungry.

im gonna buy a new fon dis week. tmr or thursday. C550. hope it'll b ok.

nt goin to std ltr to return the jerseys. gonna meet ayah at causeway point.

went to SIR building (watever SIR stands for..) yestday wif my bro. idiot him. den ate at beach rd. i bought dis real nice slippers for less den 5 bucks. bought for hima fred perry polo t. wonder y i did tt? hah!
gonna bring C dere on sunday. intending to buy dis great looking polo t n boxer shorts.. but... C's wardrobe is full of polo ts. hmm.. tink il juz buy a truck load of Mars bars. hehe.. dunno ah..

i need to go to the lil girls' room. over n out.

hey ya. in pc lab. ended all my lessons for today. now downloading the digicam software so tt i can attempt to upload my pix at home.

guess wat? ive no voice. since last nite. every1's shocked. n i tink its weird. hira says its boring. cos i always talk. man yeah, i kinda am stressed cos im so locked up. cant let my voice out. damn. csas presentation was interesting. i was a dormant character. was there but wasnt there. if u noe wat i mean. hah! i cant talk!! man, u guys hv no idea how irritating it can be.

yestday, game against ntu was postponed to wednesday. due to lightning. i was half glad. cos i was stil having slight fever. hope on the 17th, my voice will be back. n i hope i can play..
runn n grace had a misunderstanding before the game. glad they r ok.

went back wif dem. very funny. ate at arab cafe at lorong ah soo. went back took 854. took pictures in the bus. (ill try uploading the pix by tmr.) didnt noe grace cud b so so very vain. kept taking her own pix. hah! fun. went to pasar mlm. runni bought black pants. nice. i wanted to buy. but nah....
luv u guys!!

got my pay. hv to pay my bro's ic ltr. tt idiot didnt make his ic last yr n now muz pay fine. damn him. he better thank his lucky stars for such a good elder sister.

gotta go now. over n out.

hey dere. its a saturday n im in sch. attended a talk in tcc (temasek convention centre) juz now. abt occcupational safety at wrk. hah! didnt listen to most of it. refreshments were juz drinks n biscuits. boring. now in lvl 4 library wif alif, hira n sheeda. goin to town to watch movie ltr wif dem. shud b fun.

had dental apmt yestday. dr zul asked me abt d guy dwnstairs (muz). hah! thot we were together. hah! wat a joke. damn. made me wear lotsa rubber bands. two at the back of my mouth n two more at the sides wicmake my mouth permanently closed together. man! torture. wat? he didnt expect me to eat?! talk, smile, laugh!?! i cut open d rubber bands myself. up to date, i tink i swallowed abt 6-7 rubber bands. i hope ive excreted all of dem out. since rubber bands cant be metabolised..
anw, had lunch wif muz. had 10% disc coz hes a staff. hah! man.. im bad.. taking adv of guys.. wait till C hears abt it. C muz b pissed. heh.

last nite was weird. oh! i had slight fever. anw, me n C wwas sms-ing. erm, tts didnt happen for a LONG time cos C is always bz at wrk. hehe... miss C. cant wait for tonite!
watched american idol. man.. all of dem were funny man. was laughing alone in d dark.

runn. im cranky not bcoz of wrk... well.. its kinda 1/2 true.. but mainly its coz of C. but seriously, i m tinkin
of quittin... hmm.... gotta ask ibu abt it.

oh! pix of my school mates r up. check it out.

alrite. over n out. tke cre ppl.

FINALLY the pix r up. check it out u guys. n yeah.. ive changed my template. erm.. its nice rite. yeah.. it is.. heh..

fuckin a! someone is using the same template as me. n damn. i noe her. muz not let her find out. hah! wearing specs to sch. eyes pain ah.

came to mrng lect! hah! first time in such a long time. no fpr lect ltr. damn. brk all d way til 5.

ate chee cheong fun. (is tt d spelling?) nice. real nice. dere was chwee kueh too. try it ltr or sumtin.

wrked at t1t last nite. ok ah. no slam seh. fumbled abit wen handling the foreign money. wkred wif jeremy, latiffah n desmond. desmond's a graduate of tp seh. interesting. he was kind. bought for me thai fried noodles. nice.

damn. gotta change my skin. SOON.

double damn. havta upload d pics. SOON.

adios amigos.

hey ppl. in pc lab now. checking mail. had hnw lab juz now. had sum kind of a PE lesson. ran abt 2km in 12 mins, sit-ups, sit n reach n step ups. interesting. did all of it inside d sports hall. so it was kinda cooling. tinking of going to d gym wif alif next week.

having fpr tut soon. dey say muz hand in sumtin. n i dun hv anytin wif me to hand in. damn.

pbpn tut aftr tt. n werk til 11 aftr tt.

listening to C's coldplay again today.

took cab today. damn. wasted 12.60. cos classes didnt start in time. double damn.

yestday, bad day. nothing went rite. was hungry, dizzy, angry, moody n watever else. thnx to runn for treating me n grace at sakura. not fair. wat i get frm wrkin at cbtl is half of wat she gets frm her daddy's company. not fair.

hope today will be a better day.

fuckin a. bloody comps at sch. bloody idiot at the counter. man.. wat kind of service? asshole...
sori grace. looks like i cnt upload d pics. shit..

im freakin slpy.

oh. won sunday's game against sporting westlake. 7-2. but, nothing to gloat abt. i still suck.

bored.

hi. gd day. juz finis lessons. had fpqap n pbpn lab. had so many things to catch up cos hv been skipping n plus cos of my dental apmts.. looks like i cnt escape. stil hv to hand in my pbpn prac 1. hah!
muz prepare for d fpqap interview next week. 45 mins! man.. wat can dey ask?

oh!! people!!! guess what!?!??!!
i passed my java! programming in java. man, was i shocked..
anw, here's my results. i suck.
h & w = 20.5/50
pbpn = 26.5/50
fpr = 14/50
pjava = 29/50

gotta buck up.

goin to yishun std to watch national against ite. wonder who'l win? C said ite might win. wonder who'l b dere? hope to c az. hah!

again, had a slpless nite. dammit. over n out.

hey ppl. howdy. im at cyber centre at sch. i juz rch. didnt attend any lect. woke up at 10+. was bloody tired. not juz bcos of werk. but also cos i didnt slp well. again. and i also had the weirdest, scariest dream. it was weird n i forgot how it went exactly.

was pissed at C. C took ot in d mrng. we cudnt meet up.

werk last nite was ok. hamna was manager. oh! found out asad is a sagi.. ooohh.... interesting.. hah!

duno wat else to write.. tts it for now.

peace n out.

here i am again. but now im all alone in the pc lab. hira has class. aliferiel n dayana has meetings n sheeda.. i duno where she went.

oh! i like dis song im listening rite now. so confused by 2 play raghav & mc juxci d.

im not hungry. but i wanna eat sumtin. dammit. damm my appetite.

suddenly im missing C. weird. again, my heart was beating crazily. sumtins not rite. i tink im gonna hv high plood pressure. hah!

check out hira's blog.

tink im heading over to blk 4 now.

bored, bloody bored.

turnWhereLookLeftLookRightShellCaltexExpresswayBlueLongBurnRubberSpeedingMessy

dammit. i miss it.

What Famous Leader Are You?.

hey. mrng ppl. in sch. nxt class is at 1. went to sch early. at 8am! for the sip briefing. chose food service/catering as my 1st choice. mrs C (no relation to MY C) said i should take sumtin different. but den, thats wat i like.. hhmmm... sumtin for me to think abt..

anw, i hvnt been slpin well. slept at ard 12. den will wake at ard 2 or 3. den slp again at 5. den hv to wake up for sch at 6+. dammit. its rili irritating. every time i wake up in d mrng, my heart beat will b very fast. den il get abit dizzy. is sumtin wrong wif me? C said its bcos of my midnite shift. but i dun tink so. i rarely wrk midnite..

anw, last nite, i was angry. rili angry. pissed. irritated. n i duno y. i hate it wen i feel tt way.

runni.. man, i juz thnk god my mum's not like hers.
grace, u can do it. n like i said, dun tke it to heart.
btw, ppl, runi n grace r my pets! haha!

goin to wrk ltr. wonder who im gonna wrk wif.

OH! tt day, erm..last saturday. was wrking the am shift. dere was this crazy customer. n i mean crazy, crazy. she looked rili scary. n me n shida got scolded. i was so scared i almost cried. no joke.

tts it for now. over n out.

hey dere. im in sch. skipped fpqap n hnw. alif told me dere wasnt any hnw tut. but dere was exactly. hah!

had 1/2 boiled eggs, toast n teh-o for breakfasst at the coffeeshop before goin over to C's for awhile.

went to sch. took 133, den 24. was napping wen i missed the stop. went all the way to paya lebar. alighted n took the train. crazy me den alighted at simei. tinkin i wanted to eat at banquet. den i rmb i had no cash. so waited for 7 mins for the nxt train. went to tm to buy big n tasty wif cheese. also bought the latte. i should hv bought the meal. cud hv saved $2++. dammit. i was slpy. wasnt tinkin straight. finished my latte. will eat my burger during the 5pm brk ltr.

goin to java soon. hope ill be ok. i hvnt start p05 at all. dammit. how am i to survive? hope yvonne's the same. hah! den got fren.

met up wif runn n munah at town. hah! dey were turned off by dis guy at np! hah! munah's fren named chicken met up wif us. ate at far east. laksa! finished up the whole bowl! gravy and all. den munah had a haircut . den went back.

oh, juz now, in the bus, there was these other 2 girls wearing the same yellow top as me. man! wat else can happen today?

hope the meeting at hougang std wil b ok ltr. tts it for now.

over n out. peace.

changed my template. from blogskins. where else? its fresher n sumhw peaceful i gues. no songs tho. not yet.

anw, im having weird drms lately. abt people around me. should i tell dem?

oh, got back my hnw paper bck. failed. dammit. gonna get back my pbpn paper soon. not gonna get my hopes up. hah!

over n out.

hey, gd mrng. in sch. didnt any lect. cos finishing my csas crap. listening to some bloody dancy song on the perfect 10 now.
ate rice n sardines juz now wif qilah. n sumhw my sides are aching. y seh?

yestday, crappiest match i ever played. it was raining. i felt i alredi strained my shins during warm ups. played only abt 25 mins. my shins were so hard n sumhw it was like an erection! hah! no joke. they were tt hard. pain like crazy. no joke. asked to be substituted. anw, we lost to UWC 7-2.

C cudnt come cos had to wrk. yeah.. wrk..

im goin down soon. oh, check out the quote. n i love dis song. shine- collective soul.

peace. over an out.